Tock Tock Tock Tock,
The clock Ticks on
As I sit and lie in my wake
Of silence that has grown attached to my ears
I start to leave and everything brings me back
Yet peace pulls me away,
I want myself,
I am burdened to listen to the drawl of time
I am upside-down and inside-out on my futon
Figuring out how to fish in an empty pond for
Anything
But nothing happens, nothing said
Nothing lost
Nothing found
Just
an empty pond
to Slaughter Time with

Although our memories are dead,
The ghost of the past will forever haunt me

Fresh vegetables and fruits
the step of boots
it's winter here
yet there is no fear
it's just cold

And so I sit
And here I write
Although my space is very tight
I sit with my poetry kit
And hope for better
In the belly of the best

How much can you fit in that brain?
I can fit two bi-polar opposites
And I can see two different ways
it's like they reside in opposite  hemispheres
oh wait

I will walk the circumference
Of the Earth

I will step around
a field of glass

Walk the ocean floor

Climb mountains and hills


You will taste the salt on my lips
From my infinite sweat


I will show you places you dream about:
Forests denser than lead
Caves deeper than the soul, darker than the heart
Oceans bluer than the sea of emotions
You feel when you look at the moon


I will walk the path none dare travel

On a regular basis
I encounter Death
As if the safest place
Would be in stasis

At 10 years old
Guillain-barre
Almost took me
But my cards i did not fold

new born
i was failure to thrive
and my head 3 sizes big
now i life with a chest cavity deformed

Not to mention the multiple
attempts on my life
but that's my own doing
i'm culpable

yet this life
is still worth living

If you wake up in the morning
and you feel cold air
you know your heart is truly warm

Down to Earth,
Something better than before,
High expectations turn low
Lower than hell's last floor
I'm supposed to be
better than those I succeed
So why is it I write poetry?
"No Future"
"No Money"
I need a lively hood
I need to fly far away

If i could sit in silence
I could go back to when i was a kid
and write about that

As the fire echos shadows on the wall
And the chains rattle with every movement
I name the things as I understand them to be
Ball, tree, beautiful butterfly
I know these to be lies but i can't seem to see
Craning my neck I see a blinding light
Blind to me at least
I begin to understand, a very fluid plan
Life through light and dark

Come, come
                       the classsroom is calling
                                                         ­         pencils stopped falling
the teacher lectures and
                                              shuts the door
kids bags strewn out on the floor
                        Open discussions open more
like every door that closes a window opens
                              Roping in students for a grester quest of knowledge

People look at diamonds and think they're so precious
But worth is only what someone will pay for it

Can it fall?
Does it end?
Will it stop?
Won't you fall?
Why can't I?
How will we?
Why so many?

I grew up
      Learning about car models
             Not knowing
I was just another one
      To my father

hush, hush...
you don't want them to hear us

breathe, breathe;
you don't want to pass out

Eat, Eat.
you must keep your strength up

stretch, stretch,
you must be ready in case we must...

Run. Run!
you don't want them to catch us

goodbye, goodbye...
you must live

Deep in the dark forest
that is my body
lies my heart
and now it flutters for you

when we touch
my heart races
when we kiss,
i melt inside
i'm so madly in love with you
i can feel you under my skin
and it warms me up <3

The cool breeze side-to-side
With a smile and a hard glare
The child in me wants to take you back
It's hard trying to show you what's within
When I know I have nothing
But forward momentum left.

Somehow I feel deep inside,
That the hard rock-rolled beach
Is where we should call home
And it's selfish of me to say,
I want to see you walk into that
Glacier Water Lake again
A fluid contradiction

Wind, oh Wind come blow away
This Rain today
The dogs want to go out and play

The man of few words
knows fewer issues

Tear drops from the sky
Replay in my mind
Swinging heartstrings

Life falls through my eye
One left closed and blind
Safe in Memory

Rain plops on puddles
Drowning syncopation

Unbeknownst, Unrealized
Some how enshrined
Time doesn't just pass by

World forever lost to time
Marching on ahead of mine
Idle idealation tends to be the cause of human demise.

