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697 · Feb 2011
A Way Out
Jolene Perron Feb 2011
I'm looking at myself,
in the mirrow in front of me.
I'm picturing who I was,
who I'll never again be.

Someone who's been forgotten,
and lost within the year.
The time that's passed in which,
I've shed millions of tears.

In searching for someone,
who was lost so far beneath.
The lies, the scars, the hatred,
couldn't stand on two feet.

I was always falling down,
I was always on my knees.
Crying out for help,
screaming "Someone. Please!"

I used to be someone,
who gave everything but.
Left nothing for myself,
and dug myself a rut.

I crawled down deep,
hiding in my shame.
Losing myself,
forgetting even my name.

But now as I stand,
confident and tall.
I see where I was,
and I'm tearing down the walls.

I'm loving who I am,
and where I am  in life.
I'm making a change now,
and everything is right.

My grades, my work, my life,
new friends I'm surrounded with.
The boy by my side,
who reassures me with each kiss.

I've taken myself from the drama,
the cruelty and lies.
I'm moving forward now,
leaving it all behind.

I'm someone different but,
never will I forget.
Who I was before,
everything that was meant.

For where I've been back there,
and where I am now.
Is the secret to the life,
in which I have found.

I'm standing tall and proud,
beautiful inside and out.
I didn't run away from it,
instead, I found a way out ...
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
I think that you would be surprised,
how much I think about you.
If you only knew just what I thought about,
you'd be really amazed how crazy I am about you.
When you hold me in your arms,
my entire world stands still.
My everything is right,
my everything is standing before me.
Big blue eyes staring back at me,
so beautiful and right.
Your touch is gentle and warm,
taking away all my pain.
You know just how to hold me,
just how to soothe me.
I don't understand how I missed,
I didn't know for years.
But now here we are in a moment,
everything stands still.

But
But her.
That girl.
The one you're with.
What about her?

You don't want to be with her,
and everything seems so complicated.
But I don't know, sweetie,
just how long I can stand.|
To share you, with her,
to have you go between.
I've come to be 'the other woman',
someone I've avoided till now.
And hunny, I wish you knew,
just how I felt about this whole ordeal.

I'm falling,
falling quickly,
falling fast,
but can you catch me,
while you're holding her?
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
You with her,
and I feel the pull.
My heart strings tangle,
I'm left unfull.

My head is spinning,
I'm so confused.
I feel let down,
I feel used.

Everything everywhere,
you're no where that I need.
Your signals so mixed,
and you're so hard to read.

Just be up front with me,
please just once.
Realize that I've fallen for you,
and honesty is a must.

But you seem to have put up,
this wall so very high.
You won't let me in any more,
is it time to say goodbye?

Just please explain to me,
what's going on with you.
I would love to sit down and talk,
but it seems like I bug you.

Every day I wonder,
today I broke down and cried.
I'm confused, what's going on?
I wish that you were mine...
677 · Jan 2011
All The People
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
Have you ever really looked,
at the people all around.
With stories and lives,
their minds profound.

The teen mom,
with a baby on her hip.
Thin and lanky,
bruises and a fat lip.

Struggling to get away,
from the abusive man she's with.
She screams all night long,
"I've had enough!"

And the man, abusing,
the teen with the baby.
He might just be struggling too,
maybe, just maybe.

All he knows is abuse in life,
that's all his father did.
To his mother, all along,
since he was just a kid.

The man in the corner,
sitting alone today.
Wondering if his life,
if it will ever be okay.

His friends, they pressure,
him into the drugs, the steriods.
They tell him "Just one hit,
what are you, scared, boy ? "

The girl down the street,
struggling to fit in.
Her clothes, her looks,
they don't match the other kids.

She's different, she's dark,
and she keeps to herself.
But she wants to be like them,
it's a need she can not help.

Lying beneath the surface,
there is a storm inside.
In him, in her,
even one that is mine.

Everyone struggles,
to be who they are.
To get what they want,
to make it this far.

Have you ever looked,
at the people all around.
Their minds, complex,
their stories, profound.
672 · Mar 2011
Becoming Numb
Jolene Perron Mar 2011
She walks through life,
Sunrise, sundown.
She begins to feel nothing,
she's wearing a frown.

Her perspective is lost,
her thoughts unknown.
Not even she,
can decipher this on her own.

Nothing is right,
and it doesn't make sense.
Why there are walls,
who put up this fence?

Is it a fear?
it's something she does not know.
She's oh so lost,
doesn't know where to go.

And she doesn't know why,
where it came from.
All she knows,
is she just feels numb.

She doesn't feel the sun,
she can't feel the warmth.
She's merely sliding by,
putting one foot forth.

The cold wind blows,
but it doesn't seem to matter.
She's standing at the bottom,
of this life's ladder.

And she's not quite sure,
where to go from here.
How to get farther,
how to conquere fear.

All she knows now,
not where she's from.
But all she feels now,
she's
                   Just
                                         Numb.
668 · Nov 2010
Have I Ever Told You ? <3
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
Have I ever told you,
I miss you very much.
Every single word,
and every little touch.

Have I ever told you,
you mean the world to me?
Everything inside of you,
is all I wish I could be.

Have I ever told you,
how beautiful you are?
Your eyes shine so bright,
that they warm up my heart.

Have I ever told you,
how warm you are to feel?
That you make me smile,
and you make my world unreal.

Have I ever told you,
you fill my life with joy.
With every text and each message,
each and every story.

Have I ever told you,
I couldn't live without you?
If you left me here and now,
I don't know what I'd do.

Have I ever told you,
you're my very best friend.
And if it turned to more than that,
I would never want to see the end.

Have I ever told you,
you mean the world to me.
And I wish that you were here,
and you are all I see...
666 · Aug 2010
She's Moving On
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
She's walking,
listening,
forgetting,
remembering,
all she's ever known.

She's looking,
up,
above,
below,
all around where she stands.

She's falling,
crying,
smiling,
dieing,
feeling so very alone.

This world,
empty,
full,
uncertain,
the words are out of reach.

