I'm here again,
It's me.
Again with many words,
Few messages.
A voice so loud,
Yet inaudible;
A resolve so strong,
Yet so spineless.
Again I'm overthrown by my weakness,
Again I turn to my drugs.
I wish that'd be the worse part of it all.
I lay at the couch half-sleeping, half-awake,
I lay my head down, I lay as my body ache,
I lay down and to there I see
A hand pulling mine;
Thrashed to the lobby.
Found me at the bathroom,
Still with breath cut short,
Left to me was rapport I hope so much to abort;
Body left helpless, body failed a last resort.
Now I write, barely sleeping, barely awake,
Life threw with everything at stake;
I can never unfeel the unspeakable things you've done,
I can never remove the handprints you have left upon me;
I can never undo the chaos you have left to run,
I will never forgive how you moved me.
Breath cut short,
Innocence left shorter.
Once. More.
I RegRet Not StAnding UP To Defend MysElf.
Now it's gotten much worse.