can u bring a hoodie for me on wednesday? k thanks

stop looking at me when we clearly don’t want you back.

i’m ignoring you for a reason *******

what am i doing with life

your hangouts are just excuses to see your girlfriend and to make everyone else feel like a ****** third wheel

just because you’re dating doesn’t mean you can’t ever just talk to me for a day

why can’t you stop talking about her?

both of you.


it’s none of your business.


she’s hurting.



and you’re spreading lies.

our future plans were just like marriage.

******* *******,
thinking you can just come back,

take my spot,

and act like nothing happened.

YOURE A *******

YOU RUINED MY LIFE

I COULDNT GET OVER YOU BECAUSE I STILL LOVED YOU

DONT ACT LIKE YOURE MISS PERFECT


besides,

you’re telling everyone i’m not over you.


news flash, i am.



don’t ever ******* look at me or do that again.


you’re a *******.


stop acting like you didn’t do anything wrong.



that day i lost my girlfriend, now ex, and a best friend.



what happened?


what ******* happened to being best buds like that?



it’s nothing eh?


we’re nothing.



that all meant nothing.



*******, don’t go near me or my friends ever again

do you want us to take you back?

tell me honestly, do you?

i lay ill for a few days and this is what you do.


we don’t want you back

we never wanted you back


so stop acting like nothing happened.


like you didn’t just crush us like that.


*******.



leave.

we are crackheads
we are not cis
we are not straight

we like messing around
and going on mall dates.

we ate,
we ran,

but i really dont want this fun to end.

she laughs,

she cries.


he laughs,

he cries.


we're having fun

on this small mall date.

yes im happy with them

yes im scared to hold hands with them

yes i kissed them in the bathroom.

i did things with them that we did.



why won't you get over the fact that im over you?


that i dont want you in my life anymore?

i’m fine.

yikes i love you guys and-


i know i wasnt dating them first and that it was a mutual thing


but god.


im catching feelings

i want to stab myself'

i cant help you if you wont let me help...

tbh all classes with treavor are hectic

stob eat my cereals in

stop my cereal man

i wrote you a song.

i wanna kiss someone but i dont have anyone to kiss

maybe it was a bad idea getting into a relationship with you


cause now you come off as toxic and i'm being pulled by both sides

even the name of this place makes me sick to my stomach

maybe that’s why

ticcing in bed with a sore body is painful.

every position hurts

it’s nothing comfortable


good night

i hate that i feel this way

“do you want to make a safe plan just in case”

“are you hurting yourself”

questions i don’t wanna answer

“i’m just pushing you”

pushed me far too much and the limit has been passed

“do you want me to tell your dad?”

heavens no, i couldn’t even imagine the yelling or possibly hitting that would end up happening behind my perfect family doors

“suicidal thoughts?”

if i told you, you’d tell him.




yes.

i've done what im most scared of.

for my 6th-grade math teacher.

i’m just scared of falling for you again

the poems i write are merely a vent.

some lies, some truths.

you never know which one,

neither do i

datinf

you are

mhm.








i knew you never loved me anyway

jenny this jenny that


when will you love me as much as you love her?

how much time until you realise how much i ******* love you

shivering
shaking


cold


its cold in my room.


i just want you to be here so i can hug you until i disappear

you act like i’m the bad guy.


but after seeing what you’ve done.


am i really?

I can finally call you mine.

But will you do the same?

alexander was it?

yes its me again.

ready to make some ******* **** themselves again


**** GET HIM OUT PLEASE

I believe the lies you tell

because I want to believe that you're okay.


I know you're not okay.


I know you're hurting.


Just- please tell me so I can help you.




You know I can't lose someone else.

I love you?

2020.


Hell, what do I do now?

Say that it's been a year since I started slitting my wrists?

Sure.


Hi, I'm Beau,

I'm 13, FTM transgender. And this month, last year, I started to slowly **** myself. The end. Happy new year.

Unfortunately, you, in fact, do not need to know everything about me.


Yes, I'm dating her.

Yes, I've kissed her.


Does it really make a difference?


You rejected me anyway.

You don't want me anyway.

You'd rather be with them anyway.

You'd rather ditch me to be with them anyway.


YOU'D RATHER LEAVE ME TO DIE THAN TO DATE ME YOU ******* ******* I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND YOU PUSHED ME AWAY LIKE THAT. I LOVED YOU FOR 2 YEARS AND YOU JUST **** ON ME LIKE THAT. YOU LIKE ME TOO? YEAH, RIGHT ******* NO YOU DON'T YOU ******* LIAR YOU PLAYED WITH MY FEELINGS YOU HATE ME DON'T YOU?

DON'T YOU??

YOU ******* PLAYED WITH MY FEELINGS. I THOUGHT IT WAS OBVIOUS. I TOLD YOU. I ******* TOLD YOU AND YOU SAID "oh cool." WHAT NOW?! YOU'RE FAKING BEING MY FRIEND BECAUSE YOUR MOM SAYS I NEED YOUR ATTENTION?! I'LL ******* TELL YOU RIGHT NOW; MY THERAPIST THINKS SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS' **** AND SHE THINKS I'VE BEEN LACKING ATTENTION FROM THEM AND I'VE ONLY GOTTEN THE NEGATIVE ****. AT LEAST YOUR MOM LOVES YOU. AT LEAST YOUR DAD LEFT SO HE WOULDN'T HURT YOU ANYMORE.

NO  NO NO NON ON ONO. MY PARENTS NEVER DID THAT ****. THEY JUST LOADED IT RIGHT ON TO ME. DO YOU KNOW HOW PAINFUL IT IS TO BE CALLED A ******* ***** WHEN YOU'RE 7?! WHEN YOU'RE STILL IN A ******* BABY SEAT IN THE CAR?! C A R . S E A T . I WAS SITTING IN THE ******* BACK SEAT WITH MY TEDDY BEAR. AND HE CALLED ME NASTY NAMES. AT LEAST YOUR PARENTS DON'T DO THAT. AT LEASE THEY ******* LOVE YOU. AT LEAST THEY TRY AND NOT HURT YOU. AT LEAST THEY CARE. they're there for you. unlike mine.


i ******* hate you on the outside but i still want to be your friend.

you're all i have left.


and you make me feel like ****.

I've lost the sanity in me.,

I've fallen,

but no one has given me their hand.







I've chosen to suffer.

Sick.

Is it fun to be sick?

Headache,

Cold,

Vomiting,

Crying,

Coughing,

Gagging.
­
Yes.

It is very fun.

I want to suffer.

I changed the password to my account.

NOTHING.

I'm nothing.

*******. Nothing.

Yes, go for it, complain about her!

Complain about the person who took you away from me!

You care about her way more than me anyway.

She cares about you "way more" than I do!

It's not like I've known you for a while now!

We've been through everything together!

But-

Here we are.