Paul Anthony Hutchinson: Favorites

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Madisen Kuhn

why do i crumble
fall into pieces of
oats and sugar
something beautiful
in a white bowl, but
a mess on the floor
when i wake up
in an empty house
why do i wither like
brown leaves
under brand new and
borrowed boots atop
autumn sidewalks
when i’m alone,
i’m alone,
i’m alone
it is not enough
to eat breakfast
however small
to wash my hair with
coconut milk
to not step out into
the busy street;
i freeze before the ice
touches me
i do not allow
the chance to warm
my own hands
i lie down, on
***** sheets,
and wait for someone
anyone
anything
to awaken me

#alone #loneliness #lonely #dysfunction #helpless #helplessness #dependence #anxiety #depression

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

I gave you

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

South-by-Southwest

I gave you

I gave you my shoulder
You gave me your heart

Your kisses were warmer
Your hands were colder

Your moves were bolder
There's a fire in my heart

A light in my dark

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Pictured from Behind

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Bobby Copeland

Pictured from Behind

As pictured from behind, she looks
Across the water into trees,
Gripping balcony rail waist high.
She's put down bow and violin,
White table just below the rail.
French doors half open frame her back,
Her braided hair, her ankles crossed.
Her weight has shifted slightly left.

After a painting by S. Sadan

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Comforting cold

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

AndSoOn

Comforting cold

Cold adds a comforting note to tonight
It wraps around my body, taking it all in
In my basement bedroom, where I've just lost a fight
Far away from home, when I just realised where it's been

I promised, to her, to him, I would be alright
I thought I left in time, strong enough to take care of my life
Yet, I still watch the raindrops dance with the wind and city lights
And music can't cover those noises; my heart being stabbed by a knife

You used strong words that woke my poetry up, I should thank you
I packed my life and left home, twice, this past summer...
All of it for you to keep me thinking about coming back and queue
And you've known all along: for you, I'd be stupid enough to fight the other

#love #ache #heart #poetry

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Read me, please

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

AndSoOn

Read me, please

I hope you read me someday, if ever you do
Because I made a lot of mistakes

Like an infant learning to walk
I tripped and scratched my knees multiple times

And at least you'd understand that I am clueless

The world has been a scary place
And I hoped to protect you from its demons

I failed, ... and I am sorry
And proud

We survived

I may not be the only one to blame, but I'll carry it anyway.

#family #love #hurt

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

Luciole

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

AndSoOn

Luciole

She said: you're the light within yourself
Keep the fire burning
You are going to sparkle through your life
And I'll be there to watch

Your one true love is the one person you won't live without because you became family the minute you met.

#family #friend #person

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

falling, failing ...

Dec 2018 Paul Anthony Hutchinson

AndSoOn

falling, failing ...

a night, one warm summer evening
strong lyrics, songs we listen to,
thinking about each other, not wanting to admit it

one touch, one kiss
a lots of alcohol, no judgment, candid talks
not wanting to change, afraid to loose it all

hard, dark, twisted life
pain and sorrow, kind smiles and honesty
fear, terror, panic attacks

us, in a little box, far away for life
warm and cozy, alone, safe
on one's own and cold, sad then tired

#weirdlove #complicated