The stomach pain is horrendous
The taste of dessert coming back
The look of disaster
stab me, choke me, **** me
The disapproval upon the faces
The miserable sounds in the background
The insecurity peaking out
save me, help me, rescue me
The choke before the gag
The spit before the rest
The death in my stomach
take me, be me, please
The blood in my gums
The ache in my throat
It's over–
I'm alright again.

She wanted the world.

Completely in denial
that he was ready
to give her, his.

In a window,
The light refracts
and time stops briefly

I see insects
crawl to their homes,
I wonder, my own

Countless lives, countless streets
Everything is painted with my sins
Night sky, my will to live
My emotions thoughts dying from ***
Im just a small selfish child
Lifeless corpse, don't want to be desired

So mama and papa you came to **** me
To greater beyond , to see me off


So mama and papa you came to **** me                                                   somehow I'm not afraid, is death going to heal me

Talking to a imaginary wall
He seams more human then me before
Going crazy, cannot die
Laughing frenzy at my children's graves
All fixated can't get any highs
Must be a dream , it will all stop when I close my eyes
.....................
Pleas stop , pleas stop , pleas stop
Stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop
**** **** **** **** **** **** **** ****
Pleas ******* stop

Muffles of my scream
Prying in my winter coat;
It sings in false chords.

I love the way she walks
her hips sway with *** appeal
I love the way her eyes meets everyone's in the room
she silently seduces
I love the way she speaks with authority
it radiates power
I love the way she carries herself
with poise and class and naughtiness
I love the way she smiles
she cant get away with wrinkling her nose
I love the way she loves
she dives head over heels
she always does what she does with purpose

Craving the touch of her
wanting so much of her,
where is she going
tonight?