It's my fault that everything is wrong and falling apart it's my fault everyone is fighting and not getting along ....it's my fault

I'm sorry I'm a failure I'm sorry I'm a **** I'm sorry I ruin everyone's life I'm sorry I'm a nobody and I'm sorry that I care what people think I'm sorry I'm depressed I'm sorry for being mean I'm sorry I'm stupid I'm sorry I feel pain in my heart cause nobody cares about me I'm sorry I am empty of happiness I'm sorry I am a ****** up ******* I'm sorry I'm alive and doing these things I wish I was different but I'm so sorry I'm not I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry I'm nothing to be exited about I'm sorry .........

People  running people screaming people people swimming people talking there is sand there is sun there is fun it is a beach and there are lots off different possibilities

Behind my smile is a frown behind my eyes is pain and  tears behind my laugh is a sob behind everything I'm a broken person and behind the happiness I should really be crying but behind it all I'm faking I'm not happy I'm sad but behind my pain would be laughing because nobody would actually care because behind it all I am very very broken beyond repair so you wanted to know what was behind my smile because behind my smile is pain .

If you know what is bad and have not tried it once that is good but it also means you are only good and don't go outside the box if you have not snuck out with your friends wow you would probably be the first I am bad but sad I want someone to tell me I'm wrong to disipline me I am  bad and do stuff I'm not supposed to do but I do not go overboard yes I am bad if you are to coment and I'll follow you

I am sad and not happy I have not been for a Long time now happy is no more what do I have to be happy  about family is so broken friends I only have a few my boyfriend i don't have one my dog died of cancer and my aunt did to so happy is no more now it's all faking happy instead of being happy so happy is clearly no more

That moment when u know your life is over that moment u know u can't change your ways that moment u wish u could just melt away because stress kills you  fighting hurts and u can't express your own feelings that moment you know evrything is broken and never will ever be the same you will know I do we'll this is me and not you you or you I feel like I'm dropping down down down I feel like I'm dieing an melting away if I did would anybody care there will come that moment when you just won't care and that will be my moment to pick myself up and live my life as best as I can