Every morning I just have to see your face
When am rushing, you do more than just slow my pace
Middle of the night you caressing me
I love that at times you let me be
we sacrificed a lot, nothing's given free
You're the bravery that makes all my fears flee
My baby,my gentle breeze
Your smile brings my hot heart to a cold freeze
You loved me though I never was a saint
My ****** soul only you could taint
A lifeless canvas that only you can paint
They look and see but you hold me and I feel invisible
A world where we don't find each other feels impossible
It was a crushing weight
It was a worrying sight
You never spoke you just held my arm
You never spoke just made sure I came close to no harm
Troubling times, you just kept mind calm
Rainy days, with you am at the beach resting under palms
You lift my spirits when my soul drops
Encourage me when my plans flop
With you is when my pain stops

You said to yourself that you were done for
All the while tears welled up in your eyes
But you must not give in
You must not give up
The world owes you happiness after all you've been through
You must live ,so as to one day claim it
And I promise that day will feel like heaven, eternal rest
Your reward for all those storms and tests

Am alive, i dug my way out of that grave
its in moments like these that i know i need to be brave
Although i'll never be the same again
i know the struggle wasn't in vain
I've probably never been more afraid
searching for answers, i kneeled and prayed
When i was young i thought lightning was just god taking pictures of the beautiful moments down below
so maybe he's watching over me, i never give in even if i face a thousand blows

If love is a drug, is it possible to overdose?
Fill the cup till it overflows
Fill the river till it breaks the banks

The music of our love has been muted
The bright colors of our promises have faded away
The calm winds of our kisses turned to dry desert sandstorms
The warm gentle rays of our laughter turned to scorching heat waves

Soft kitten purrs have become screeching screams
Once sinless souls now sinking to the darkest depths of damnation
Daydreams demolished and in their place are dungeons
Serpents slithering in the once stainless snow

When people engage you , they expect you to act a certain way or do certain things, these expectations are drawn from past experiences you've shared together, when you try to deviate from their expectations they convince you that that's just who you are, maybe they don't want to be wrong or maybe they don't believe that you have the ability to change, maybe they want to stay the same and reject any change happening around them, anyway the past defines the present but it doesn't define the future
**** anyone who tells you anything different

I was drunk when I wrote this
So don't judge me when you read this
You probably didn't notice
But when it comes to love am a novice
Am no Casanova
Am not the kind of boy girls drool over
You loved me all the same
My restless heart only you could tame

hiding my eyes so you cant see my soul
am searching for something to make  me whole
i try to be strong but sometimes the weight takes its toll
the nights be cold and dark as coal

my heart is bound in iron clutches
all the broken fragments held together by patches
i try to offload the pain but like a tick onto me it latches
feels like hours but just ten seconds have passed on my watches

Notes from my days in hell
pray to God I make it out alive and well
Raise up my hands and kneel
Hope these wounds eventually heal
Maybe I'll finally be able to feel
Lying on my bed completely still
Am constantly hurt, wish I was strong like the man of steel
Wish I was free from all these pills
Even my smallest fears give me chills
When am sleeping I dream of love and unimaginable thrills
I was selfish, for my own happiness I was willing to ****
Want to get to a place where I can forgive myself of all my ills
Conquer every valley, mountain and hill

the moment I held your tender hands I felt a new kind of love
i always hoped this day would come
now that's it's here I hope to never let you down

i look at your innocent clueless eyes and I well up with tears
you've already found a place in my heart
a warm yellow halo floats above your head

Am standing where the roads meet
Am hoping the road ahead is longer than what's behind me
Or maybe am just not long for this world
Feels like time is against me
Am it's opponent
My time is running out
That's the reason I can't sleep at night
Coz every remaining minute I want to spend with you
Every second I want to see your face
And maybe memorize every single feature
Treasure every imperfection
Coz baby am not long for this world
I try but ultimately I fail
I tremble every time we touch
And am hypnotized every time we kiss
Am brave but in this moment am afraid I might lose you
My eyes will never see you again

Sandwiched between my blankets
I can hear the low rumble of thunder outside
The skies are darker than usual
Dim light is coming through my window

Am half drunk, half bored
Am half naked but not cold
Am half way through this new love song I just discovered
Am lost in my thoughts tryna stay optimistic, that glass half full mentality

I should get out of this place soon
Its the tenth time am having this thought in the last ten minutes
Can't keep it off my mind
Cant leave even if I use all my might

Chained down by all the good memories
Slowed down by that beautiful girl who promised she'd kiss me
Tryna take my first step but am paralysed
Tryna be brave but am terrified

Call to the heavens ,pastor
Do not slow down ,faster
Supernatural force, ghost, casper
worldwide calamity, disaster
*******, *******
Opposite of slave, master
Small but reach my full potential, mustard
Read the news, caster
Italian food, pasta
Whip my hair back and forth, rasta
Keep it all clean, duster
He gathers all his courage, muster

You light up my days like a lantern
I've noticed am happy each time am with you, it's a pattern
And with each moment my heart grows fonder
Each time I hope time slows down and we're here longer
My heart is overwhelmed with joy like a young bird when it learns to fly
I can't love you perfectly but I promise I'll try
You're my poison
It's like you got me under some love potion
I want to be with you till the day I ride in a hearse
I want to hold your hand and carry your purse

Consider this
You bring me peace
You give me undiluted feelings of bliss
Your love is soft and warm like a woollen fleece
Consider this
I yearn for your kiss
I give you my whole heart and not just a piece
When i hold you i feel nothing is amiss

It started with a spark but every time you kiss me, you feed the flame
If I lose myself tonight you're to blame

Love is like when a base meets an acid
The deterioration is quite rapid
Love is crazy, a majestic hound gone rabid
Your arrow finally hit me, nice shot cupid

Am scared to die so I wear a face mask
Can't help but think of all the questions I never asked
I can't breathe like am stuck in a vacuum flask
Thank God for this liquid aged in casks

once one but we split into multiple parts, divide
two bodies moving in opposite directions, diverge
hoped you'd give me all that you have
I gave you all that I had
sadly you gave me less than half
i've never been your fave
all I ever wanted to do was love
and make love to you like a perv
you calmed me down when the world got on my nerves

I express my love in unsent letters
Promising to give shelter, everytime you come across unfriendly weather
Am right there with you when you're lost in the storm, feeling fearful and light as a feather
I just want to know whether, there's a chance that one day our hearts will be tethered
When am restless and moving too fast you're my pacesetter
Am sinful,maybe even soulless but everyday you make me better

I want a heart that can't be shot down
I want endless laughter that can't be drowned
I want to be all smiles no frowns
I want my days to be colorful like the graffiti I see downtown

I want you to kiss my lips
I want to dream of you when I sleep
I want you to know I'll always be here am for keeps
I want you for every season even in autumn when trees shed their leaves

I want a picnic under that cool tree shade
I want those memories that never fade
I want to be the one that stayed
I want you to know you're the most beautiful soul god ever made

I want that love that warms me down to my core