you taught me how to laugh away my tears
gave me the courage to face my fears
when there was sorrow on my mind ,you could tell
picked me up when i fell
when i fell for you, i was glad to learn that it was mutual
you ask me what i want, a kiss on my forehead, the usual

love is effortless, a leaf floating on the mild wind
love is the remedy, loneliness a deadly disease and you're the cure
love is water, in its absence you'd die of thirst
love is selfless, for you I would bleed
love is blind, it overlooks misteps and misdeeds
love is king, you're the ruler of my heart
love is light, a single smile and the darkness disappears
love is the universe, it's infinite
love is a hero, it rescues from deep despair
love is alien, out of this world
love is addictive, you're the drug that I fiend
love is music, it heals the soul
love is like a child, innocent and true
love is gravity, pulls you close each time you feel like flying away
love is a mystery, holmes couldn't solve it even if he tried

All I know about love is the pain
All I know about the blue sky is that sometimes clouds gather and it rains
I'd hoped that you'd cover me from the rain like an umbrella
The grief blows like a strong wind and am just an umbrella
In loneliness, I drink much wine and think of how it's made from grapes off the vine
Same slow song on repeat, music is beautiful and I think of how it's surely proof of the divine
I was only artificial, a porchlight compared to the sun
If forgetting is a line , can i go before my turn

Halt,  you can't proceed with no salt
Nobody's perfect, everybody got fault
Try to reach perfection and you find it's locked up in a vault
You can't proceed with no salt
You don't try too hard you just make mistakes by default
If you knew the real god is in you and is you, would you still kneel and exalt

my heart is drowning in sorrow
no confidence to face tomorrow
the blue skies are gone
am aching down to the bone
on my mind thoughts of pain, rain
it's all in vain
hidden beneath this smile is gloom
withering flowers, no chance of a bloom
a rainbow in black and white
a bird with broken wings, no flight

Nigwedete na ngoro yakwa yothe
All am saying is that I love her with all my heart
Wi muthaka ta muraika
All am saying is that she's as beautiful as an angel

We've been here a thousand times
You down on your knees, begging me to take you back
And me kissing you saying its all okay
But last time was the last time
Wounds don't heal if you keep touching them

I often wonder if you'll remember me
When am no longer in sight
When am far away from this happy place
Will you remember the uncorruptible joy
And the tears
If you ever do remember the tears, don't forget the shoulder you leaned on
Oh the things I did just to see that smile back on your face
Remember the blinding colors , as vibrant as youth
And the music, heavenly
If ever there was proof of God it would be music

I now know for sure what I once suspected
Looking into a lover's eyes is like staring up at the constellations
Its like star gazing

Lazima uchoose, dooh ama doze
Lazima uchoose, respect alarm ama uisnooze
Lazima uchoose, ujitume ama ulose
Lazima uchoose, ujibuild au *****

Izi ndo vitu hamtaki kuambiwa, izi ndo the truth
Mnataka niseme life ni smooth but Leo siwasooth
Sherehe Sheria ndio inamaliza mayouth
Ukilewa vuguru, Hadi hunaga matooth


Daily unadial pedi ukidai Mali
Jipende buda na for sure utafika mbali
Imagine ukiwa diani ukiorder wali
Si lazima buy iyo jumu expe ati ju ni Kali

Picha ya Kenyatta Kwa walanje ndo unafaa kusaka
Jipe goals Ka Sancho, salah au saka
Mulla mob, nine lives Ka paka
Usijitreat Ka trash we si takataka

But anyway maisha ni yako
Chaguo ni lako
Ntaachia apo ju naskia mtu Kwa mlango
Am sure ni peng Fulani utoka pango

I've had enough loss for a lifetime. When the pain is too much,i medicate,then I meditate. When my mind is clear ,I reminisce. I want to see you again, and so I make up heaven. I know eternal bliss is just a fairytale but I have hope. shine on my face once more yellow sun. Light the skies on yet another day of my boring little existence. For they only exist in my memory. If I die they die.

Far away from hope
God can't help you now
Like been buried deep under the cold unforgiving snow
Limbs numb, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Embracing despair like you would a lover
Like floating in space
Lungs heaving, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Finally accepting your fate
Like falling off a high place
Last prayers, life seeping out

Far away from hope
Fading into the unknown
Like drowning in a vast ocean
Never fight it, life seeping out

Far away from hope
A shadowy figure hovers
Like bleeding out on the floor
A glorious scene, life seeping out

Jesus once said love others as you love yourself
What happens when you don't even love yourself ?

