His smile makes her smile,
it makes her feel.
His guitar makes her relax,
a feeling so unreal.

Her laugh makes him happy,
her smile makes him soar.
This emptiness is filling,
she's everything and more.

There is a love stroy,
behind every cry.
There is a sob story,
behind every lie.

His hands beat her down,
there's blood on her floor.
She scrambles to her feet,
behind her locking the door.

She left the child on the doorstep,
with a note that merely read :
"Make sure you raise her well,
I can not keep her fed.."

There's pieces to the story,
a truth to every lie.
There's always someone there,
within whom to confide.

She's holding the blade,
resting it on her wrist.
He stops her from writing,
another story with a twist.

He's drinking that bottle,
to his head he knows.
She's dumping it down the drain,
her love is begining to show.

Every single story,
every single lie.
Each and every person,
every last goodbye.

There is always a reason,
though you may not see.
He is there for her,
you are there for me.

Read what is not written,
see between the lines.
When she says she's okay,
she is not fine.

Listen.
Understand.
There is a story,
here at hand...

Your eyes matched the sky,
bright and blue today.
This moment was just perfect,
in each and every way.

My mind is spinning,
in a hundred different ways.
I'm searching for all the words,
the right ones to say.

Your lips were on mine,
nothing could compare.
The way you looked at me,
your fingers in my hair.

My breath was stopping,
I felt I couldn't breathe.
All I knew was that,
I wanted you here with me.

Your hands upon my back,
running up and down.
I never wanted to go away,
never leave this town.

Your body so close,
feeling you against me.
This is everything I wanted,
everything we could be.

Your smile spreading wide,
across a familiar face.
I never wanted it to end,
didn't want to leave this place.

But I'm sure we'll back there,
I hope it's some time soon.
I silently sit and cry,
wishing upon a moon.

That feeling you gave me,
it was unlike any before.
You left me screaming at the stars,
baby, I want more.

You're everything I fell for,
way back when.
Everything I need now,
you're more than my good friend.

You've always had a place,
special in my heart.
Even when you left last year,
and we've been far apart.

I'll never forget the day,
I'll never forget this time.
The moments we spent together,
the moments you were mine.

Clothes, Smiles, Frowns,
One Girl

Change, Grow Up, Maturity,
One Year

Friends, Work, School,
One Life

Home, House, Venting,
One Understanding

Mom, Uncle, Aunt,
One Family

Promises, Love, Laughs,
One Boyfriend

Lies, Goodbyes, Hurt,
*One Hundred Tears

Dark as night,
bright as day.
Oh the things,
we throw away.

You know that ****?
thinks he's better than the rest.
Well deep down inside,
he's really just a mess.

There's that girl,
who passes without a try.
There's a girl with two jobs,
just trying to get by.

If only we saw,
if only we knew.
Who these people are,
the hell they go through.

That **** you know,
gets pressured every night.
His friends always ask,
"Hey man, you got a light?"

That girl in school,
who passes without a try.
Well did you know she hurts?
that every night she cries?

And the girl with two jobs,
has no time of her own.
Depressed to the core,
with the scars to show.

When you walk down the sreet,
what do you see.
Smiles upon faces,
masking the pain beneath.

If only we saw,
if only we knew.
Who these people are,
the hell they go through.

I'm sitting down here,
I'm sinking, falling, feeling.
I'm surrounded here,
but I feel lonely and concealing.

They don't understand,
this feeling, those thoughts.
They don't see me,
and how I'm getting lost.

It's hard to understand,
I know this to be true.
Not only have I gone through it,
but I saw it happen to you.

Sometimes when you're looking,
from the outside in.
You blame yourself for not realizing,
the hurt and anger within.

But when you're there,
in that situation at that time.
You don't understand your feelings,
how can they be mine?

I look back on these feelings,
on these times in life.
When all I felt was sadness,
the hurt and anger and strife.

And now I really know,
that all you can do is learn.
From the happiness, sadness,
each and every burn.

Life is filled with lessons,
anf here I raise my glass.
I proudly love me for me,
long time, at last.

"I'm tired of pretending,
I'm tired of having to lie.
I'm sick of being who I'm not,"
she says as she lays down to cry.

"I know you're tired,
and you feel like you're done.
But baby this isn't the end,
your life has merly just begun.

"You can't throw in the towel,
you've gotta keep your head high.
Be true and be yourself,
baby you don't have to cry."

