And if I turn sideways
In the mirror
I look almost skinny enough
To be lovable

Come--
Lay with me under my blankets
Kiss my skin
Memorize the pattern of my gasps
Leave bruises on my hips

Come--
Let's take a drive into town
Play our music too loud
And get sick from smoking
Too many cigarettes

Come--
Stop talking to me for over a year
And then call me up
Crying and saying
"It was you, always you.."

Your fingertips
Burned into my back
A little indent
On the lower left side of my spine

So I pick up a book
And read words that
Make me feel something inside
Ones where I cry at the end
Just to make sure
I can even feel.

It's crazy how
One person
One kiss
One smile
One touch
Can make your life feel
Perfect

She looked at me
Confusedly
Pulled her hand back up
Asked me why
I shrugged and apologized
I don't think anyone's
Ever told her no
To getting into their pants

She cups my face
Kisses my nose
My forehead
My cheeks
My chin
Finally my lips
She pulls away
Opens her eyes
And whispers
*you are so beautiful
In every single way

Perfection found its way
Into her eyes and eyelashes
Her hair and her eyebrows
The curve of her lips when we kiss
It found its way
Into her flawless smooth tan skin
And into her hand
When she squeezes mine