Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
karma ch Jan 24
am i worth your while?
can i be your one and only focus
will you be the daddy i've needed since i was a child
why should i ask you to be what you should want to be?

am i too old for attention?
am i too big for affection?
is maturity affliction?
is my reality twisted by my retention?

when you see me i become a different person
am i not silent or feeble enough?
is my exterior too rough, or my interior too tough?
what makes me separate from who i was before
i don't recall changing in those seconds.

you said i was sweet before
more cute and interesting than any other
i'm smart, just as long as i don't stop being normal
and if i look the part, you'll love me evermore?

i can't shrink myself down to quaint size
i can't make my voice an octave higher
if that can't changed to a might
or if it did, you may offer a maybe
i'd drop everything in a second
for a chance to be your baby.
strangers - ethel cain
karma ch Jan 24
once trapped in between metal and wood, the mouse forfeits its life to the higher power
for its own foolishness and yearning for livelihood led it to the clamping jaws of death
the mischief goes without mourning, for deadweight is doomed to the side of the road regardless.
the tiny mouth of a mouse can only squeak so loudly, but the sound is drowned out by the snapping of its fragile bones like a branch of a tree falling
this is an infinite purgatory
rodents aren't reborn, and will always be invaluable to all species but themselves.
everything dies, but the hungry are murdered.

i rest in the corner of a cubic room, stuck in my fate.
i wish not for the best of life, or for a new one afterword
i know my valueless existence will be replaced down the line.
the days flash by and what is left of me is rot, clinging to the bones that make me the weak and deformed being i am.
people would save me if i wasn't a bottom feeder.
a perfect puppy, full of life and joy.
maybe just a bird, wing snagged by a predator whilst trying to ****** food.
i'm not ugly, am i?
am i not worth companionship?
i'm not even worth the food i find for my family.
the world was mine once.
to be free to wander again, without having to worry about being fooled or trapped.
i should be too young to die, but i'm too clever to live.
sun bleached flies - ethel cain
Dec 2024 · 199
tear(ter)
karma ch Dec 2024
i don't like a big crowd
they take the intimacy from an event
because when another man's adoration is more loud
i begin to wonder why i even went
to crawl from my skin and head back in time
to when the venue was empty, and the bass used to play sublime.
but those times are gone now, those singers' shells are empty, and now i just have to be free of mine.

as those lights burn in my eyes
i begin to realize that i don't and never will belong here
that tear inside my heart begins to fill with fear
because, i never thought i'd want to die
but, i don't and never will belong here
in this big dome of sounds and lies
i love conor oberst
karma ch Nov 2024
i i i, i'm the charm in your trench
you're the archaic obsession i sleep with
you rest deep in my grey matter
i rest deep in your camera phone gallery

a thought and a picture of the past
you wish and try, but you can't forget me
disturbed by the trauma i bring you
while you jadedly lie with whatever girl looks your way

i i i, i know i don't stand a chance
you don't see my face when you look at me
my wonders cease when i look in the mirror
i still love you

you don't want me to go
but as long as you don't forget me
i'll exist dead or alive
as the slumbering reason you keep on
the pretty, prattling boy in your silver locket
i love you, i hope to see you tomorrow.
Nov 2024 · 48
olive(r)
karma ch Nov 2024
i foretold the marches of men like you
the squeaks of my heart are few
far apart are words not close nor true regarding the creaks of my neglected door hinges
the grungy scene and light feels cold and awful but not as much as my love for you.

i'm not one to raise my voice
i don't reply much either
forces shan't pose a choice
for i was never told to
just flow through the air and work as an amp
i was told to be the sheath of mass as a shade is of a lamp
the managed rings that circle a renaissance
or the damaged middle-ground between a fall and a ramp.

forgive me if i moved too fast, i'm not used to attention.
not that of perfection, stunned by your complexion
sweet words to a lady for her love and retention.
but i'm not a love, i am simply tension
between a brain and a heart, integrity or intention.
i love you, have a good evening

— The End —