Slowly suffocating in ink
Thinking this will somehow make
living life any easier

Thinking and thinking
And eating and eating
Cake at 2 o’clock in the morning
Trying to forget

Cloud over my head
Pouring out blood,
sweat and tears
from the days of
Helping you survive

Head held up high
in desperation
Praying and praying
that I don’t drown

Slowly suffocating
And restricting any other love
for my mind, body and soul
Putting you first was the
Utmost worse decision I have
ever made in my life.

Because years later
I’m still drowning in my own sorrows
from back in those days
When I loved you.

Love scares me always
and makes me want to run far away.
I never faced love in my life
I run always when love comes to me.

I block my feelings but this makes me so small
I lock my heart to feel safe
and this makes me invisible.
That's why I am worried about your love!

I love you and this love is very special,
You have magic in your love
This magic energy touches my heart and soul
Your love comes from your heart, not from the mind.

I will miss walking with you and talking to you
I don’t want to get attached to you
I feel like I am so wrong and I should go away
You have so much kindness and love, it's true.

Spotted Dust.

Side walk mistress.
To the curb.
Bile be the word for low and.
No high to leave with.




Garrett Johnson

I have figured it out
The question that had been bugging me
All reasons I loved you

Number One
Well, because I hated myself

Number Two
I really hated myself  

And then you ask:

Do I still love you?
And for once I have an answer
Well, I now love myself

What do you think?

The next few hours  can determine
ones chance of survival.
Of stability in their lives as an adult.


Good luck in your GCSEs my dear friends! It’s not your fault exams got cancelled.