His words,
circle,
hold,
break,
her down until she is nothing.

His eyes,
bright,
colourful,
mysterious,
have never caprutred her quite like this.

She's staring,
up,
down,
around,
the bright blue sky.

She's thinking,
remembering,
forgetting,
contemplating,
everything and nothing all at once.

It's life,
uncertainty,
circling,
running,
and she's trying to keep up.

Her past,
fast,
running,
controling,
everything she is today.

But she's learning,
and she's falling.
But she's picking herself up,
with his words close inside.

She's working on herself,
a new girl.
She's her own person now,
everything she's ever know.

She's leaving it behind,
but it's still there.
She's thinking about it,
but it will control her no more.

She's walking,
looking,
up,
around,
thinking of all that's gone wrong.

She's smiling,
thinking,
remembering,
reliving,
all the moments she will never forget.

She's living,
new,
life,
happiness,
and she's moving on...
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
Cut from your mother,
for your own sick needs.
For someone else's pleasure,
and no else sees.

How sick this is,
it's cruel and wrong.
It's horrible, it's selfish,
and it has been all along.

On a woman, on a pig,
any animal of any kind.
Can't you see the sickness?
the cruelty behind ?

To rip the fetus from,
the flesh of it's mother.
It never took a breath,
never felt the weather.

It never saw day,
never tasted the air.
Tell what about this exactly,
is honestly fair?
We were supposed to start our dissection of a fetal pig today in Biology. I walked out of the room crying ... I explained to the teacher I couldn't do it, that it wasn't fair, that it was abortion. These are my thoughts on abortion.
655 · Oct 2010
I'm Falling, I'm Falling...
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
Walking, walking,
let's move on forward.
But every time I try,
it's two steps backward.

Listen, listen,
to the words I need to say.
But they aren't coming out,
no honey, not today.

I wish, I wish,
I could tell you everything.
But I don't know myself,
I can't hear my heart sing.

The words, the words,
so lost in my heart.
I can't decifer them,
and it's tearing me apart.

I miss, I miss,
what we used to be.
The best friends ever,
you were always there for me.

I want, I want,
that someone to always hold.
Who's here to be with me,
and forever grow old.

I need, I need,
someone to just say.
"Baby, it'll be all right,"
and hold me close today.

These days, these days,
getting harder to bear.
The people around,
my heart they tear.

I'm falling, I'm falling,
someone help me up.
These days, I'm telling you,
have never been so rough.

My feelings, my feelings,
have never been so hard.
To decifer, but honey,
there's more and more ...

I'm falling....I'm falling...
I need help now ...
Can someone just hold me?
It's gotta be alright some how ...
652 · Mar 2011
Yours, Mine, Us.
Jolene Perron Mar 2011
You are fear,
             Comfort,
                       Honesty,
                                Warmth.

You are sunshine,
               Sanity,
                        Romance,
                        ­          A dream.

We are everything,
               I've
                          Ever
                             ­      Wanted.


We are teenaged,
                Romance,
                           At
                                   Best.

This is mine,
                Ours,
                        Yours,
      ­                             Us.

This is not,
                For,
                         Their,
                                   Judgement.

**This.
                    Is.
                     ­               Real.
652 · Aug 2010
How Dare You
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
You hurt me,
you lied and lied.
Now you could be the reason,
he says goodbye.

You didn't stop,
long after I told you to.
You blame me for hurting,
for doing all of this to you.

Well darling, you don't get,
how much hell you put me through.
You did twice as much to me,
than I ever did to you.

You keep messing with,
my life my love and more.
You wonder why I said goodbye,
why I was so sure?

You never stopped,
when I told you to.
When I said goodbye,
you should have too.

I couldn't stand to see you,
to look at your face.
I found someone better,
to take your place.

How dare you ridicule,
spread **** about me.
Act like the victim,
when in truth it was me.

How dare you act,
like you did nothing wrong.
Like it was all my fault,
and it had been all along.

I'm not a saint from heaven,
no honey, not even close.
But you're no angel,
you ain't no ******* host.
I ask that no one come to random conclusions about who this poem is about. I can almost guarentee it's not about what you think it is.
645 · Jul 2010
Her and the Kids
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
it was a beautiful day
out on the street
the kids are laughing
in the scortching heat

the sun is shining
down on the concrete
the children run around
in bare feet

the dogs chasing them
in the sprinklers
baithing suits and shorts
his and hers

the day is young
the sun is bright
nothing is wrong
and everything is right

the world of kids
what can go wrong
this day will be over
before long...
642 · Jan 2011
This is, I am, You Are...
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
You're confusing,
and you make my head spin,
and anger is only rising.
You're the only one,
who only hurts me,
with this pointless goodbyeing.
And I want your touch,
and only you,
this feeling hurts so much.
You say one word,
but then you replace it,
the truth from some girl.
You finally get it out,
the truth I want,
as I begin to shout.
And now, I have,
what I wanted all along,
from this stupid mishap.
But I have to console,
me by myself,
in this world alone.

You're amazing,
you're sweet,
and oh so charming.
Your eyes,
they're gorgeous,
I wish you were mine.
Making me fall into you,
making me a fool.
with all you say and do.

Now I sit here,
comtemplating life,
shedding tears.
Holding the blade,
inches away,
decision to be made.
Knowing I'm giving in,
spiraling into addiction,
regretting all my sins.
That old addiction I've fought,
kept away for months,
Forgetting all I was taught.

This is me,
this is failure,
this is falling apart.
These are thoughts,
I can't expresses,
Hidden in my heart.
T'here's not really a consistant rhyming scheme to this poem, I know, but I was aiming for expression.
639 · Aug 2010
"Friend"
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
The picture in the mirror,
what do you see?
The anger pain and scars,
revolving around me.

A friend who knows the truth,
but she always goes against.
When I ask her one thing,
she goes around the fence.

I'm shaking and crying,
but she doesn't seem to care.
When I need to talk to her,
she's hardly ever there.

She makes me question words,
and her every action.
Was it really meant?
or for his satisfaction?

