As i'm bleeding out,
I'm thinking of you.

You said you wouldn't do it again.
But you lied,
you hurt me,
I have to lie about these bruises,
the dark sagging skin under my eyes.
I have to lie about the lines that fill up my arm
because of you.
Because of you, I can't eat or sleep

Everyday I must cover up the emotional bruises you left behind,
by faking a smile and long sleeves.
Everyday I flinch back when a man touches me because it reminds me of you.
Everyday I get looks of pity because of you.

Because of you, i'll never trust another man.
I'll never forget the way you charmed me into believing you loved me.
I'll never forgot those nights where you broke the bottles and threated to **** me.
I will never forgot the way you tied me up and touched me with your serpent hands.

I will never forget. Because. Of. You.

December 6th 2013
I lost you
Everyone talked about it but I didn't believe it
Until they announced it
I sat there shocked
then I started screaming and crying
I fell to my knees and whimpered
"Why?" I screamed "Why did you leave?"
My teacher took me out and led me to the library
My friends all came to me and enveloped me into a hug.
I really miss you

December 7, 2013
They held a memorial
We held candles, while to music blared in the back
My friend Laura talked with me
I miss you
Why did you leave?

December 14, 2013
It was your funeral.
Everyone told stories about you.
I broke down in tears when Band played your favorite song.
I miss you very much
I cry over you a lot
Wish you could be back here but you're not and it *****.

He was upstairs
It was just a normal day
He listened to music
When he heard his girlfriend come in.
She hugged him and she accidently bumped his arm.
He flinched back slightly,
he didn't think she'd notice but she did.
"May I please look?"
He nodded.
She rolled up his sleeves and gasped.
Cuts and scars lined up his arm.
She kissed each and every cut and scar.
As she rolled up her sleeves
She said,
"I've been fighting too, darling."

Get these voices out of my head
I can't get them out
Help me
They're making me crazy, they're making me change
My heart beats fast, I feel like i'm dying
That's when they attack
"Die, you ugly *****."
"You're so stupid. Nobody will EVER love you."
"Laura, she doesn't like you, she thinks you should die."
"Kayla, hates you."
Awe don't cry you dumb b-----
"Kayla she, she thinks you're nuts."
"Keep slicing your wrist."
"Oh, what a good girl you are."
"Oh, you wanna **** yourself?"
"Good! No one will miss you, ever."
"Kayla would die laughing."
I scream out for them to stop but it just gets worst.
They fill my head with sickening lies.
Please help me.
I don't know how much I can take anymore."