Laksmi Dewi

Laksmi Dewi Oct 2018

Tears falling down

Heart has been shattered

Empty gaze

She was never good with words

She was never good at showing her love for him

She was drowned by the reality

She was lost

He is the sun for her

She lets herself burnt, trying to hug him

Never knew, love could be this smother

It slowly kills her

Suffocated

Dying

If only he knew

How much she cried

How much she hid the tears

How much the pain she felt

But he didn't care......

Sep 2018

She Writes

My Reasons

You asked me why I like you
But I didn’t want to tell
Some of my reasons are cheesy...
But here is why I fell

I love the way your lips curve
When I make you smile
It makes me want to pull you close
And kiss you for awhile

I love the way your eyes twinkle
When you talk about things you love
I truely believe
You are a gift from above

I love that you are compassionate
You have such a big heart
That was the first thing I noticed
Right from the start

I love the way it feels
When you hold me tight
I finally feel safe
Like I could sleep through the night

I love that you don’t judge me
For my less than perfect self
That is more attractive
Than any amount of wealth

There are so many more reasons
But I’ll start with just this few
Maybe someday
I’ll give this poem to you

:)

#relationship #romance #kiss #crush #like #love #heart #compassion

Sep 2018

Edmund black

Invisible

They’ve said
If you write down
your problems
they might disappear ,
Wishful thinking
I tell you.
She writes
no one noticed
She screams
no one heard
She’s drowning
in herself
no one notice
her struggles
she feels like
she doesn’t belong
not a thing going her way
not a **** thing
She’s too full of life
too half live
She’s too full of love
to be half loved
Her heart fighting a raw pain
no one understand
no one even care to notice...
She’s an entire earthquake
confined in her own prison
of her skins
bones as bars
pretty flesh planted feet
waiting for someone to notice
the soil beneath her feet
is breaking...
Pretty face
so perfect in every way
yet no one notice
the sky above her head
is falling
no exit doors
nowhere to run
she can no longer hide
her pieces are falling
into darkness
though the lights are bright
within the dark roads
of a beautiful soul

Can you See her now ?

TIME TO SAVE THE WORLD!

Sep 2018

julianna

Stop

~
There’s been this weight on my shoulder,
Like a strike system:

Every time I do something that
I tell myself is “wrong,”
I add to this invisible weight.

Now, as it’s becoming too heavy to bear,
I realize that the only thing I’ve done wrong is punish myself for being human.
And it’s time to stop.

Stop.

Maybe it’s time to rethink
my notion of “wrongs”
And believe in the idea that
it’s okay to be imperfect.

So with these words, I finally
relinquish this burden.
I will not hold on to futility and
self-inflicted pain.
I will not spend the rest of my years in hurting in needless guilt.
I am letting go...

And I will be okay.
~

A note, a letter, a reminder to myself to stop and be kinder, more flexible, and less harsh with myself.

#stop #burden #pain #free

Laksmi Dewi Sep 2018

Distance

Distance
an amount of space between two things or people
That's what I knew of what distance means,
before I met you

Never seen distance as a barrier,
but here I am
Wishing this barrier to be vanished
and be held in your arms
right in this moment

#distance #missingyou

Laksmi Dewi Sep 2018

Shattered

I don't know how it all first started

All I knew was you came like the sun in rainy days

Joyful, warm, delightful

But I was too in love with the rain

Even when you shined brightly

But you didn't give it all up

You stayed

You were always there, when I locked myself in the dark

What a senseless silly girl, I was

What an ignorant person I was

I never knew that stranger could make me smile this wide again

I never knew that stranger could make me laugh this much

I never knew that stranger could make me feel loved

I never knew that...

I would fell for that person who was a stranger to me

I once told myself

I promised myself not to involve your feeling into anyone or anything

But I guess I'm just fooling myself as the clock ticking

The more we talked, the deeper I fell for you

I couldn't help myself but to let myself fell

Hoping you would catch me

But, again, I forgot that someone said that falling is hurt

But I'm loving every minute of it

I enjoyed every pieces of my heart that had been shattered

Hoping that you would heal me

But, expectation is a cruel *******

You never get what you want

It only leads you to another brokenheart

So I stay here, with every pieces left, trying to build walls

And go back to my old self

Laksmi Dewi Sep 2018

Reflection

I walked through the lonely road and all I saw was darkness.
"Why am I here?", I asked myself.
I felt like I've been here yesterday.
Was it a dejavu?
The road was so empty, yet all I heard was a woman screaming for help.
I couldn't see the light in the end of the road.
I couldn't find the woman.
I couldn't do anything until I realized it was me.
It was me, the woman who screamed for help.
Now I can see her clearly, my reflection.
The calm on her face is an ongoing sin.
I know, it's all a lie.
I still can hear the sounds of her screaming, it's resonancing.
She says, "Please remove the mask I've been wearing for the past few years"
With a smile in her face, she continues "I've been waiting for someone to remove it, but no one care enough to remove it"
I begin to ask myself "Why do I let this happen to myself?"
How can I love someone else more than I love myself.
Most people just turn the other cheek.
Most people wouldn't care.
Most people turn their back and go.
They've been doing it for years.
But I must face the pain I see, in my own reflection.

#selflove