McKinley Flynt

McKinley Flynt 22h

Heaven

The blistering sound of color
Slams the inside of my head
In the mourning land of water
I believe I'm actually dead

The staple of heaven is a walkway
Sketching into the ground
And the familiar temperature of midday
Drags you all around

The familiar scent of home
Brinks your own dribble
Of when you're all alone
In this imaginary scribble

But home is way back up
For you are purely mistaken
I guess it was just your luck
For hell has just awakened

#afterlife #dream #emo #sad #existential

McKinley Flynt Jul 8

Nail File

On the moons repose
I stare at the flow
I study it intently
To **** out the plea
Of harrowing thoughts
Amid studious lofts
And drunken nights
Amid friendly fights
But I'm alone now
But to hell with it.

I'll wipe the blood off my brow
I'll skip down the aisle
Everything feels endowed
Without any nail file

I'm beautiful,
like everyone else.

#selfesteem #sad #hopeful

McKinley Flynt Jul 8

Shallow

Only in shallow
Do I see the sky
As nothing more
Then way too bright.

Only in shallow
Thomas asks
To see my wrists
And the checkerboard of burns

Only in shallow
I'll take apart my head
And let the ghosts slip through the cracks
And drag me down with them

And when I get to the deep
Oh hell, I'm nowhere now.

#depression #sad #mania #bpd #bipolar #suicide

McKinley Flynt May 19

Mark

You know, it's been rough.
I lost my girl, my job, my car
And I never was enough.

My refuge is gone and my heart remains yearning
But after all this time I'm still just learning
I just wish you didn't have to be a life lesson

There are two lives in my head
One is still with you
The other is dead.

This is gonna be my last one for a little bit, just need some sleep.

#yearn #sad #suicide #bpd #emo

McKinley Flynt Apr 16

Innocence: A Question

Share me your heart and realize you aren't alone
Bring me your self and get off your phone
Drink some water and go to sleep
It's hard to focus on yourself when you're counting sheep

There's no solace in your mind
So let's all go outside
We can all play JFK
While we waste our lives away

Or you could tell me how you feel
How none of this could be real
That forever isn't that long
That my love isn't that strong

I promise you that's a lie
You're the one who has my heart
I'm telling you by and by
We'll get married, til death do us part.

Kendra is the name of the girl I want to marry.

#love #marriage #commitment

McKinley Flynt Mar 31

World's Worth

Oh dark eyes
With skin sagging mounts
Feed me your love
If you would remain open.

Cherish your soul
It's tired and dark
I'll feed it my love
If I could bear witnessing it.

Curtains closed
In your bedroom
And I would knock
If you would answer.

You should open your eyes
Open your soul
Open your window.
Because I would give you a world's worth of love.

^_^

#bpd #tired #lonely #depression #sad #pleading

McKinley Flynt Mar 23

Laughing

Sometimes I feel like laughing
Not because anything is funny.
But because this is so ****** up, It's comical

Sometimes I feel like dying
Not because I really want to.
But because everyone else wants me to

Sometimes I think I'm stupid
Not because I'm not smart
But because I got convinced that these demons aren't worth fighting.

I wish I could write something better but today has been too long.