I was afraid
To say hi
To wave
To look in to your eyes
I was afraid
To fall in love
To say I love you
To admit
That I really do love you
But now
I'm afraid to let you go
I'm afraid to look away
Now that you're mine
I'm no longer afraid
To be me
To smile
To laugh
To breathe
You are mine
And I'm happy

Some things just
****!
To put it nicely.

the red pool of blood that i moped off the bathroom floor
the orange pill bottle i wish i had emptied some more
the yellow happy face i sent with the message i'm okay
the green hospital sheets i found myself in yesterday
the blue feeling i use to explain why i talk so silently
the favourite colour my dad forgets so very frequently
the purple dress i hope i'll wear as they lower me below
i truly am a depressed rainbow

If I asked
Would you answer...
If I begged
Would you accept...
If I cried
Would you belive..
If I told you
Would we...
Be lovers
In the same bed
Dreamers
That share the
Same cloud
Would my heart
Be yours
Forever
And would you
Give me your heart
To hold
For all time
Or would
These words
Written
Never be spoken
Never be answered
Never belived
And your kiss
Only a dream
Only a wish
Only a lonely fist
A missed chance
Time and again
Dreamt into something
More
Your skin
To never touch
Mine
Just empty sheets
In an empty bed
As I whisper
Your name
Myself seeps out
As lust and love
Tangle
But its not
You
On top
Of me
Just a
Mist
A ghost
A hope
Could I stop
Should I try
To end
This dream
And just
Accept
It only
Works as
A fantasy
Maybe
If I just told...
Maybe
If I just said...
Maybe
If I just ask...

If I erase all your troubles,
Throw them out to see,
I'd make the sunshine appear
Just on you and me.
I'll climb a mountain,
Build you a thrown,
I'd steal the moon,
And let you call it your own.
I'll hold your sadness,
Wipe away your tears,
I'll never let you go,
I'll protect you for years.
Please know I love you,
You are so dear to me,
Without you in my life,
I'd have no clue where I'd be.
You've opened up many doors,
Shut out all the demons,
You've made me love life,
For now through all the seasons.