I can't write when I want to
Only when I need to

I fell down earlier today and my arm is hurting keep me in your prayers.

Life—a beautiful
And sacred phenomenon -
Plagued with so much ill.

"I love you"
"I Hate you"
Really though they are the same
The more you HATE
The more you show how much you care
The more you LOVE
The more you're open to despair
"I love you..."
"I love you...."
"I LOVE YOU....."
Like I'm pleading for you to need me
Like I need you to want me
Your attention is all I want
Your touch is all I need
I scream in my own head over & over
And it's so good!
Until
I can't take this anymore
Until
Maybe I don't want you to need me
Until
Please stop touching me
Until
Why are we still doing this
Until
"I hate you"
EVERY thing about you makes me mad
Your hair
Your eyes
The way you speak like you KNOW everything
News flash
You don't
"I hate you"
The way you walk
The soft skin you have
The way you held me
"I hate you"
That you made me feel
That you left
That you're not here
"I HATE YOU"
Not just Because loving you got So hard
But because
Hating you made me realize
How much 'I still love you"

The words in the answer
"I'm fine"
From the lips of one who's not
Are as much of a lie
As those in the the question
"How are you?"
From the lips of one
Who couldn't care less.

- p. winter

dont be afraid to hurt me
with the truth

talk to me
scream at me
but baby

please dont lie to me

- p. winter