How can I even trust,
someone who goes behind.
My back is bleeding buckets,
he carries a heart that's mine.

But it doesn't seem to matter,
and no one seeems to care.
They merely look away,
as my "best friends" stand a tear...
637 · Sep 2010
Hey There, Little Girl
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
Hey there little girl,
with the ear streaked face.
Hey there little girl,
walking at a slow pace.

You know there little girl,
things get better.
You know there little girl,
there's sunshine in this weather.

The tears will come,
they'll fall to the ground.
You'll climb those mountains,
some way some how.

The more you grow up,
the more you'll see.
You don't have to fit in,
you have your own person to be.

You're standing on the outside,
looking in on them.
Trying to fit in,
to be like them again.

But if that's the case,
then run away now.
Don't look back,
get away some how.

Find some people,
who accept you for you.
Or strengthen up your voice,
do whatever you can do.

But look here, little girl,
so matter what they say.
Look here, little girl,
be you in every way.
636 · Nov 2010
Living A Movie
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
Look around the room,
look at everyone around you.
People who are friends,
that you now call liars.

Look at all the faces,
all the girls who are telling you.
Look at all the stories,
all of the complete facts.

People you trust,
people who you love.
People that love you,
who are only looking out for you.

But you refuse to believe,
so we go to great lengths.
We're trying to make you see,
what's really going on.

What you don't see,
is the second half of this.
The story he's hiding,
the second half of the message.

What you're blind to,
is the reality behind this lie.
What you need to see,
so that you don't get hurt.

Don't you see?
Don't you understand?
We're not trying to hurt you.
We're trying to help you.

We go to great lengths,
we put ourselves on the line.
You may think we're lieing,
that we're being nothing but rude.

But hunny, look around,
look at all the stories.
Hunny, please begin to see,
what we're doing here.

It's a John Tucker situation,
we're living a movie now.
It's sad, but it's the truth,
and I promise I won't quit.

Not until you understand,
not until you see.
Hunny, look at the man before you,
and compare him to us.

One man's story,
3 girl's "Lies".
Look at yourself,
who do you believe now?
632 · Dec 2010
Was It My Fault ?
Jolene Perron Dec 2010
The memory doesn't fade,
the words and hurt.
It doesn't go away,
the day he lifted up my shirt.

He fiddled with my belt,
and then with his own.
But when I tried to say stop,
my voice was not my own.

I knew I was inferior,
to his touch and weight.
I knew what happened then,
I would forever hate.

I screamed as loud,
as I possibly could.
But no one could hear,
and no one ever would.

My pants slipped down,
choking back tears.
This moment cause me,
a life full of fear.

His hands on my wrists,
holding me down.
His weight on top of me,
my back to the ground.

I loved him once,
something I regret,
Then he hurt me,
and I haven't forgotten yet.

It hurts to remember,
but I can not forget.
That moment in time,
I so deeply regret.

Was it my fault?
did I deserve this.
The life I had then,
every painful kiss since.

It was all my fault,
I tried to say no.
I couldn't wiggle out,
I couldn't run or go.

It didn't matter before,
and it doesn't now.
A distant memory,
I try to get over some how ..
627 · Aug 2010
Fork in My Road
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
There's a turn in the road,
a fork in the straight.
My life's decisions,
lie in its wake.

A life unsure,
a life unplanned.
Could be remade,
or destroyed by some man.

The fork in this road,
decides my life.
The future ahead,
either love or strife.

One path or another,
a decision so tough.
Want to scream so loud,
I have had enough.

Why must I chose?
why is it hard?
When I tell you the words,
you only disregard.

What I say doesn't matter,
the decision is mine.
You don't seem to care,
you tell me you're fine.

A split in my path,
a fork in my road.
Should I follow my heart?
or stay with who I know?

I stand here silent,
as the rain begins to fall.
It hits hard in the concrete,
as I slowly lose it all.

I fall to the ground,
as the rain falls  down.
I bow my head feeling the fall,
of my birthday crown.

It all fell apart,
right at the seams.
Why can't you do it?
Just for me?

Why can't this life,
work like it should?
Why all the pain?
why am I lost in the woods?

As I turn 16,
and I look back.
I see the life,
I have sorely lacked.

This life and curse,
what is it worth?
I can't stand much longer,
all of this hurt.

So I look up ahead,
at this fork in my road.
Should I leave this place?
Or keep to who I know?
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
They tell her to forget,
he's a piece of the past.
But how can she forget,
something she wanted to last?

They tell her it's over,
and to just let go.
She's trying her hardest,
but comes with nothing to show.

Just because it's her past,
doesn't mean she won't remember.
The one who made her smile,
the one who said forever.

Just because she's moved on,
doesn't mean she doesn't cry.
Spends time writing,
and to all of them she's lieing.

Forgive and forget isn't easy,
and it rarely ever works out.
When that friendship that once made you smile,
has been reduced to nothing but shouting.

Forgive and forget seems,
like an easy thing to do.
But not when she's lieing,
and truely misses you.
623 · Aug 2010
Honesty.
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
It's a lie,
it's a twist,
it's a word behind their back.

It's a poem,
it's a fist,
it's the confidence we lack.

It's the truth,
there's no lies,
and it's everything we know.

It's begging,
it's reason,
for you to never go.

The maturity,
the age,
the hormones that race.

The anger,
the frusteration,
written across our face.

It's life.
at it's worst,
and there's nothing we can do.

It's highschool,
it's drama,
it's me trapped with you.

Words fly,
hearts crushed,
life doesn't make sense.

Guys cry,
girls weep,
we all put up that fence.

I say,
it's about time,
to break those fences down.

Time to see,
what's really hidden,
deep beneath our frowns.

No lies,
no acts,
just truth down to the core.

What would,
this life me,
if we were to hurt no more?

Constant battle,
constant fear,
hidden deep within me.

Look farther,
look deeper,
and tell me what you see.

I want,
I need,
for this to all make sense.

I have,
the urge to,
please break down this fence.

Let's begin,
from the start,
let's sort all of this out.

