I chased you
Until I was exhausted
So you choose to lift me
And carry me as your own
Believing you were someone
Who would finally love me
As I wished to be loved.
Time went on
My days grew greatly
And all was more than enough
Until the day came
The day awaited for all but me
The day I realized you chose me only
To stitch your cuts
And numb your pain...
I guess they were right.
Tears falling down
Heart has been shattered
She was never good with words
She was never good at showing her love for him
She was drowned by the reality
She was lost
He is the sun for her
She lets herself burnt, trying to hug him
Never knew, love could be this smother
It slowly kills her
If only he knew
How much she cried
How much she hid the tears
How much the pain she felt
But he didn't care......
You asked me why I like you
But I didn’t want to tell
Some of my reasons are cheesy...
But here is why I fell
I love the way your lips curve
When I make you smile
It makes me want to pull you close
And kiss you for awhile
I love the way your eyes twinkle
When you talk about things you love
I truely believe
You are a gift from above
I love that you are compassionate
You have such a big heart
That was the first thing I noticed
Right from the start
I love the way it feels
When you hold me tight
I finally feel safe
Like I could sleep through the night
I love that you don’t judge me
For my less than perfect self
That is more attractive
Than any amount of wealth
There are so many more reasons
But I’ll start with just this few
I’ll give this poem to you
There’s been this weight on my shoulder,
Like a strike system:
Every time I do something that
I tell myself is “wrong,”
I add to this invisible weight.
Now, as it’s becoming too heavy to bear,
I realize that the only thing I’ve done wrong is punish myself for being human.
And it’s time to stop.
Maybe it’s time to rethink
my notion of “wrongs”
And believe in the idea that
it’s okay to be imperfect.
So with these words, I finally
relinquish this burden.
I will not hold on to futility and
I will not spend the rest of my years in hurting in needless guilt.
I am letting go...
And I will be okay.
A note, a letter, a reminder to myself to stop and be kinder, more flexible, and less harsh with myself.
an amount of space between two things or people
That's what I knew of what distance means,
before I met you
Never seen distance as a barrier,
but here I am
Wishing this barrier to be vanished
and be held in your arms
right in this moment
I don't know how it all first started
All I knew was you came like the sun in rainy days
Joyful, warm, delightful
But I was too in love with the rain
Even when you shined brightly
But you didn't give it all up
You were always there, when I locked myself in the dark
What a senseless silly girl, I was
What an ignorant person I was
I never knew that stranger could make me smile this wide again
I never knew that stranger could make me laugh this much
I never knew that stranger could make me feel loved
I never knew that...
I would fell for that person who was a stranger to me
I once told myself
I promised myself not to involve your feeling into anyone or anything
But I guess I'm just fooling myself as the clock ticking
The more we talked, the deeper I fell for you
I couldn't help myself but to let myself fell
Hoping you would catch me
But, again, I forgot that someone said that falling is hurt
But I'm loving every minute of it
I enjoyed every pieces of my heart that had been shattered
Hoping that you would heal me
But, expectation is a cruel *******
You never get what you want
It only leads you to another brokenheart
So I stay here, with every pieces left, trying to build walls
And go back to my old self