He tilts her chin up,
and wipes her tears.
"Baby don't cry,
you got nothing to fear."

She smiles weakly,
as he smiles back.
He gives her support,
when it's confidence she lacks.

He's her knight,
in shining armour.
He keeps her grounded,
like a heavy anchor.

The sun shines bright,
as a new day begins.
For them to walk together,
the very best of friends.

"You have such a future,
lying straight ahead.
So together we'll start the journey,
get you're *** outta bed."

She smiles again,
a little more convincing now.
As he hoists her up,
and he'll never let her down.

There's a light in the end,
of the tunnel that's so long.
There's a break coming through,
in this depressing fog.

When your tower of cards,
falls to the ground.
Someone will start to rebuild,
everything lost is found.

When your heart is slowly turing,
to a deep and blackened hole.
When this life is not worth living,
hope is no more.

Just look for the end,
of the tunnel searching through.
I'm holding out my hands,
all I want is you.

I'm reaching up high,
to fix what was bent.
To apologize for words,
that were never truely meant.

I'm digging my way out,
of a thousand foot grave.
I'm picking myself up,
fixing the bed I made.

We're taking both the blame,
we're putting it all passed.
It's over and done with now,
sorrow's never meant to last.

Our battle is slowly ending,
we're coming out together.
We're starting to smile,
and dance in rainy weather.

I remember all the good times,
that we used to have.
Now we're getting that all back,
no longer we'll be mad.

We all make mistakes,
we all do stupid things.
But now it's time to fix,
to polish silver rings.

Time to make things shine,
repair our scarred hearts.
I'm sure we'll have more fights,
I miss you when we're apart.

But this friendship now,
will be stronger than before.
Our love honey,
it will be no more.

In the future maybe,
many years from now.
But we have a lot to do,
fixing things some how.

It's time we moved on,
but it's time we moved together.
I missed you on rainy days,
now let's dance through that weather.

I'm begining to see the light,
at the end of that tunnel.
I'm picking myself up,
from falling in a funnel.

We're walking out together,
we're working on just friends.
Forever still means forever,
we'll be friends untill the end.

Words leave our mouths,
the screaming never stopped.
We used the techniques,
for so long we've been taught.

Words amount to nothing,
true feelings never change.
It's been oh so long, honey,
that we have been this way.

The thought that crosses me,
runs through my mind today.
Can you even remember,
how we got this way?

I looked at you,
sitting behind me.
With our group of friends,
trying to see.

Trying to decifer,
the point to it all.
Why it can't be solved,
with a simple walk?

Can you even really see,
why we started this fight?
Where the anger came from?
along with hate and strife.

Why we started fighting,
what the purpose was behind it?
Did we ever really think,
something good would come of it?

Please try to remind me,
because I can't seem to see.
Why I'm mad at you,
and you're so angry with me.

This fight, so pointless,
I don't remember why.
This fight even began,
why we both began to lie.

Please just tell me,
because I've lost my sight.
Why ever did we start,
this prolonged, pointless fight?

She walks looking down
she walks with a twist
Her real self concealed
her real self doesn't exist

He walks like he owns them
he walks with self esteem
He puts on a face
he's who they want him to be

She works two jobs
she works herself to the bone
She's caring for a child
she's all on her own

He's in the family buisness
he's tired of it all
He wants to be his own person
he doesn't want to hide behind a wall

She's scared to tell her parents
she's terrified what they'll do
She sits with a razor blade
she cries over her passed and future  too

These people you see
we see them day to day
But we don't see the hurt
and suffering in every way

Six billion people roam this earth
day to day camoflauging reality
Six billion people scared to death
of who they can really be

When you see a person
what thoughts cross your mind?
There's a story to each
and a truth behind each lie

The waves twist,
and violently turn.
The wind blows,
through this unforgiving world.

The sky turns grey,
covering the blue.
Slowly becoming black,
and my heart is too.

I look out to sea,
wonder what I did wrong.
Was it ever meant to me?
were they right all along?

As much as we fight,
and as much as we try.
Nothing is working,
as I kneel down and cry.

The weather turns,
and it starts to rain.
The storm rolls in,
conquering the day.

The darkness takes over,
tearing the beauty apart.
Just as my cold darkness,
slowly conquers my heart.

Becoming something new,
someone you do not know.
I'm tired of hiding the pain,
it's time I let it show.