No screaming,
no crying,
there is no reason to shout.

It's life,
it's drama,
it's highschool at the worst.

I want to smile,
let's be happy,
be free of all this hurt.
622 · Jan 2011
Ruin is Transformation
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
There are things in this life,
that I live for every day.
Things in this life in which,
I lose myself in every way.

Your eyes, your hands,
the way you hold me just so.
They way you kiss my lips,
as I'm wishing you would never go.

The way the clouds in the sky,
looking so fluffy one afternoon.
Then suddenly, they take a turn,
and there's no sight of even the moon.

The way the music flows,
softly in my ears.
As I sit and listen with you,
and it drowns out my fears.

You, you're beautiful to me,
and if only you could see.
How strong you really are,
how amazing you can be.

You give me butterflies,
and it's truely amazing now.
How the world can be collapsing beneath,
but you're with me anyhow.

We're so afraid of change, and yet,
it's so prominent in our lives.
Things fall apart, things fall together,
things left like destructed coal mines.

Life can fall apart,
and our world can be in ruins.
But this is the road to transformation,
let us let it begin.
616 · Jul 2010
Sleepless Nights
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
What do you do when you can't sleep?
When all your mind wants to do is weep.
When your life lately is nothing but hell,
when not even a talk with a friend makes it well.
What do you do when the world turns its' back?
When you feel alone and it's outta whack.
When you can't talk to no one cause no one can hear,
The scream so loud or a whisper so clear.
The only person you have in your life is God,
but lately even his love seems a litle gone.
Close ones dieing and a friend taken away,
not wanting to go through with another dreadful day.
Can't we all just talk it out?
instead of a fight, scream, or shout.
I just want my best friend back,
because lately my whole life it out of whack.
Mimé's gone and I can't bring her home,
but my best friend's around and all alone.
I need him here like a flower needs sun,
and I won't give in until my battle is won.
For we did nothing wrong so what the hell?
why are we being put through a living hell.
This makes no sense and no stories are straight,
and all I want is my best friend for heaven's sake.
My best friend to confide and confort can be found,
when life seems over and I'm being pushed around.
I just want it all to work out and be delt,
I want to get rid of all I've felt.
This hurt and sorrow and a little betrayed,
by everyone and anyone today.
God please help me and guide my way,
please don't lead me too far astray.
The only thing I have to believe in now,
is faith that God and Mimé are watching me somehow.
That they can help me deal with this huge mess,
and maybe help me get through this test.
This rough patch in my life,
that caused these tears, hate and strife.
This makes no sense and no stories are straight,
and all I want is my best friend for heaven's sake.
Like Romeo and Juliet to the extream,
forbidden to see eachother without real means..
607 · Dec 2010
People Always Leave
Jolene Perron Dec 2010
Just walk on in and I won't think twice,
hold me this time and leave again.
Call me your angel of the morning,
and leave me alone this time.
Rumours are always there,
no matter where we turn they surface.
They rip and tear apart the truth,
and the wreck absolutely everything.
It's rumours fault that you're gone,
it's lies fault that you disappear again.
I was holding on so tightly,
and I got attached only to get broken.
I jumped into the arms of someone,
a best friend I wanted to trust and care for me.
But it's because of them, the rumours and lies,
it's because of that we can not see eachother.
Why should we let them dictate?
why should it matter to us ?
If we're happy, who are they to **** in?
If we like how things are, who are they to say 'no'?
This isn't fair, I'm tired of this,
the light turned green and off you went.
But there wasn't anything I could say,
because you have the will to do as you please.
The time we spent together, my darling,
you will never know how much it impacted me.
How much all of this changed my life,
and how hurt I am now to watch you go.
I'm sure we'll see eachother again,
but sweetie, it's not the same, it's not fair.
I get to lay here all alone,
in this cold messed up life.
But I'm tired of all of this *******,
and I'm tired of this awful life.
This is stupid and pointless and rumours,
they mean nothing in reality so why.
Tell me why did you have to leave?
tell me why did you have to go?

People always leave,
prove to me that's not true.
People always leave,
and they're not coming back.
People always leave,
and I'm alone again.
605 · Nov 2010
We're All Human
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
Have you ever just stood still,
felt the world move beneath your feet.
Have you ever let something happen,
be calm, be still, be you.

Have you ever just been honest,
but no one really believes.
Have you ever tried to be calm,
but everything leaves you not to be.

Have you ever just been tired,
of the drama, the hurt, the lies.
Have you ever taken yourself away,
and looked at the situation from afar.

Have you ever really noticed,
how much we over react.
Have you ever heard something and assumed,
or heard a lie and thought it to be true.

Have you ever been a culpret,
of lieing, assuming, starting drama,
of trying, crying, fighting for what's right,
of lonliness, trying, of breaking down.

We all do it,
we're all guilty,
we're all tired,
we're all *HUMAN
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
You scream, I scream,
it's become a yelling match.
I tried to get over you,
but I am more attached.

You don't seem to get,
nor do you understand.
All I want from you,
is a caring man.

A friend to run to crying,
but he says I'm beautiful.
Holds me 'till I'm calm,
completlely lifts my world.

You want it all back,
your sweater, shirt and gift.
Well honey this ring,
I'm keeping till Earth shifts.

This ring is all I have,
hanging around my neck.
At one moment, don't you know,
what it truely meant?

"Forever Yours",
it was engraved.
But now I'm left alone,
completely betrayed.

When all I asked,
was for a friendship.
What I got in return,
was a complete heart-rip.

Here's the knife,
now dig it out of my chest.
Don't worry, sweetie,
I'll clean up the mess.

Nothing I'm not used to,
the sweat, blood and tears.
You became my worst nightmare,
carrying all of my fears.

The sweater, the shirt,
take it, it's yours to keep.
This ring and neclace however,
it's mine, over which, I weep.

It has memories,
of the man you used to be.
The one to dried my tears,
who really loved me.

But that man's gone,
and here, in his place.
Is a man I do not recognize,
with a fearfull face.

