I am responsible for the knowledge that feeds my head.
It hasn’t been getting fed

Who are you?

The questions we ask others
We don't even know how to answer

The observations we make
We don't understand how to process

The drive we see in others
We don't pierce through their walls
We don't go deeper than their facade

We don't go deeper.
We don't make an effort to connect, rediscover and challenge ourselves

Why?
Because we don't know who we are

Why?
Because we don't take the first step in learning that is understanding

Because we don't try

I see you
I know how you are

People may seem to be other than what they truly are
But you are not

I understand your past
I understand your pain
I understand your mannerisms

I see you
Do you see me?

This new step feels different

It feels like summer rain,
the warm droplets reassure me that the nights of endless sobbing has been taken over by the divine rain

It feels like dawn braking,
the hiding sun has taken center stage and awoken me from my slumber, supported by the imaginatively inspiring clouds

It feels like finishing a puzzle,
the pieces have finally fallen together and the landscape that I am destined to chart has been laid out by countless frustrating corner pieces

all that's left is to set sail on this new day leaving the rain behind

We are hidden,
   The memories
   The thoughts
   The joy
   The experiences of your past

We get so stuck behind the thoughts of your daily struggles
You forget us
We make you who you are
We want you to remember us
All you have to do is listen

Listen

To the look on your fathers face when you walked into his arms for the first time

To the joy on his face when he taught you how to swim and played with you in the water

To the determination that never allowed your pain to stop you from getting out of your hospital bed

Every time

To the joy you spread to others from simply a smile shared

Remember us,
             We are here just pay attention

As the world stands still
You notice some things

They may be about yourself
Or others
Hell, maybe even society

Everything wants to be seen
The trees beg for your gaze
The wind craves your acknowledgment
The sun desires your company

We become emaciated to the routine and struggle of success
And getting to where we think we want to be

To the point where we lose ourselves in where we are
We don't step out and question

We don't question
This will be
The downfall of humanity

I am trapped in the prison of your expectations

I can not be me because I am the me you want me to be

And I can see how that's confusing,  for I'm still attempting to wrap my head around the whirlwinds that is your perception of me.

I don't want to be drowned out by you. I just want to be me. But what if I'm not the me you want me to be?

Am I still even myself? Will I still have you? Will you still look at me with those eyes when you realise the me that I was all along never was that girl you first met at that party?

I'm broken,  I'm destruction, I'm fire,  I'm pain,  I'm tragic,  I'm corrosive,  I'm hurt,  I'm

Me

So I ask again,  are you sure you know who I am, or just who I am to you?

You already know what to do

Everything you need to know is already inside you

You have the tools to solve any problem life presents to you ingrained within yourself

Remember who you are

People never really turn out to be who you expected them to be

Control your impulses

What business does a hopeless romantic have being alone?

I want to give my all to another someone

I want to love them with everything I have

And not be able to breath when they prove that they were never worth my efforts

Be completely and utterly broken having to carry yet another painful reminded unsuccessful attempt at love

I guess that's what brings me here

Maybe that's what brings us all here?

I don't know you
you don't know me

but can we be here?
in this moment, for a while, together.

Your past,
Memories
Pain
Obsessions
Joys
Compassions

Are what I love most about you
Even though we are strangers

You're beautiful
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes

The innocence of ignorance
I understand you have parts of yourself you hide away
As do we all

That part is ok, because for know
We don't have to look at it
Its as if it doesn't exist

As your best parts of yourself are revealed first to a person you just met

That is you
Your best parts
That is who I choose to see

But I accept all of you
Because I know how much you hurt
I know your weight

For I share it too
in this moment
We can lift each other's burdens

Before we inevitably must return
to reality

You have made a castle is my mind
There you reign freely
The ruler of my emotions
Lover of my soul
Jester of my heart

Yet we live in a modern world
Where castles are no longer needed
And I live in the suburbs