You were right along and that
makes me feel like a *******.
Baby, please don't mistake my tears for laughter.
I'll break your heart then hang up after.

It took a lot to shoot my shot
But lack of confidence left me off target.
I can't make you feel something
you don't
I just want a break from the ache in my chest, the pain when thinking about how you "think it's best"
We just stay friends.
How long before this heartbreak ends?

Smoking cigarillos to the crutch
Burning fingers reaching for a head rush but it don't come.
Life was better when I lived on the run. Tired of being in pain but it's better than feeling numb, maybe I should just bite the bullet if to die is really to become.

Only eating ink off the brush
up late painting cuz I've had too much to think, think I might need a drink
staring in the mirror, tears splash in the sink on impact, no airbags deployed
cardiac car crash with no piece left intact.

Three words drive the knife in my heart to the hilt.
"I miss you, that's not me trying to guilt, I just want you to know"
But i already know
you wish you could stop me, don't want me to go.
But I'm leaving now because nowhere feels like home.
I miss you's possessive and that's why you let me know.
Holding on tight
I think you should just let me go,
You're not the only one who's lonely,
you don't ******* own me!
You can miss me forever.
I'll continue missing no one ever.
Put pen to paper, continue trying to be clever
"I Miss You"
Whatever.

Alien or Ghost
I'm really not sure which one
I feel like the most

A chemical imbalance
of dope and dopamine
opened a gateway to
her infernal machine
but her callous indifference
to change her routine,
only nurtured her aggression
towards maternal genes.

© Matthew Harlovic