He carries my heart,
blood all on his hands.
Walking away from me,
leaving me alone again.

I'm cleaning up the mess,
but I'm drowning in my blood.
Save me, honey, please,
don't you see what I've become?
604 · Jan 2011
Begging to White Walls
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
He tells her that his feelings,
they're there but he is not.
She wants him to stay,
to never be forgot.

She wants her love,
to be enough to make him stay.
But she's answered by the tail lights,
shining bright across her face.

"Turn around ... " she whispers,
silently to on her own.
Standing by the stairs,
this time she's alone.

He claims he wants to be,
alone for just a while.
As he drive away down the street,
mile after mile.

Talking to him earlier,
she asked him to speak his mind.
As cruel as it may be,
it was better than a lie.

He told her straight up,
his feelings were still there.
But in his mind, he's lost,
as much as he still cares.

Even though he hurt her,
while she stood there crying tears.
He was the one she wanted,
to hold her and gather her fears.

He's the one she wanted,
to chase the demons away.
To weather her storm,
tell her it's gonna be okay.

But she curls up in bed,
as a tear silently falls.
"All I want is you...",
she begs to white bedroom walls ...
603 · Oct 2010
Speak
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
Stiches stiched,
across her lips.
Pen sits,
on her finger tips.

Her writing is true,
she gets is point blank.
From the moment it happened,
and when her heart sank.

She scribbles the truth,
but does anyone see.
The hurt and betrayal,
the sadness in she.

She's forced to be quiet,
to stand alone.
In the rain and winds,
she is on her own.

It all happened,
what does it mean?
She's spent 3 years,
searching for meaning.

She's tried to tell,
the truth but then.
He's with someone new,
and she's silent again.

She watches in silence,
wanting to say.
To tell her the truth,
what happened that day.

The tape is over,
her mouth this time.
Waiting in silece,
her words confined.

The pen never stops,
she hits the keys hard.
The memory painful,
but she's moving forward.
600 · Nov 2010
Give Me A Reason
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
Your eyes your smile,
your age and mine.
Your touch, your lips,
my undying mind.

My thoughts, my words,
living a fairytale.
The butterflies, the heat,
this seems so unreal.

Three years ago,
never would I have imagined.
We'd end up this way,
my heart started to blacken.

But you pulled me in close,
for that longed for kiss.
Your embrace, your smile,
and everything I've missed.

Did you know while you were gone,
I thought about you?
Your music, your voice,
the emotions you pursued.

But after all that's happened,
things you don't know yet.
All the things that stress me,
over which I've wept.

These things, well darling,
they have me terrified.
I'm so scared to just let go,
let you into my mind.

Give me a reason,
say to me some words.
Something no one else knows,
something to heal the hurt.

The age, the history,
the touch, the kiss.
Everything I want,
you're everything I miss.

I'm scared, I'm crying,
give me a reason please.
To let you in my heart,
I'm down here on my knees ...
597 · Nov 2010
Spiraling Addiction
Jolene Perron Nov 2010
This need, this want,
everything inside.
A past, my present,
it is all mine.

The spiral, the circle,
falling within.
Escape, escape,
the place I'm in.

It's so easy right now,
to just go back.
Give into the needs,
the confidence I lack.

To destroy completely,
a years work so far.
I've been clean, but,
it's getting harder and harder.

The blade, the skin,
sometimes just seem one.
So easy to go back,
the battle is never won.

When stress builds up,
when life gets hard.
It's three steps back.
and only one forward.

It's easy, it's simple,
I want to be free...
but giving in is simple,
like one...
two...
three....
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
Staring up towards the sky,
never wanting to say goodbye.
Theminutes count down to our time apart,
but no matter what, you'll be in my heart.

your baby blue eyes, they match the sky,
your arms around me make me fly.
My eyes close off and sleep comes near,
with you all around me I have nothing to fear.

I lay on your legs as I slowly drift off,
my hand falls and alerts me like a shot.
I open my eyes and see your smile,
knowing the next time we'll be here wont' be for a while.

The water is peacefull here with you,
my heart is at ease with all that we do.
No matter how hear or far away,
I promise you'll be in my heart always.
596 · Dec 2010
My Boyy
Jolene Perron Dec 2010
You touch my softly,
and my heart melts.
You look at me that way,
it's better than all I've felt.

Your eyes, they sparkle,
your personality shines.
This love is ours,
this feeling is mine.

From the hair on your head,
to converse on your feet.
You make me smile,
and my heart beat.

The way you hold me,
you make me feel safe.
The past I've held,
you help me erase.

To live and let learn,
make the best of today.
I live in the moment,
I'm me in every way.

I can hear myself laugh,
and feel myself smile.
It's been so long,
it's been such a while.

Look at all you've done,
and you continue to do more.
When I am with you,
life is never a bore.

With you I feel safe,
and I can't help but smile.
I love being with you,
even for just a while.
592 · Aug 2010
Holding Onto Forever
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
You walked away again,
that man I used to know.
Hanging in the balance,
where ever did he go?

I hate hearing about,
your love, your life, your friends.
When I can never find peace,
and this fight never ends.

All I want is to talk,
to be with you forever.
You used to be the guy,
who warmed me in stormy weather.

I hate everything about you,
but I miss you still.
Why can't I shake the memories?
those nights by the window sill.

That place you kissed me once,
and started something more.
You saved me from the ocean,
you brought me to the shore.

That look you seem to give,
I fall into your eyes.
The colours, they surround me,
how I wish that you were mine.

You embrace is like a blanket,
so soft and very warm.
I remember curling up,
and hiding from the storm.

You touch is like a wave,
of emotion down my spine.
Every time you touch me,
babe I wish that you were mine.

Nothing can compare,
to the way you make me feel.
My dreams and all my wishes,
how I hope that they come real.

For my sweet sixteen,
honey, my one and only wish.
Is that you come up to me,
and give me that longed-for-kiss.

To slowly wash away,
all the pain I've felt.
Take me away honey,
make me slowly melt.

