i am a fighter
struggling for happiness
since it is something i do not know
it is a foreign feeling
a feeling my heart can't comprehend
and i will fight till
happiness is all i know
till i can smile
and tears will flow no more
tears will flow
no more.


-j.m

waiting, waiting, waiting
and waiting
for a sign
that'll keep me alive
while the blade dives
and the blood shines
down my wrist
and my fist
pounds against the wall
and that one call
still keeps me
waiting

- j.m

this empty hole
is ******* the life out of me
what is this emptiness I feel
why can't anybody see
that I can't heal,
a black hole
in my soul
it rips and shreds
me apart
it's led to my doom
is this how it starts
with the room spinning
out of control
this is what the hole
of emptiness
does to me
I can no longer see
the light of hope
instead I see the rope
awaiting quietly
and silently
calling my name
what a shame
I became so fragile
who to blame
but me?


-j.m

I never been
in love
with brown eyes
like I'm
in love
with yours

Pink skies looked upon by tired eyes.

Black lines splitting up a conflicted mind.

Watching over the charade below
Rich in empathy and sorrow.
Just to be struck by the realisation
That she is me
And I am lost.

Sometimes you don't realise
that all these eyes just distract your mind
with sensations of being unaligned.

A bleak sky halting the high.
Droplets bounce and illuminate minds.
Slipping south surrounded by sighs.
The trees give up, watch on, and die.
Monotoned musings falter at times.
The Earth looks on with a cheshire smile.
Suffocating in air as the world goes by.
Then look up and ask...why?

cherish the happy moments