Maybe then you'll understand,
exactly what I feel.
Maybe then to you,
my emotions will be real.

Because lately,
it does not seem to matter.
How many times I repair,
my heart which is shattered.

They find a way,
to break it again.
And I hand it to him,
so he can try to mend.

But what else can I do,
when I feel like a storm.
Black and hateful,
trying to repair what is torn.

You throw me more,
than I can possibly handle.
And I'm giving up,
like a blown out candle.

You can say it's nothing,
that this is just a faise.
That I'll get over it,
in just a couple of days.

But I've been like this,
for some time now.
And I've tried to break out,
of this storm somehow.

But the storm goes on,
and the thunder crashes.
And the rain pours,
and the lightening flashes.

As I try once more,
to mend my tattered heart.
But it's hard to do,
when it keeps falling apart.

It's broken for reasons,
which are difficulf to express.
And I'm breaking down,
over this stupid mess.

But they're gone forever,
for no reason at all.
And here I lay,
with no one to break my fall...

So the storm rolls on,
taking over my world.
As I cry waiting,
for someone to return.

To save me from this,
the storm inside of me.
To help me overcome,
and return to the old me.

Hands shaking,
face burning,
vision bluring,
this is what I feel.

Pulse beating,
uncontrolable feelings,
frown setting,
this is what I feel.

Questions racing,
thoughts overwhelming,
confusing setting,
this is what I feel.

Fifty feet,
red face,
tears pouring,
this is what I'm doing.

Curled up,
with a blanket,
ripping pictures,
this is what I'm doing.

I hope you know,
I hope you see,
I hope you understand,
this is how I feel.

I'M DONE WITH YOU
I'M DONE WITH FEELING
**I'M JUST DONE

In a world that is unfair,
in a life that makes no sense.
You are there for me,
you broke down my fence.

I let you inside,
with some fear.
But you proved me right,
so thankyou dear.

It's quite unusual,
for me to say.
But I trust you lots,
don't lead me astray.

You're there for me,
I'm here for you.
Thankyou BJ,
and I'll always love youu.

The scars the pain,
the blood I shed.
The hurt the confusion,
you can not mend.

The darkened streets,
I walks alone.
The yelling the torture,
I can't just go home.

A joker a Queen,
any other card.
Deal me a different one,
this one's taken me too far.

The burning the heat,
it's too much to take.
The frown's getting deeper,
a smile I can not fake.

It echos it's loud,
that voice in my ear.
The night he told me,
'Don't worry dear...

I'm here for you,
you can trust me.
you have nothing to fear,
when you're with me'

The touching the violence,
oh please make it stop!
I can't squirm or wiggle out,
someone call a cop!

I scream and cry,
I leave the scene.
The **** the torture,
it will never leave me.

The words of men,
forever echo loud.
They always leave me alone,
for someone else to be found.

The last time I trusted,
it was forever lost.
I loved him with all I had,
at a painful cost.

For he left me alone,
lied to me without truth.
Believed anothers words,
without any real proof.

The blade it sliced,
my skin I tear.
The blood is dripping,
covers the clothes I wear...

I've kept my mouth shut,
haven't said what's on my mind.
The words that want to come,
well, sweetie, they aren't kind.

I've analyzed it all,
sat down with friends.
I know it better than anyone,
I see how this will end.

I've been there through it all,
every last goodbye.
You watched him destroy me,
you watched him make me cry.

But you didn't see when,
he called me on the phone.
Asked if I was upset,
because I was the one alone.

Threw it in my face,
that he'd kissed another girl.
When honestly I didn't care,
but he made my head whurl.

You weren't there to hear,
him call ******* on me.
He told me I was nothing but a *****,
and that was all I'd ever be.

You weren't there to see,
me throw water in his face.
I haven't said but two words,
because this is not my place.

I wish somehow you'd ask,
come talk like we used to.
You watched me cry a lot,
I always confided in you.

But I feel like there's a wall,
it's hard and brick and standing.
Keeping me away from you,
left me alone comprehending.

All that's going on,
everything and more.
The times he called me fat,
that I was nothing but a *****...

And what he called ******* on,
honey you would fly.
I was still at work,
and I just wanted to cry.

I wish I could tell you this,
everything and more.
But now I don't know what to say,
and I just can't be sure.

Honey can't you see?
all he's done here.
Made me and others cry,
hard sobbing tears.

