Its raining here and I couldn't help but think about you, even though I know you hate the rain.
I always laughed at that, at how different we both were, at how much you used to hate the things I loved.

I hadn't thought about you at all this week. but as I heard the spatter of raindrops against my window and your voice,unbidden,rang through my mind like a bell chime. again and again, saying “urgh, i hate the rain.”

Isn't it weird? When that one thing you hate the most becomes that one thing to remind someone of you. I find it infinitely sad and infinitely funny at the same time. It makes me both; happy and sad. Making me want to laugh and cry at the same time,because that’s what you did to me. You made me lose my balance.

I used to think that, I could keep my sentiments restrained; You showed me that nobody could control their emotions. You showed me that opposites go really good together. You showed me an "us".  You showed me the kind of love that could either raise the world to its full glory or burn it down to ashes.

You showed me that there was a war inside each of us and that we had to fight it. You trained me, taught me how to fight the raging battle between the two sides of my own soul.

And then the war came and I was smack in the middle of it, where you taught me to be. And I was on the battle ground, wounded, bleeding -- dying, loosing. And I looked back at you for help. I looked back. And never found you there. You were never there.