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 Feb 2016 mercy christina
Nara S
I'm so caught up in blue
Great grey cloud is hanging my view
Oh how I miss you
It is raining now
And I have this uneasy feeling
Of craving to meet you
 Feb 2016 mercy christina
Nara S
Her face got pinned down or locked up

Either way, she is on the tip of my eyes or the insides

Since the first time sky stopped raining on me.

To where I'll lost days and nights and forth.

Her soothing voice was all that echoed

Through this dead, rotten dark cave of mine.

Trembling at her wake

Tearing a hole

Flowing her light in

Pouring love

Out of her mouth.

She is a thunder, river and sun

Nature is in her eyes now mine.
We meet like fire and water, bursting into steam
swinging round each other, splitting at the seams
our slowly growing entropy, sees darkness before death
the energy, no sympathy, clutches its last breath.

You fall into my watering eyes,
through dance we somehow stabilise,
the swell between the crashes of the ocean,
the moments underneath the motion.

The stable explosion.
This is how it feels when I see my Fiance.

She lives in Malaysia, I live in the UK, we see each other for about a month every 6 months.
 Feb 2016 mercy christina
ln
death
 Feb 2016 mercy christina
ln
one minute she screamed for help
and the next she lay stone cold*

one minute she was hopeful
and the next she sounded barely sane

one minute she felt like she could grow wings
and the next she rested six feet under

she was chaos
her head a beautiful mess, her mind pieces of broken wine glasses
her lips whispering silent cries of i wish i didn't have to do this again
her tongue holding back twisted thoughts of revolvers & ropes

and still she wished she could fly


but all she really was,

was

death cloaked with a smile,
a smile so beautiful
*darling, you would've thought it was all in your head
she wasn't a beautiful mess, she was just a mess
 Oct 2015 mercy christina
ln
effort
 Oct 2015 mercy christina
ln
effort;
ˈefərt/
noun

to her, is studying during the wee hours of the morning
to him, is the time you spend asking how his day went
to her, is the lovely pair of shoes you got for her that flatters her dress
to them, is the days you showed up despite being ill
to him, is the admission slip into an ivy league university
to her, is the work you left behind to attend your uncle's funeral
to them, is the messages you send out, asking how they're doing

to you,
is to get out of bed each morning, even when you don't want to
is to accept that it is, by God's will that you are where you are
is to understand that your body is a gift and you will cherish it
is to learn that you don't live to please everyone
is to stand up for yourself, even when you are too timid to speak
is to fight for what you want, and never backing down
is to pick yourself up every time you fall, and come back stronger
is to fix yourself, piece by piece
is to unravel your mind &  live with the memories, even if they **** you

effort to you, isn't effort to her
effort to him, isn't effort to you
effort to them, isn't effort to him

but that is okay, we know you're trying

*we know
 Oct 2015 mercy christina
ln
silence
 Oct 2015 mercy christina
ln
Why would you tell someone that they're good at something even if you thought otherwise
Why would you tell someone that they're beautiful if you don't think they are
Why would you say that she isn't fat when your conscience is screaming for you to be honest
Why would you say that it was okay for him to be crying himself to sleep every night
Why would you say that it is going to be okay if you weren't sure

Just why would you get someone's hope up
To tear it all down,
Over and over again.


You didn't have to lie, all you needed to do was to shut up.

— The End —