touch my face and feel my gut
it's knotted up, punctured and twisted
with knives of lovers lost
look at me with shame and forget me
no longer call me by my name, brother
i'm barren from the child i chose not to let be
yet still swollen from the emptiness
stepping on nails, sharp as i pace back and forth
tattered soles and tattered souls
can't overcome the obstacle without proper shoes
end my suffering with a needle or two
let ooze the regretful sorrow that feeds on my sanity
drain the abscess that is my conscience
my conscious mind
it throbs beneath my skin
and whispers secrets from hell, ear to ear
on sunny days
tiny voices and threatening reminders
of crimes not yet repented
committed in fear of solitude
ways to escape unknown, unwanted
negligent to what could be
because the what is distracts me
traps me
i must first love myself
to be loved by you
everyday is a chance to recreate
we know that
our limbs grow longer ingesting opportunity
but hear me when i shout to you from the asphalt
the world unwillingly grows smaller and smaller
and chances are slimmer, slander
ensures
luck be eradicated
because pieces of us
have been
amputated

fell in love with yesterday's smile
a photo at the beach
its thousand words i wished to hear you speak
though they not went unheard
by these eager ears
and hungry eyes
i was famished by the need for you
my lonely heart throbbed an unfamiliar rhythm
a silent mating call
and i heard you then, too
mind flooded with premonition
and demolition
of heinous memories
of previous torturers
employed by heaven
to learn me something
worthy of heirloom
wisdom for my time
and for the times to come
fell in love with yesterday's smile
before our faces met
your photo at the beach
spoke to me in languages not of my mother
its words transcend the time i worship
for now what i worship is you

he plays the song
for you that makes
your hips dance and
that makes you feel
like a goddess
his fingers stroke
the treble chords
of the instrument
between the folds
of your womanhood
the beat of his tune is
synchronized with
the rhythm of your
heart pounding melodies
against your chest
he reaches out to you
with hungry eyes
that make you beg  
for more before he
has even begun
his body locked in yours
like a puzzle piece
only one possible match
could fit you
this well.

she approached at the door of our fortress
wielding her weapon of love
forged in tears and old flame
drawn and ready to strike you
retrieve you
imprison you
overthrow me
though she'll never know,
your panic dazzled her intentions
and hidden from within the closet
i trembled in the darkness
in fear and in anger
awaiting her judgment
and i cursed you
for the curse you had put on me
the same curse she had put on you
i swore that she'd been your best kept secret
when in fact,
your best kept secret was me

visions of you
an endless loop
still left to conquer
and i wonder
if these visions are
premonitions or
if they are just
dreams made of
broken
memories
my soul remains  
trapped in what
could have been
time passes when
i dull the pain with
caffeine and
routine
imagining your
gentle hands they
touch me and i'm
yours forever again
but
i open my eyes
and i'm blinded by
the emptiness
an empty nest  
today begins with
exercise
another sunrise
reminds me
that i'm
forever
without you
all over again

fingers fluent in language spoken in hushed tones
bodies illuminated by electric currents
convergence
hands that glide across the surface
leaving no inch untouched
hungry for lunch
heat rising from the sheet
blood pulsing to the beat of the
headboard
banging and begging for mercy
from the beginning to end
feet twisting
heels digging
at the addiction
sparks ignite fire from friction
burning through exposed skin like newspaper
devouring each other
connection made slick like butter
arousing the fuse by
lighting matches in the dark
triggering
an explosion.

she couldn't believe how much that he dazzled her
soul with his fingertips only brushing her
arm while he was passing her by
accidentally