I hope you know just this,
one thing is true.
I'm still holding onto forever,
because I still love you...
592 · Jul 2010
Don't You Remember?
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
Don't you remember the time,
when you used to hold me tight.
Don't you remember you said,
forever it'll be alright.

Don't you remember the words,
Babe, I love you.
Don't you remember this?
sweetie, I still do.

There was a time when,
I saw you most every day.
Everything was lovely,
perfect in every way.

We had our fights,
and agruments you see.
But nothing compared to that feeling,
when you were with me.

You gave me butteflies,
but now you give me tears.
Each time I think of you,
this became my worst fear.

I wish I had a do-over,
just one last chance.
I've grown up in the last month,
I believe we both have.

I believed in us,
and baby I still do.
I don't know why after all this time,
I still love you.

The storms that come and go,
I wish you were there.
By my side holding me,
I wish you still cared.

Don't you remember last year,
at this particular time.
We only wished to be together,
that you could be mine.

You waited for me for long,
and I wish I knew from the start.
Baby, I'm waiting for you,
because you still have my heart.

I don't know how long,
how much it'll take.
But I hope you realize I'm yours,
until the earth shakes.

Until the skies come down,
and engulf this world.
I'll be sitting here wishing,
I was your girl.

You have my heart,
this friendship I will cherish.
But it's your love, babe,
that I really truely miss.

If it takes forever,
hundreds and thousands of years.
I'll be sitting here,
waiting for you dear.

So don't you remember?
the words I love you.
I wish I could hear them again,
because I still do ...
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
No matter what I say,
no matter what I do.
There will always be a piece of me,
hidden deep in you.

No matter who I'm with,
no matter what I say.
Seeing you with her,
kills me in every way.

If it makes you happy,
darling I understand.
But honey I still wish,
that you were my man.

That part of my heart,
that single piece you hold.
It's wearing very thin,
and it's getting very cold.

I want to see you happy,
and if this is what I takes.
I'll walk away from you,
until the earth shakes.

I'll keep walking when,
the skies come crashing down.
Keep smiling outside,
when inside I'm wearing a frown.

We both have significant others,
and only time will tell.
But I never forget,
just how hard I fell.

You can all call it a lie,
call it jealousy.
But as much as my heart's breaking,
as long as he's happy.

I'll go on living life,
even with my doubts.
There will be moments when,
I just want to sit and pout.

But life moves on without us,
so I won't stand still for long.
It won't be too long till,
everything is long gone.
588 · Jan 2011
Life Out There
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
She grew up too fast,
that tiny little girl.
Forced to mature,
in this cold, cruel world.

Sh never let you see,
no, she never let you know.
What she missed out on,
when she had to grow.

Now she's searching,
for a better life somewhere.
She wants tender love,
sweetness and care.

These people in life,
do nothing but shatter.
They rip her apart,
break her heart which is tattered.

There's a blue sky, she knows,
somewhere out there.
And someone who's gotta,
who just has to care.

She's gonna escape,
out past the horizon there.
Find what she's missing,
in that life out there.
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
Forever wasn't a lie,
it just all fell apart.
I tried to mend the scars,
left on your broke heart.

But you pushed me far,
and you pushed me away.
Wouldn't let me express,
words I needed to say.

Whenever I asked,
you would say "Not now".
I want this to be fixed,
some way, some how.

If you would only listen,
to the words I need to say.
If you would come with me,
after work some day.

Walk down by the water,
yell if we need to.
Get it all out together,
even if I hate you.

By the end we have said,
all that needs to be said.
Everything will be out in the open,
everything will be meant.

I'm just tired of playing games,
running on a rollercoaster of lies.
I don't want you to leave,
to say a final goodbye.

I told you I would take,
if friendship was all you had.
But one minute it was okay,
the next you were mad.

I want the whole truth,
no more stone cold lies.
I want our friendship adn honesty,
no more awful goodbyes.

Because this isn't right,
and you can't just leave.
We're in this together,
you and me.

You've always been there,
my very best friend.
I won't walk away,
this can not be the end.

So swollow our prides,
let's sit down and talk.
Face to face for once,
by the water on a dock.

The only way to solve,
all that has been done.
The only way to win,
a battle that isn't won.

It will never be fixed,
by just walking away.
Time heals all wounds?
Well honey, not today.

We need to hear,
words left unsaid.
The truth behind it all,
everything that was meant.

Every last truth,
no more lies.
Without pushing away,
no more goodbyes.
582 · Aug 2010
Too Far Gone
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
I see what's going on,
I'm hidden behind the scene.
I wonder how my best friend,
and my ex could be so mean.

You tell me not the truth,
you sugarcoat with lies.
You come to me to be with me,
and spare me the goodbyes.

But what you say to her,
and what she's said to him.
Is going on behind my back,
it's nothing but a sin.

Why not be just honest?
why not tell the truth?
Please spare me some of the lies,
don't care about my mood.

No matter how I find out,
no matter how I hear.
It's gonna ruin my day,
make me cry awful tears.

Why not just tell the truth?
instead of awful lies.
Why did you come back,
after you once said goodbye.

Why did you play with my heart,
but deep back in your mind.
You were thinking of her,
this was anything but kind.

My heart is on the ground,
it's fallen from your hands.
I used to think I knew you,
but you're now a different man.

So I sit here in silence,
waiting for someone to tell.
What's been going on,
help me from where I fell.

Someone please be honest,
tell me what's going on.
I'm far from being sane now,
I am too far gone.

Apparently so are you,
and I will never get you back.
I sit here in silence, heartless,
with happiness I lack.
581 · Sep 2010
Back There
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
The waves hit the shoreline,
the breeze in my face.
There was not a single thing,
to make me leave this place.

Your eyes so gorgeous blue,
today they matched the sky.
Checking the clock every moment,
didn't wanna say goodbye.

The grass was soft below,
your touch smooth on me.
There was no other place,
that I would rather be.

Sitting there together,
I could talk with you for days.
You listen and understand,
I'm taggled in every way.

Taggled up in you,
your thoughts, your smell, your touch.
Never have I wanted something,
quite this much.

