i was diagnosed-
a disease of the mind
a senseless surreal sensation
sent my way
by what?
GOD?
BIOLOGY?
FATE?
i sometimes bite my tongue
till it bleeds
the taste like copper in the sun
i sometimes curse my brain
for lying to me
it laughs
HAHAHA

i've been told so many
different theories-
so which do i believe?
i feel crazy
am i crazy
no i can't be
but i might be
HAHAHA

my perfect preacher
in a starched-white shirt
tells me it's GOD
i need to believe
follow his ways and you will succeed
my pill pushing psychiatrist
in his jet black suit and tie
tells me it's BIOLOGY
study and you will succeed
the free spirits
say it's fate
be loose and you will succeed
but which one is right?
i laugh at myself
HAHAHA

this is all too hard
i guess i'll give up
my twinkling tears
will never stop.

that feeling in your chest
in your legs, in your  neck.
the tingle in your toes
in your fingers, in your soul.
in and out, in and out
one, two , three
in and out, in and out
calm down
in and out, in and out
faster now
in and out, in and out
in and out, in and out
SCREAM

tear me up
slice me open
bleed me out
impale my flesh
squeeze out my eyes
it would be better than lies
I tell myself

A hole in my chest
bigger than my heart
blow right through me
i'm empty
nothing to see
wind breezes through
whistling a tune
look right through me
i'm empty
nothing to see

empty halls and
lifted feelings
drugs aren't enough
and always too little
and sadness creeps in
almost always too quick
before you know- you're on the ground
crying loud as hell but not a sound
What's the matter?
What's wrong?
songs from little birds
and you cry
and cry
and cry.

It's cold out
but he's so warm
ands inside holds a storm
emotions and thoughts
ecstasy in the lot
but she's lonely
self esteem an all time low
she tells him to go slow
or else she may break
tears turned to a lake
caught in the act
said she has no tact
stuck in the dull and grey
eating Rockford eggs