He was in love with someone,
he felt head over heels.
Claimed he'd never felt that way,
and it just didn't seem real.

Then he went for you,
immedeately to follow.
Where did those feelings go?
because they surely were not hollow.

This is all a game to him,
and it will be nothing more.
He was "In Love" now he's with you,
and I'm the ******* *****?

Sunshine, rain,
winter snowfall.
Hail, ice,
she's been through it all.

Grades, marks,
a fifty in math.
Pencils, pens,
school makes her laugh.

But one thing,
it makes her shake.
Her head spins,
her heart aches.

When she thinks back,
to that moment in time.
She's written poems,
she's made them rhyme.

But when it comes,
all finally together.
It's worse than school,
or stormy weather.

When the callendar rolls,
February 18.
She clenches her fists,
she grindes her teeth.

The memories invade,
her dreams and her head.
The silences screams,
will it ever end?

The nightmares and violence,
she can't make it stop.
Her heart pounds,
her blood boils hot.

"Just don't touch me,"
is what she'll say.
The touch of anyone,
will set her off today.

The memories won't leave,
but the pain gets less.
She's pushing through it all,
cleaning up that mess...

This place, this house,
the feelings inside.
It holds an emptiness,
they can not hide.

The lonliness and feelings,
they feel out there.
The feelings at home,
that can not compare.

"It just feels right,
it feels like home."
He has the tears,
the hurt he's shown.

But nothing is here,
no job, no work.
It's too much pain,
for the happiness it's worth.

When they come to visit,
it's warm and right.
No cold, no sadness,
to leave is a fight.

Wherever they go,
and whatever they do.
This is home,
this is the truth.

Merely half an hour,
the clock is counting down.
Please help me to smile,
get rid of this frown.

This year I wanna make,
the best of what I've got.
I'm tired of waiting for you,
and being who I'm not.

It's time to look up,
and see the world around.
Instead of looking down,
and staring at the ground.

Baby this year,
it's gonna be the best.
Boy without you,
I'm cleaning up the mess.

I'm tired of being stabbed,
in the back all the time.
People torturing my heart,
here's some news : it's mine.

The past sixteen years,
no, they haven't been the best.
But I'm turning a new leaf,
and cleaning up the mess.

I want to be happy,
truely for a while.
To feel that I could fly,
or run for 100 miles.

All I ask from you,
each one of my friends.
Is give this new me a chance,
don't let it be the end.

I want to be someone,
who I burried far away.
This sixteenth year,
she will see the light of day.

She's hidden below the surface,
but don't you understand?
She was only there because,
of all the hatefull men.

I'm getting to know me,
what's truely honestly there.
The reasons for my actions,
truth behind every tear.

I'm entering the world,
with some new plans.
I'm learning about myself,
savouring every moment I can.

This year is about me,
the one who truely matters.
It's about mending my heart,
fixing every shatter.

So for this sixteen year,
my wish remains the same.
But this is a new girl,
with a brand new game.

The moon shone down,
illuminating the night.
I wrestle with you,
I pick up a fight.

We laugh and giggle,
making a scene.
Everyone jokes,
no words that are mean.

I break away from you,
to see a message from him.
I see the hurt in your eyes,
the anger within.

We break away,
from the group over there.
Go for a walk,
around back somewhere.

When I ask what's wrong,
you make a face.
You say it's hard,
and you made a mistake.

You left back then,
so long ago.
For another girl,
who did not show.

Now you're realizing it all,
but it's too late.
I've fallen for him,
he is my fate.

Your blue eyes glisten,
in the bright moon light.
I give you a hug,
warming you 'till sunlight.

I promise, dear friend,
it will be alright.
People come and go,
with grace and with fight.

I promise you dear,
I will not leave.
Not here, not ever,
my best friend you'll be <3

He tells me he loves me,
and then he turns away.
He holds her in his arms,
another time today.

I tell him if he thinks,
that he loves me still.
Why is he with her?
is she only time to ****?

Boys, boys, boys,
they're nothing but crazy.
Sometimes I'm confused,
I'm left feeling hazy.

I'm screaming, I'm crying,
I need someone to help me now.
Pick me up, I've fallen,
I'm laying on the ground.

This life, those twists,
so hard and uncontrolled.
I'm only sixteen and yet,
I'm feeling oh so old.

This life, it takes,
and never seems to give.
They tell us to take control,
this is our life to live.

