Once again I found myself there
It wasn't very unusual for me
To feel terribly alone in this world
And it leaves me wondering
If it's just me
Or if it's like this for everyone
And I am terrified
That this void in my chest is eternal

When you would tell me
I'd first of all hesitate
Hesitate because my heart would skip and my hands would shake
Then this very sincere smile would make it's way to my face
Eventually I'd laugh somewhat hysterical
After all of the above I'd tell you I loved you more

Cause that was the dreadful truth

I hope this new year will be truly amazing (for a change)
I hope I'll acheive the things I desire (for instance you)
I hope I'll make my parents proud
I hope I'll make myself proud
And I hope I'll be kind and loving towards everyone
Yet the voices in my head are screaming
How do you accomplish anything applicable in this state of mind?

I've always loved your smile
It was so beautiful
And I was so jealous
I couldn't even speak
Certain things just shouldn't be changed you know?
Cause when it faded
So did my love for you

I'm going to give you my heart
I'm going to give you my whole entire soul and mind
I'm going to give you my body
I'm going to give you my early morning sulks and my night time smiles

You do not have to love me back

But how could I miss out on
How truly beautiful you are
All this time
And I never even considered it once
The dark hair
Green eyes
The way you complimented me
I'll re-consider it now