Let me see your face, your real face
Forget this lifeless mask the world has you wearing
I feel like it would be beautiful

I get bored and I check my feed
There's a first world crisis somewhere in leeds
New bullet train in Tokyo, they praise it for it's speed
Some CEO resigns , he couldn't control his greed
Meanwhile more civilians continue to bleed
But in the polls the president is still gaining a lead
Money laundered with the help of some Swedes
Two weeks later they've all been freed
Stoners calling for the legalization of ****
Thunberg about to get a nobel for all her deeds
She says we should all plant more seeds
For now that's all the update I need
I go back to playing assasins creed

I like where this going
Feeling sky high like flying in a boeing
Love for who i am, no room to judge
**** the loneliness, it's a purge
This girl I love she be my queen
Make it be better than its ever been
My lifeline in this endless ocean, a raft
Naturally gifted at giving joy, maybe her craft
Mind-blowing like the monalisa, everypart of her be pure art
Eternally attracted to each and every part

How did I get here?
Was this always my pre-ordained destination?
I find myself amongst strangers
In common ,the angst in all our minds is major
I can see desparation and longing on their faces
Does the inherent need for company and companion bring us all together to such places?
We may all manage to bury our grief
But the efforts at suppression turn out to be brief
How did I get here?
This is the question I need desperately answered
Thoughts of days gone by ravaging my mind like a cancer
Some do it to remember ,others to forget
Eventually all end up upset
A temporary moment of false calm and consolation
These are the perks and privileges of self medication

I am the debris floating on calm waters wondering when the next storm will be
And when it does finally come like am sure it will
will I end up at the bottom of the sea
Or maybe a new day I will get to see

my happiest days came not when i had no troubles but when i chose to ignore them
my fears ended not when i ignored them but when i chose to face them

the country was laden with corpses, carcasses and calamity
the streets were full of strife and suffering
hearts were burdened, backs were heavy with baggage
all hopes dead, all heads bowed down, all starry dreams denied,
every step treacherous, every eye ever tearful, every lip trembled
energy drained, envy reigned
demons and devils danced, demeaning and devoid of delight

Sites to behold
A time to be bold
Tales to be told
Mysteries to unfold
Calm and composed
Secret and undisclosed
Triumphant and unopposed
Unpretentious , truth overdosed
Broke away from the stranglehold
Blessings sevenfold
Beautiful moments foretold
Brass turns to gold

I dug myself into a hole
I am now just a fraction of the whole
Everything slipping out of my control
Am a red alert if you're on danger patrol

I didn't see the signs
Should have quit the lines
As salty and bitter like brine
Aware it's my last supper but still I dine
Say it's sublime but nothing is fine
Need victory but defeat is mine
If I'm to forget, I'll need more than wine
Can't face this, it's as hard as swallowing a pine
Hate this moment like a moslem despises a swine

thought i didn't have it in me to feel again but to my surprise love is swimming to the top
you give me love and affection, filling my heart with hope
so much joy, i hardly notice that times are tough
its windy, its rainy, its cold but with you its warm enough
i pray the day never comes when i have to give you up
so that i see your face every morning i get up

Inseparable lovebirds since college
The road to your heart and you gave him passage
Finishing each other's sentences, you were speaking the same language
Remember breakfast in bed, toast and sausage
He was shy but finally built up the courage
And that's how you ended up in marriage
Didn't think you'd end up a hostage
Used to be love but now it feels like carnage
Your heart is bleeding, emotional damage
popping pills twice the dosage
And now your thinking of packing your luggage
Coz on your face you have a new bandage
You are strong without him ,you can manage
This is my message
Leave

I don't do it because I want to
I do it because my culture demands it
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because if I don't my family and friends look at me funny
I don't do it because I want to
I do it for the fans
I don't do it because I want to
I do for the money and fame
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because that's the game and I'm just a player
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because that's how it has always been done
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because I don't want to be an outcast
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because deep down am afraid I'll be shunned
I don't do it because I want to
I do because I lack the will to change what I've become
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because we somehow decided collectively this is how it should be done
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because it seems better to part of the flock rather than the black sheep
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because they told me to never deviate from the plan
I don't do it because I want to
I do it because I was raised to never question

Your love is the reverse forbidden fruit
The more bites I take, the harder it gets to leave eden

You heal my pain
With you I never feign
You consume me like a fire
Hold my hand and I would never tire
Whisper in my ear
And dispell all my foolish fears
Stitch up my countless tears
Wipe away my salty tears

Wish I met you back when i had a brick game
But it's okay we chill for hours on the playstation
With you when there's sun and when the rain soaks the ground
Pray i never make you soak the pillow with your tears, I'll always be around
I love when we lie on the bed just talking, its ikea
I'll never miss a chance to show you that i care
When I approached you for the first time you ignored me, that's okay, stranger danger
But am glad I persisted, I lingered longer
I can hear the clock chime
I want to hold you for all of time

