There's something wrong
When I cannot
recall for which
mass "never again"
my flag glistens at
half mast

Have you ever screamed
until you were out of breath?

And kept screaming

Like getting you to see the want
in my eyes

I thought it would stay like it was

Now I find myself
yelling after the wind

I
I
I

am tired
lost in the world off axis

been stuck
in a rut
watching you stuff your face with earthly desires

fill voids
with imaginary cement

you giggle
as I stand vigil
on eggshells over our relationship

you spat on it
the games...
#you'rehappy
#sad
#mad
#romantic
#mad
#mad



you search for joy that you yourself chose to sacrifice

I do everything
I fight for us
I'd give my life for us

but your (everything but clinical) obsession with
kissing Depression
strolling Pessimism through parks..
while simultaneously
******* Love into physical attraction

I'm tired

You continue to put assimilation on a pedestal
letting it...
dictate pleasures,
still your joy,
define beauty and then lock it away

if I call you baby

will it prove my love for you?

baby...I'm tired

of...
running in the circles of your first emotion
trying to prove my devotion

of...
building you a smile

I'm tired
you'll put me 3ft under in a shallow grave
I'm tired

but...
I love you
what do you need? What's wrong? what can I do baby? what can I do?

Do you see the brighter side is an illusion?
All I see is bright
The grass aint greener
Its just ******* green
We don't need to chase peace
It never leaves
baby
please
see


stop ignoring my needs
feed me
save me
please

From:Soul
To:Mind

I ******* know who you are

I've known for a long time

I just...pretended to discover your faults

I pretended to be surprised

The petty ******* you put me through
You're a story to tell
A "look what they did now"
and **** my peers for
swallowing these emotions of hurt
**** them for not telling me that I'm brilliant
That I'm a ******* poet
That I knew you before you knew yourself

No better yet **** me

I chose to put my heart on a platter
B/c I figured its beauty would blind you
into accidentally growing up

I used my insecurity with myself to reason
That if I tried hard enough my love
would cocoon you into the person you could be

How dare I have such a low regard for myself

How dare I focus energy into being a foundation for you
Everyone spits  on the ground

How dare I pretend that loving you is out of my control
**** me for that dumb mentality
for making excuses
for displacing blame
for writing this poem

I walked into your soul and asked that you love me
offered my heart out of loneliness

Weak
Is not what I am
Life is what I make it

You will be a distasteful blemish on my crown
kept only as a reminder that
my love isn't a tool to be manipulated in an attempt
to fill a nonexistent void I've created
its something I afford everyone
Its beautiful
Its biblical
Its peace

So excuse me while I
grow the **** up

Breath Shallow mi amor
Your iron lungs
Forever need rest
Here
Let me
take your next breath

I cling to now
Ignore was...and then

Please Smile slowly
I'll try not to blink
Except to
Ward off
Salty streams
I just...
Don't wanna miss
a thing

like Those lips....

Ecstasy

When I slip my slightest print
Over them
I Can feel the
deepest cracks
Peeling
Dead
Soft scales of death

Beautiful

Breath Shallow my love
I'm clawing
At now
But was
Continues to take
From us

f*ing *******...

Oh My Sampson
Unbreakably shattered
Your bones pierce
Through your tired leathery
Skin
I lust
Its lack of luster


With Your head
Smooth
A barren meadow
Not how you like it
But you love
to let it
Blow
in the wind

Mi amor
Calmase!

If I could
lay here for you
I would

You know...
You see my
Longing twinkle
In my youth

Sometimes I think
You've let go

Just
.....
to free me
You keep breathing deeply