My day with you today,
well, nothing can compare.
I can't wait until,
the day that we're back there.
578 · Sep 2010
Outside Looking In
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
Here we are,
new year again.
Sitting at a table,
surrounded by friends.

I'm standing in a group,
listening to them speak.
I feel like if I spoke,
my voice would be only meak.

You and me,
we grew apart.
Him over there,
he broke my heart.

I'm trying to work through,
to keep a smile up.
But it's only for so long,
before your heart's had enough.

I make small talk,
hangout with friends.
But it's not too long,
before my conversation ends.

I'm staring at a window,
from the outside in.
I'm speaking, I'm screaming,
but I can not win.

The window pane white,
the glass so thick.
The sorrow around me,
is making me sick.

I'm tapping on the window,
I'm screaming so loud.
At the top of my lungs,
I'm begining to pound.

The outside looking in,
I see what's going on.
The happiness, smiles,
and things that are wrong.

But enough is enough,
I wanna tear it away.
Let's break down this window,
even if it takes days.
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
I could feel your presence,
behind my back.
Can you feel the esteem,
I surely lack?

My walls are breaking,
crumbling down.
You look at me,
with a mile deep frown.

This is what I feared,
I knew this would happen.
I reach for your hand,
my heart slowly blackens.

I can feel the bricks,
as they all come loose.
Unintentionaly you tie the rope,
tight in a noose.

It's pulling tighter, tighter,
as the song goes on.
The tears come down,
the emotions won.

I can feel it fall,
slowly down my cheek.
I'm silently crying,
you can't hear me weep.

I wonder if you feel it,
the subtle little pull.
That ache in my heart,
I want to let you know ...

My best friend beside me,
on the other side.
Squeezes my hand tightly,
she knows that I am crying.

But still I try silence,
and the song slowly goes on.
The emotions getting harder to fight,
this time they have won.

I've tried not to show,
you or her my hurt.
But the tears slowly fall,
they're landing on my shirt.

When it's time to get up,
in a circle we sway together.
I see you two toegether,
your arm draped around her.

It doesn't matter who I'm with,
doesn't matter what I say.
You'll always have a piece,
of my heart that aches always.

She comes to say she's sorry,
but what more can she do?
It's always gonna hurt,
because I truely loved you.

Those feelings fade,
but don't really go away.
They just get easier to bare,
but remain there always.

As I fall in love,
deep with someone knew.
There's always part of my heart,
that will be set on you.

Seeing you with her,
one of my best friends.
It pulls that noose tighter,
getting hard to breathe again.

I escape as fast as possible,
getting as far as I can away.
Never thought I'd want to leave,
but what more can I say?

I dart down the street,
sobs coming out loud.
My heart coming out of my chest,
oh so hard it pounds.

When I finally reach my steps,
I fall flat on my face.
I curl up on the bottom,
"Let me leave this place..."
575 · Oct 2010
Halloween Friends
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
Scarry goblins in the corners,
witches vampires and more.
Halloween is any girls' excuse,
to dress up like a *****.

But me and my friends? No,
we get together and chill.
We get a few to do our bidding,
stealing their candy is our thrill.

We sit around and laugh,
we poke fun at one another.
It's time to just be ourselves,
and time to laugh with eachother.

This Halloween was easily the best,
that I have ever had.
No one cried, everyone laughed,
and no one even got mad.

We just sat around and laughed,
we joked and we had fun.
These are my Halloween friends,
I hope we have more than this one.
574 · Oct 2010
No More Fears <3
Jolene Perron Oct 2010
The simple touch,
you arms on me.
A place like this,
I want to forever be.

We talked, we listened,
to each other's life story.
This new friendship,
unlike any before thee.

Your smile and dimples,
spread across your face.
You laughter and jokes,
make me never want to leave this place.

You walked me home,
straight to the door.
You held me close,
unlike before.

You leaned in close,
kissed my lips.
Your touch passionate,
hands on my hips.

"I just wanted to know,
what it would be like."
You told me as,
we ended the night.

I stood astonished,
as you left the scene.
Me emotions ran wild,
inside of me.

My eyes opened up,
I rolled over in bed.
Those last 4 stanzas,
were just in my head.

But all before that,
that lies in my heart.
When we're close together,
or farther apart.

And there's no other feeling,
like when you hold me tight.
My dear, that touch,
can get me through the night.

Your smile, your eyes,
our laughter and tears.
With you by my side,
I have no more fears...
573 · Aug 2010
Moments You Were Mine <3
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
Your eyes matched the sky,
bright and blue today.
This moment was just perfect,
in each and every way.

My mind is spinning,
in a hundred different ways.
I'm searching for all the words,
the right ones to say.

Your lips were on mine,
nothing could compare.
The way you looked at me,
your fingers in my hair.

My breath was stopping,
I felt I couldn't breathe.
All I knew was that,
I wanted you here with me.

Your hands upon my back,
running up and down.
I never wanted to go away,
never leave this town.

Your body so close,
feeling you against me.
This is everything I wanted,
everything we could be.

Your smile spreading wide,
across a familiar face.
I never wanted it to end,
didn't want to leave this place.

But I'm sure we'll back there,
I hope it's some time soon.
I silently sit and cry,
wishing upon a moon.

That feeling you gave me,
it was unlike any before.
You left me screaming at the stars,
baby, I want more.

You're everything I fell for,
way back when.
Everything I need now,
you're more than my good friend.

You've always had a place,
special in my heart.
Even when you left last year,
and we've been far apart.

I'll never forget the day,
I'll never forget this time.
The moments we spent together,
the moments you were mine.
570 · Aug 2010
One - Hundred
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
Clothes, Smiles, Frowns,
One Girl

Change, Grow Up, Maturity,
One Year

Friends, Work, School,
One Life

Home, House, Venting,
One Understanding

Mom, Uncle, Aunt,
One Family

Promises, Love, Laughs,
One Boyfriend

Lies, Goodbyes, Hurt,
*One Hundred Tears
566 · Aug 2010
Can You Hear Me?
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
You're all disappearing ...
                                                          Drifting...
                                                                                Leaving....

