I am 1,000 pounds,
weighed down by memories,
by crushing defeat,
by failure,
by loss,
by regret...
yet I am weightless,
empty,
a trophy in a dusty case,
my varnish dim,
no longer new,
no longer shiny,
I struggle to stay afloat,
but I am still swimming,
because I see the lighthouse,
tall and shining.
a gleam of light beckoning from it's highest point,
come to me
swim to me
I am the way out
and so I tread.

the yellow glow of the rising sun
gives me the gift of renewed hope
and gratitude for my breath and life
today

Maybe I wouldn't
mind being myself,
If others didn't have
such a problem with it.

I bought a dress that looks like the sea
I thought it could take me there
It pools, it waves, and it dances,
Blue with gold flecks, like when the sun kisses the surface

I bought a dress that looks like the sea
It ripples around me and I feel perfect,
Powerful, like she is
I could take down a hundred men with those waves

I bought a dress that looks like the sea
But when I wear it and I’m angry
I loathe you and I want to drown you
And I could, because I am the sea

I am the sea and I shall rock you to sleep;
I shall suffocate you and play with you
And the whole time I do it
I will be dancing.