A sheep in wolf's clothing
knows no better

Sometimes i sit and ponder
what life would be like if i stayed indoors
would the neighbors notice, would i be forgotten?
I suppose I'd resort to imagining rain and thunder
Instead of looking out the window
I wonder what the world would be like
should i stay indoors

They fade away
we learn to live without them
in the decay of dead flowers
future fallen just the same
i lay a bouquet of bachelor buttons
for the fallen family lines

A blanket of great green grass
Fills the child inside with love,
Wishing for a wish to be granted
Under soft smooth skies
Of baby blue and jet streams of white,
Hoping to fly away with the air currents
And be blown away by soft soothing sayings
Said under shade of passing by drifters so high;
Our heads can barely fathom
Our hands can hardly touch
Our eyes can barely see
Our hearts can hardly feel
Just from lying over blankets of green grass now blue

I meander through time
And space
Upon my aching feet
And of everything i stand for,
At least I stood

I don’t know what it is about her
I do know I think I love her
I want to hold her
I want to protect her

It is selfish
But I know I am a bit of a shellfish
Always crawling back into my house
The scare little mouse
I am

But no matter what I do
I can’t seem to convince you
I won’t make you blue
I wish you’d get the clue

I was in utter disbelief
But also I felt relief

You shared the same feelings
Like me

Defined as
"works produced by an author or artist while still young"
And I've still got a long way to go

What's it like to drown i wonder
is it this aching feeling i am always feeling
when i am deep in my head?
it's dangerous in there i say
to myself through a mirror

All you have to do is pay attention to me
And understand I need a lot of it

24/7/365 I need to be your sunshine

I wanna feel the harsh
Salty breeze hit my legs
I wanna feel the crashing waves on my toes
while my heels are buried in the sand
I wanna fly high at sea level
humming along to the summer day
sounds

Everyone has their
Lazy days
Where we just want to watch the sandcastles
Wash away
Sitting in our pajamas

The contradictions I speak
Stem from craving versus desire
The passion I feel,
Against the love I harbour
Flow freely from face value
But caught and fought in fire
Of what I want, to what I want to give you

malnutrition of knowledge and ideas
ravage the world
where wolves prey on the weak
where winds are whirled
and there is only bleak light left

The pillar of the
"quick bite," world
cheap and fast to eat,
1 as a snack
2 as a small meal
3 is a good sized meal

I personally can eat 7 or 8
i guess my metabolism is great

I heard your voicemail,
It wasn't meant for me
You said his name again
Called me him, again.
I forgave you in the moment because
It's the forgiveness I don't feel after
That speaks the most.
The hurt and pain
Deep within the vast ocean of love
hoping I'll be enough
And I know it's not your fault,
The blame reaches you anyways.

But for your fractured mind,
I still feel your heart bleed

I seem to have a thing for the women
Who don't exactly love themselves
But it's okay because once they do,
They leave

Today
was a good day
I woke up to good new
And even though
it was the first day back to reality
I learned that
no matter how strong gravity is
without it, we would not live on our feet

When Life gives you lemons, remember you planted the tree

Let's take it slow
with lights down low

and a line of blow

I've never felt so low
Why couldn't we have taken it
slow

Post-apocalyptic talk has me scared
That World War III is coming
And that trees
will look like mushrooms in the breeze

As I learn the cycle
through and through
i must learn to enjoy the weekend,
after-all, it is the end of the week

I want a Number One
I wish for someone
I can’t stifle this heartless desire
And quell this fire

I want to be a best friend, a boyfriend
I wish you’d love yourself even if it ends
I tried melting your heart
But it really is a complex body part

You wanted left alone
You wished someone would throw you a bone
You wouldn’t let me in
So I started to get bad again

You desperately wanted attention
You wished for love and correction
You wanted a Number One
Yet we were blinded by the sun

I think and I ponder
And sometimes I wander
About what is my *** of gold
and what I want from it

Don't let light blind you from darkness
Everyone needs a little reminder of bleak starkness

It is better to be honest and alone
than to lie and be isolated

Dizzy and toxic wanna watch
The world spins round
Fizzy drink in hand
While i mock it
Sit back and slumber

I want to write something that Pops!
Something that will drop your jaw
Something to retract cat claws, one that brings
Bling and sparkle to the world of poetry
I want the reader to gape in awe from the beautiful
Scenery I depict like park-hills and
Starry nights underneath
Blankets in the summer or screeching bats attempting to retreat
To caverns and attics also
Make the reader hear chromatic scales
And feel Christmas wreaths in July
I just want to write something good