Every morning I just have to see your face
When am rushing, you do more than just slow my pace
Middle of the night you caressing me
I love that at times you let me be
we sacrificed a lot, nothing's given free
You're the bravery that makes all my fears flee
My baby,my gentle breeze
Your smile brings my hot heart to a cold freeze
You loved me though I never was a saint
My ****** soul only you could taint
A lifeless canvas that only you can paint
They look and see but you hold me and I feel invisible
A world where we don't find each other feels impossible
It was a crushing weight
It was a worrying sight
You never spoke you just held my arm
You never spoke just made sure I came close to no harm
Troubling times, you just kept mind calm
Rainy days, with you am at the beach resting under palms
You lift my spirits when my soul drops
Encourage me when my plans flop
With you is when my pain stops

All our gods are deaf and mute
They can't hear our prayers or maybe they do but choose not to answer
All my friends are strangers
Just people I pass time with but never really open up to
All my senses are numb
Addicted to social media, forget about thin white lines
All my bones are brittle
I will run to you even if I break each and every one
All boys are the same
But you'd be surprised the lengths she'd go to, to impress a **** who doesn't deserve her
All control is just an illusion
So maybe just let go and go with the flow
All my best days are ahead
One day I will die but each day before that I will live

I was drunk when I wrote this
So don't judge me when you read this
You probably didn't notice
But when it comes to love am a novice
Am no Casanova
Am not the kind of boy girls drool over
You loved me all the same
My restless heart only you could tame

You said to yourself that you were done for
All the while tears welled up in your eyes
But you must not give in
You must not give up
The world owes you happiness after all you've been through
You must live ,so as to one day claim it
And I promise that day will feel like heaven, eternal rest
Your reward for all those storms and tests

My head is clear , you helped me make all the toxic thoughts retreat
I was at the lowest point but still you asked me to smile and your impact was I remained intact
I shed off that ever clinging pain and self loathe
You opened my eyes to finally see my worth
You made me feel good , you were and still are my soul food
When I only hoped for a raft you became my boat
Please accept this thank you note

Late at night and am bored
Headphones on ,am tryna drown my idle mind in music
Am smiling thinking how good the day was
The lyrics start to sink deep
On most days I just want to fall asleep
My thoughts start to trip
Sometimes I feel majestic, like mighty waves rocking a ship
On occasion am unsure and afraid
wolves set loose upon sheep
it's clear the music ain't working
Guess it's back to counting sheep

I let myself be bare
Open and exposed naked as the day I was born
All could see me yet I couldn't see myself
An open book all could read but none understood
One moment elation the next not in the mood
There cold and confused I stood
Staring at their faces
Some were seemingly sad some artificially happy some In-between but none content
All aloof and alone not one could connect
All dreading closing time for there was no one to go home to
Some in complete terror not even a home to go to
I have to admit that at times I felt scared too
I felt no glimmers of hope I saw no glimpses of light
Too weak to put up a fight

My skin itches like bites from fleas
Can't be me, every time I find me I flee
I try too much to please
God please
I know the truth frees
And cold make everything freeze
God please
I want to own all that I currently lease
I hope it's frictionless like grease
Can I have it all or is it all just an elaborate tease

After you left my blood turned to mercury and I was too heavy to move
After you left they did an x-ray and the doctor said my heart looked rattled up
After you left tiny waterfalls appeared right under my eyes
After you left my favourite song sounded like the screams of a siren
After you left my mind went blank and words turned to symbols with no meaning
After you left sadness ruled the night and sorrow seized the day

Am alive, i dug my way out of that grave
its in moments like these that i know i need to be brave
Although i'll never be the same again
i know the struggle wasn't in vain
I've probably never been more afraid
searching for answers, i kneeled and prayed
When i was young i thought lightning was just god taking pictures of the beautiful moments down below
so maybe he's watching over me, i never give in even if i face a thousand blows

Broken bones and fractures
Bent crumbling structures
Crawling hellish monsters
Hungry circling vultures
He never foresaw this rupture

The blood in his veins becomes venomous
Vehemently vicious and villainous
Vivid visions of violent vivisections
Vincent is extremely livid
Once virtuous as a ******
Once vainglorious but now just vestigial
Everything vast turns vaporous

A bed poem
Something I write as it pours outside
Something I write as I think of what it's like to not be alone
Wishing you were by my side

A bed poem
Something i write when the night is quiet
Something I write as I stare into the photograph
Longing for the good old days, my mind drowning in nolstagia

A bed poem
Something I write as I try to guess what I'll dream about
Something I write when in my heart something is lacking
Don't know how I got here, I must've been lucky

A bed poem
Something I write because you only call occasionally
Something I write because poetry is a good mode of expression
And am not ready to open up to anyone

Notes from my days in hell
pray to God I make it out alive and well
Raise up my hands and kneel
Hope these wounds eventually heal
Maybe I'll finally be able to feel
Lying on my bed completely still
Am constantly hurt, wish I was strong like the man of steel
Wish I was free from all these pills
Even my smallest fears give me chills
When am sleeping I dream of love and unimaginable thrills
I was selfish, for my own happiness I was willing to ****
Want to get to a place where I can forgive myself of all my ills
Conquer every valley, mountain and hill