Shout it from the rooftop
scream it to the sea
wave your hands
take a stand
nobody's listening

He doesn't call
He doesn't try
He let go after all this time

Together they fall
Separated they fly

He thinks he's God's gift
God wouldn't make her cry

Or leave her guessing
He would dignify
No need to question
Not a doubt in sight

I want you
I'm guarded
I want something real
I'm so cautious

I cannot go through
another heartbreak
another heartache
you'll tear me to pieces

To tiny shreds again
until I am nothing to
piece back together

I want you
...but trust...
right now
It's non existent

You ask me to sing to you
To write you a song
A love song
A triumph for you
That's something I won't do
When you go away
I will write for someone better
Someone true
Someone who is absolutely
Nothing like you

Oh Jehovah
hearer of prayer
For I am but lowly and small
I am only one
of your creations
I am so glad to know you at all

You are more amazing than I could imagine
more beautiful than gold
more divine than the finest diamond  
I am grateful to know

Please let
your undeserved kindness
Everything you have said
prove true
Show us what you meant for us,
let your Love shine through
As it is written
So let it be true
Let your will be done on the earth,
let your kingdom come soon

Once it's too late
There is no going back
Mistakes
cannot be erased
Because forgiveness
never took place

I must apologize
my heart lept from my chest again
I could not reach out
to stop it
words flew from my lips
without telling my brain
they were leaving

one more time
triggers provoke my wild thoughts
before I could close my eyes
in peace

I apologize for my eyes
they stay open, even in the night
I can see in the dark
you hate that

one more time
I apologize
tattered as I mourn
I broke my own heart
believing in you

Just one short call is all it takes
Just one short call a day
To say I just wanted you to know I love you
One short call to let someone know
nothing is more important
That you have five minutes a day to spare
For someone so special
they will always deserve
just one short call a day

I've been to the bottom
Once or twice
I've been in need
More than I'd like
I've made some choices
Of which I'm not proud
Only you were there
Only you pulled me out
Out of the wreckage
Out of my depths
Only you were there
When I was desperate
Only you
Were all I could look to
Talk to
Believe in always
Only you

I can hardly wait for you will finally
show me what you mean
& I,... I'll finally submit to your advances.
I get chills when I think of the seconds turning into hours on the couch with wine glasses, cheese and French bread
curled up with a blanket, stroking fingers, breathing in memories lost in moments
I can hardly handle the time slowly ticking, creeping towards the morning when steam rises from ceramic as the clear view of the mountains connects us in a remembrance of euphoia
I can hardly stand the giddy feeling I get imagining our December, when you love me again

You looked, I listened
You attempted, I gave a response
I invited you in and you accepted
We began the story of us

I watched you; so captivating
so very devenaire
Was I caught up?
Could this really be?
Could you really be so sincere?

I'm so scared
I've been hurt too much
I don't want to go back to that
Then all of a sudden
you showed me your instinct
I about had a heart attack

It was confusing; oh so tragic
I couldnt help myself
so I panicked
Like a crumbling puzzle
A sudden sadness
I began to fall apart
For I knew deep inside
you would only break my heart
  
Time went by for hours and hours
Every moment of everyday
I couldn't stand it any longer
I thought about you constantly

So I did the only thing I knew
I could do
I had to find
my way back to you

I attempted, you reponded
To my shock and suprise!
Together we both decided
To continue this wild ride

Again you accepted
my invitation back inside
You continue to shock me all of the time

I though I was seeing
You were not like the others
You seemed different I think
I know all too well fairytales don't exist
Charm me with the truth
Sweep me off my feet

My mind is
Overwhelmed
Consumed
Without
Feeling
Cared for...
Loved

Lost in
My emotional
Forest again

Warm sand seeps
through my toes
with every step
The ocean breeze
fresh sweet hibiscus scent
floats through the air
I almost taste coconuts & pineapple listening to the rythm of steel drums
in the distance
Without a worry in the world
far from anxiety
I sit in peace, one with the palms
my only thought is
where should I build my treehouse?
Where will I hang my hammock?
Should I wear shoes today?

Eiffel Towering
Terror
Lost in traslations
In the name of a god
Love
Smashed in pieces
The heart of a city
Tried
Bonding together
Love will prevail

Compulsive thinker
                                      You're over analyzing
Acting obsessively  
                                      *It's pure passion

There was a time
I honestly believed
You could do no wrong

I believed in you
Everything you said
That you really loved me
Because I was yours
You'd never put me
Through storms
Or wish on me
Any wrong

I believed
you'd be there for me
I honestly believed

I am an imperfect reflection of love
I crave justice for the innocent
Ones who need it most, who deserve it.
Longing to erase scars unasked for, abuse uncalled for.
I am a stubborn iron pole planted deep in the ground
unmovable in my quest for peace.
Unwavering in the wind, standing strong through storms;
I cannot be penetrated by powerful strikes.
I am numb to the ice cold and I stay cool in the heat
I fight battles in silence.
Words can be powerful mechanisms
when falling on listening ears, then again
twisted words turn hope into fear, fear of the unknown.
Can a hardened heart learn to love an enemy?
What is peace anyway if not to learn to be at peace.

Almighty
Nothing less than incorruptible
Unsearchable in wisdom & power
Majestic is the beauty of your creation
Unequaled in love and compassion
Immeasurable is your mercy
You are a lover of justice
Jehovah
you are the happy God
Perfect in all your ways

He called tonight
my heart still beats a little faster
when he asks to speak to me
when that happens

I keep my cool
deep down I know
it's just a game
So I play along

He asks about me
like he's really interested
And I indulge him I'm sure
I am glad to spill it all

It almost feels like yesterday
only half of me floats
while the other half
is stuck to the floor

I like to stay on the sunny side
I like my eggs over easy
If I get shady or foggy or gloom
Please send me straight away
to my room
If I'm going crazy
There's where I'll stay
Because
I shan't want to spread ugly
Over anyone's day

unapologetically
the ideas evaporate
as though it never really happened
gone like $20 at the grocery store
in a snap
with little to nothing to show
besides maybe some small memory
that you'll  deny

What is a promise anyway?
Promises should be kept, safe
Locked up and remembered
Promises are a foundation
On which a life is built
If cracked or broken
The structure will cave

Promises are meant to be treasured
To be honored
A promise is often spoken
Without a lot of thought
Crushing the listening ear
Breaking a young heart
An unknowing heart
A trusting heart

So keep your promises
Treasure what is said
Remember it
And keep your life flourishing