The last day we were really together
I was still madly in love
but you were long gone
moved on
even

I want a Number One
I wish for someone
I can’t stifle this heartless desire
And quell this fire

I want to be a best friend, a boyfriend
I wish you’d love yourself even if it ends
I tried melting your heart
But it really is a complex body part

You wanted left alone
You wished someone would throw you a bone
You wouldn’t let me in
So I started to get bad again

You desperately wanted attention
You wished for love and correction
You wanted a Number One
Yet we were blinded by the sun

I see you in the trees
I hear your voice in the breeze
I feel your presence when i eat your favourite ice cream
I smell your hair when i lay face first into our pillow
I hear your voice in the videos we made
So tell me why i miss you so much
When you're right here in my heart,
The only place you can be

As I learn the cycle
through and through
i must learn to enjoy the weekend,
after-all, it is the end of the week

Without you
i am a train-wreck
but that's what you fell for
so don't try to change me,
or you'll leave

I'm falling
Back into the abyss
The medicine doesn't work
Anymore I feel so angry
And today?
Today was a good day...

It comes from within
It doesn’t hurt to begin
It never leaves you
Although it paints blue
We symbolize it with red
As if it makes it less dead
And we believe
If we feed
We can be stronger
Than the somber
Feeling of being alone
So we sit back and groan

It leaves like a snail
Traveling the straight retreating path
Every 7 years our taste buds change
I wonder how long it takes for my heart
To replace itself
So who’s to say,
You can’t be replaced too?
You replace yourself over time so why can’t I?

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With you I'll be moving
through hell while stuck in
heaven

Every day I take a nap
Deep in the protection
Of my mattress
my blankets and pillows
I dream of happiness
In your warm embrace
I wish I knew you
But I know you exist
And for now
That's enough

The Man With The Mask
Who dressed in all black
Showed up at my house
And carried a mouse

He ushered himself
Inside to the shelf
Where he now lies await
For when he must create

Now I sit alone on that shelf
Next to the Man With the Mask

Oh! What a world!
Santa's reindeer
Have runaway!
And now he is without a sleigh.

So for a while he sits and he ponders;
He comes to the conclusion
that the best solution
Is to find something that wanders.
So he sits, without sonder
and declares he'll take volunteers!

Walk down the old school hallway
                Lockers line leaning in
What I once stayed at for hours
                           Is now a stranger in my mind

Tear drops are our plasma
so try not to cry too much
it thickens the blood between us

black skies turn red
then blue
                 as fear turns to dread
the mourning heavens rained
          a morning mildew ensues  
"Another soul, another day"
               as an angel pulls
to polish so it may start anew

Raging like a river
or soft like a tap,
Water flows through the body
Without it
We would not be able to
Withstand much of anything;
Water can tear you apart
Water can stand up to any force
And still be water
and so can you