"hey babe,"
you call me, we talk
for hours at a time

I say something
your voice, that laugh
ring out to me like a chime

who thought intimacy
would be gained from a simple thing
connection from communicate

a simple concept
which you and i pull off,
*breathtakingly

muse, oh my muse,
please stay so I don't lose,
the feelings and memories
which make me feel close to you
*~{~.~}~

a degree of encounters
feel so meaningless
masks up and pointless chatter
association

cameras rolling
my act must carry
there is no place for sadness
in this empty heart

the cold night air
seems to be
the only thing keeping my company.
well that and the feelings swelling.

you call me names
but do you really know
the meaning they hold
and the effect they have

but there is one thing
you will never understand
see, hear or have
my internal awareness

your insensitivity
astounds
the essences to life
hold that tongue of yours

life is so unexpectedly ordinary
next you jump right into adventure
turn of a corner changed everything
what lies ahead?

could it lead to my once up on a time
or a perilous downfall
the only way to tell is to have faith
and trust in your fate

I fall, jump and bound into this unknown
and hope it's the right choice
you and I will never know what is ahead
*unless we try this path together

it's 2am
tears stain my cheeks
I put my trust in you
it's betrayed

I thought you cared
any thoughts  
are upset and hurt
music blares

happy is something you can never be
it will only gets taken and replaced with pain
the blink of an eye
*I should have put faith on the inner voice

words have no mean
if they aren't filled with feeling,
they are just empty sounds
which echo around

I love you
this much is true
believe me when I tell you
love is ever changing

I find love is always growing
reaching for the bright sun
like I reach for you, my own sun  
I love you deeply

but not the way that that I must feel
when you hear the words
fall out of my mouth
or see them light up on your screen

I want to feel a certain way
you know with certainty
that truly and deeply
am in love with you and you alone

upside down
twisted round
problems weighed
yet gravity held me

blue eyed babe
with arms out wide
no reason to hide
you held me tighter

recalling a feeling
to never feel again
you took it away
with the simplicity of a kiss

the flutter in my chest
you are responsible
so I'm going to ask
*is this what love is?

you are a constant reminder
of a reverberating pain
in those silent times
there were things I wanted to scream

and she is the admissible beauty
the envy of you and me
I felt your love for her
while you proclaimed your love for me

yet the words you spoke held no truth
and neither did the ones I spoke back
the lies fell out as easy
as the breaths I take

your love for her has grown
while we grow further apart
a change which makes me
feel more deeply than ever

i.
look at the horizon
a new day is dawning
the colours mixing
stealing the air i breathe

ii.
the wonders of the world discovering
nothing left for me to be looking
except i feel a longing
for adventure far away

iii.*
words strung together form meaning
some which create such deep bonds
others which break worlds and souls
so, what did you wish to tell me?

you are a loved one held so dear
you are a monster hiding under my bed, fear

you are storm causing so much pain
you are blood pumping through these veins

you are thoughts unthinkable
you are my suicide, it's not fixable

you are words that I don't speak
you are nightmares that I have bleak

you are emotions unfelt
you are numbness undealt

you are tears streaming down
you are feelings so renown

you are my anger not shown
you are a hit never thrown

you are jealously oh so green
you are envy that should never be seen

you are the one who is not to blame
you are not me who ruins everything, that not my aim

you said you loved me,
I said it back.
but then, *why do I feel this way?

death
3 constants 2 vows
and one final
condition

a word which describes
the end, last,
the big finale
the last act

the intermission
is now over
take your seat
are you ready for the ride

rest in peace
while those
who are left
remain in pieces

the hooded figure
is here for you
to claim your soul
and these forgotten regrets

ready?
I know I am
let's go
into the darkness

to see what awaits
on the other side
heaven, hell
*or something in between

I want to go back
to the simple days
where all problems
fixed by tape or glue

the worst thing
that could have happen
when you did something
mum would have all the answers

not anymore
the years flown by
problems mine alone to deal with
to work out the answer

a sign hung
high above
swaying with the breeze
*welcome to reality