I used to believe everything happened for a reason,
But it's hard to see the reason for this.
It's hard to breathe
In this ocean you left me.
It's hard to see
Through this darkness you led me.
It's hard to feel anything
But this hole that you gave me
And the thoughts that burn
Even when I don't think of you.

Because everything reminds me of you.
I was feeling better
Until I saw your cigarettes in my trash can.
I was feeling better
Until I found your shirt under my bed.
I was feeling better
Until I realized
That this is all *******
And that I ******* need you.

No matter what I've been told I can't shake you.
That I'm strong-
It's because you made me strong-
And that I need to find myself
But I don't because I found myself with you.

Being in love is amazing, because you feel the connection in every way:
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.
Being in love is terrifying, because you feel the pain in every single way:
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.
Something so good
Has to have a bad side;
It's just the way the world was made.

I don't know how three days
Can burn my future down to nothing.
I don't know how one second
Can set me back a lifetime.

But I will be fine,
Eventually.
If I lived 18 years without you,
I can survive the rest.
At least,
That's what I keep telling myself.

you are the only one
that could make a puddle
feel like an ocean
in the best and worst ways possible

you make me feel
like you tore off
a part of my own body
****** walls
****** floors
it rains
but not water
you're laughing
and i'm screaming
and you're in love
and i'm falling
you're happy
and i am dying

i am no longer in a puddle
of my own blood
i am in an ocean
of the memories of you
and the moisture between your thighs

you said it yourself
this is why storms are named after people

*******.

what do you call
that feeling
when youre cold and you go outside into the warm sun?
when you finally lay in bed after a long day?
when you hear an old song and you still remember all the words?

i go back to the day when i felt like it would be my last
when i thought i would stop breathing
until you dragged me out of the ocean-
coughing out what was left
of my heart
cut up little ****** pieces
mangled by a love i thought i deserved
and ridiculously,
i felt hope
it was the first time i realized
that the waves weren't such a bad thing
and if i went with them
i would get to a place better than where they took me from

you are my warm sun
you are my bed
you are the song stuck in my head