And I'm sitting here alone...
                                                           Watching....
                                                                                  Helpless....

You're walking away from me...
                                                          My best friend ....
                                                                                   Leaving...

This time you chose to walk away...
                                                          No more chances...
                                                                                   Leaving...

There's a fog and it's getting deeper...
                                                          You're disappearing...
                                                                                    You're going away...

I'm feel alone and I'm getting scared...
                                                           Save Me....
                                                                                     Help Me...

The blade is getting closer...
                                                            Take it...
                                                                                     Burry it...

The blood bleeds a scarlet red...
                                                             Feeling...
                                                                                      Feeling...

I can't stop this time...
                                                              This is it...
                                                                                       Final line...

The battle lines have been drawn...
                                                                 I'm fading...
                                                                                         I'm crying...


                                                                                                                I'm screaming...
                                                                                                            Can You Hear Me?
566 · Aug 2010
Don't You Realize?
Jolene Perron Aug 2010
She looks across a wide open sky,
makes a wish and begins to cry.
This day is coming to an end,
she waves goodbye to a departing friend.

He kisses her cheek,
he holds her close.
He tells her he wants her,
what he misses most...

She's walking now away from it all,
trips on the sidewalk, begins to fall.
She kneels there waiting for life to make sense,
trying to break down her very own fence.

The tears are coming,
rolling down her cheeks.
As she kneels on the sidewalk,
begining to weep.

The blood is dripping down her sorry face,
she's walking now at a much faster pace.
She's running away from all that she's known,
running away with no where to go.

Anywhere but here,
would be so much better.
Somewhere with sun,
and cooler weather.

The kids on the sidewalk are playing with cards,
she remembers her life back when it was not so hard.
When scraped up knees were the deepest wounds,
and bedtime came always way too soon.

She's wishing back then,
to go back in time.
When she was a child,
when everything was fine.

The sun is now setting down below the water ahead,
she's regretting her life and the words that were said.
Wishing for forgiveness is all she can do,
she screams at the top of her lungs, "DON'T YOU REALIZE I LOVE YOU?!"
565 · Dec 2010
Throwing It Away
Jolene Perron Dec 2010
Sometimes,
at least once a day,
I'd like to slap you across the face
Knock some sense into your brain
Maybe, just maybe
then you'll see
What you have some people would
DIE
for
And you're willing to just up
and throw all of it away
What is wrong with you ?
You have parents, married, together
you have a beautiful house
a father who works hard every day
to provide for you and give you the world
a mother who cooks and cleans
It's a home from the sixties
and don't you see?
They work hard each day so you don't have to
they have given you a list
a million and one
oppourtunities in this world
We may not agree with some things
there are some things wrong, yes
But when you stand back
and you look at all they've given you
given you out of love
why are you willing to just up
and throw it all away ?
When you look into any household
there's always problems
But yours, they don't compare
You have money saved to go to college
you can be anything you want to be
and not worry about spending any of your own money
They've provided it all for you
to live a happy healthy life
You're all set
But you're all set to leave
to throw it all away
Loving parents, still together,
a beautiful home,
oppourtunities we only wish to have
*Why?
564 · Jul 2010
A Friend's Advice
Jolene Perron Jul 2010
People of the night,
cowards of the day.
No matter who you are,
someone makes it okay.

Her deep dark past,
her scarry new future.
No matter what,
he will teach her:

"There are ups and downs,
wrongs and rights.
But I'm here for you,
to make it alright."

He speaks in song,
his words medolic and kind.
He's probably the best friend,
she will ever find.

"I don't have much,
to give you in turn.
But I'll give you my heart,
and I'll give you my word.

I'll be there for you,
I'll be your friend.
I'll stay with you,
till the very end."

He smiled big,
looked in her eyes.
It was nice to have,
someone to confide.

She reached up high,
wrapped her arms around him.
A friend who listens,
and a great guy within.
560 · Sep 2010
The Story
Jolene Perron Sep 2010
His smile makes her smile,
it makes her feel.
His guitar makes her relax,
a feeling so unreal.

Her laugh makes him happy,
her smile makes him soar.
This emptiness is filling,
she's everything and more.

There is a love stroy,
behind every cry.
There is a sob story,
behind every lie.

His hands beat her down,
there's blood on her floor.
She scrambles to her feet,
behind her locking the door.

She left the child on the doorstep,
with a note that merely read :
"Make sure you raise her well,
I can not keep her fed.."

There's pieces to the story,
a truth to every lie.
There's always someone there,
within whom to confide.

She's holding the blade,
resting it on her wrist.
He stops her from writing,
another story with a twist.

He's drinking that bottle,
to his head he knows.
She's dumping it down the drain,
her love is begining to show.

Every single story,
every single lie.
Each and every person,
every last goodbye.

There is always a reason,
though you may not see.
He is there for her,
you are there for me.

Read what is not written,
see between the lines.
When she says she's okay,
she is not fine.

Listen.
Understand.
There is a story,
here at hand...
557 · Jan 2011
Leave This Place
Jolene Perron Jan 2011
There's a girl I know,
and from the outside looking in.
She's got it all,
a job, a family and friends.

Her eyes pop,
her body with curves.
Some days she feels,
like she's on top of the world.

But did you know she falls,
and when she's alone, she cries.
In such a great life,
there isn't happiness to find.

She has all she wanted,
but still feels she's missing.
Something very important,
and no one is listening.

She loses herself,
in music each day.
As she floats to a world,
oh so far away.

But she can't figure out,
just what it is that's gone.
And she doesn't quite know,
just what is wrong.

But as the music grasps her,
and the lyrics unfold.
She thinks of a place,
as she hides from the cold.

A place so far,
very far away.
You go and be gone,
just any random day.

And she wants to go,
to leave this place.
To meet new people,
learn a new face.

Maybe that's what she needs,
is to just get a way.
For a week or two,
more than just a day.

Because something is missing,
you can see it in her face.
She needs to find something,
to get out of this place...
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