The only thing holding me back
From this new year

Is you.

Words.
They are what defines us, what gives us emotion.
They can either bring us up,
Or break us down;
Make us feel loved,
Or make us want to die.

You know the saying,
"Sticks and stones,
may break my bones, but words can
Never
hurt me?"

Let's see
How it feels
When I beat you
Down with my fists and then
My words.

Tell me what
You would like better.

I
hope
to
have you
in
all the
ways
I
never
dared

There is solace in being alone
Memories etched in the heart
Loneliness cannot breach
Memoirs scripted by them
Every word infused with love

Remember when we
Confided in each other
Laughed at the
Shallowness of society?

And as the days went by
My feelings
Our feelings for each other
Grew stronger
And we confessed.
I recall how
Warm and red
My face was.  

We were so close,
You were the only true friend
I had.
I trusted you,
Loved you.
And once upon a time
I was sure you did, too.

But what happened?
Did I say something wrong?
Or did your fickle mind
Simply grow bored
Of this pathetic, desperate girl
With a warped view of the world?

Because now
We barely talk
And I'm always the one who
Initiates a conversation
That always ends so abruptly.

Can we go back to
What we used to be?
Best friends,
Nothing more?

I'm not asking for romance,
I long gave up on that.