Juanita

Juanita May 2023

sorry

I didn’t look after my body
and now she’s bruised
pained and weeping
reflecting my disfigured heart

#selfharm #sad #regret #sorry

Juanita Sep 2021

pruned

your fragile flesh weeps
but even your blood soaked tears
cannot stain, steel with a conscious
your branded with your sorrows

but one day
you’ll grow new skin
because your disfigured heart still dreams
and your soiled scars will soar into stars

#growth #coping #sad

Juanita Dec 2020

beaten hearts

now the sky is blue
just last night you were my muse

as our feet left this earth
we shared a dance with the moon

hearts beat to their own worlds
then the ocean’s waves spelt
I love you

yet now
our stars have soared into scars

#heartbreak #truth #vulnerability

Juanita Sep 2020

my lover

such a beautiful monster
my lover is
he haunts me
with his cruel hands yet soft touch
he torments me
then
he adores me
at times I fail to tell the two apart
such a beautiful monster
my lover is

#heartbreak #hopeless #dark #love #sad

Juanita Jan 2020

Regret

An empty canvas
I once was
Clear, pure and yet to be discovered
I desired the simple touch of paint
And envied the true essence of colour
But
When the day finally came
I wasn’t painted
Beautifully
Yet invaded
Brutally
By the darkest shade of misery.

#regret #consumed #alone

Juanita Oct 2019

Tormented

The hatred that lives to burn within me
Is ever so intoxicating
That it will soon become a flame
And one a reflection
Of the demons I once but all captured
Yet, now threaten to break free
Only to ignite a sorrowful fire
I fear water cannot tame.

#selfhate #hurt #trapped

Juanita Aug 2019

Tonight

Tonight is the night
When I tell you
My truth,
My truth is my love
My truth is my sorrow
My truth are the tears
That fall off of my face,
My heart is in ache
For all it’s ever known is pain
Tonight the scars will be on display
While my eyes paint
A picture of dismay,
As this feeling of void
Has become too hard
To avoid.

#vulnerable #alone #truth