Well, he's listening to others,
telling him it's right.
While he's sitting there confused,
he cries throughout the night.

I'm laying in bed,
staring at the white above.
A blank canvas, they say,
to paint what you're dreaming of.

But how can we sort out,
this life that makes no sense.
And walk down each path,
that has a high fence.

I'm sixteen and yet,
I'm confused and sitting still.
Please point out the right path,
and help me if you will ...

"A wise friend once told me, Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about dancing in the rain. I dedicate this poem to that friend...they were my inspiration"

Why waste time waiting for the storm to pass?
Spending all your days sulking on your ***.
Go outside and dance in the rain.
There's no better way to forget the pain.

Find the silver lining as it flys across your sky.
Even if all you want to do is lay in bed and cry.
Make the best of your life for now.
Because it will get better some way some how.

Even if we have to wait and be alone for a year.
We'll make it out together hand in hand without fear.
Because in the end this storm will pass.
So dance in the rain and I'll help you off your ***.

Soaking wet we'll walk away from all the rain.
Together we will help heal all of the pain...

Her skirt's too short,
his pants too tight.
She never smiles,
he's forced to fight.

He lost his job,
her baby's on the way.
He's doing the drugs,
her grades aren't okay.

Six billion people,
all around the world.
Some forced to fight,
some boy some girl.

Everyone's story,
everyone's life.
Six billion people,
alone tonight.

You think it's rough,
gotta ace that test.
What about the girl,
with the pregnancy test?

How about the guy,
who lost his job.
With a wife and kids,
who can't go home.

How about the guy,
the one who's forced to fight.
Otherwise he might,
not make it through the night.

How about the girl,
the one who never smiles.
She's beaten and bruised,
been running for miles.

These people you see,
all have something the same.
These people in the world,
they are not ashamed.

For everyone has someone,
no matter who they are.
They make you feel safe,
they heal your scars.

Six billion people,
all you need is one.
Six billion people,
six billion to one...

Hidden feelings,
hidden thoughts.
The suicide,
never forgot.

Help me,
help you,
All I am,
is everything in you.

I'm scared for you,
you're everything to me.
I can't lose you,
can't set you free.

Stay by my side,
please do not go.
It's been so long,
since I had a smile to show.

I'll sit with you,
from twilight 'till dawn.
I'll stay with you,
'till you battle is won.

I can see it,
hidden in your eyes.
The hurt and betrayal,
that you try to hide.

But I see the truth,
stop trying to hide.
I understand,
and I do not mind.

Talk to me sweets,
I'm always here.
I'll fight your demons,
I'll dry your tears.

I know all this,
I feel it too.
Listen to me,
help me help you.

I understand,
just tell me it all.
I'm here for you,
I'll catch you when you fall...

The rose has bloomed,
it seemed like so long.
It was wilted and crushed,
and it was all wrong.

The tree is blossoming,
the flowers are new.
This is another chance,
for a shot at me and you.

The concrete with cracks,
is getting it's fix.
We're taking away fighting,
putting friendship in the mix.

The bird with a wing,
broken and torn.
The girl with a smile,
that has been worn.

The bird begins to fly,
the girl begins to smile.
The tunnel at an end,
she's walked through for miles.

Things that are broken,
can always be made new.
This is a fresh begining,
this friendship here with you.

This time we'll take it,
nice steady and slow.
Three, Two, One,
here we go...

The clouds hang low,
signaling rain.
But the rain holds off,
just like yesterday.

I miss you still,
and I wait for word.
But nothing has changed,
not that I've heard.

You're still on the edge,
of life and death.
Making what's best,
of the time you have left.

I don't want you gone,
but it's for the best in the end.
Because when it's over,
you'll never have pain again.

God will take it away,
along with all of you.
I'll have to go in life,
living without you.

But I'll know forever,
that you'll be watching over me.
And I can remember,
all our memories.

The clouds getting darker,
signaling rain.
Doesn't look very pleasent,
looks like lots of pain.

God is watching over you,
he knows how you've fought.
He knows all your troubles,
he knows all you've taught.

He knows the pain,
the suffering you've felt.
That's why he's taking you,
and the pain you have left.

So acceptance is hard,
losing the one you love.
But I know you'll watch,
in the floors of heaven above.

You're taking it as it comes,
everything that's thrown.
Remember we're here,
you're never on your own.

We'll be there till the end,
when the last breath is drawn.
The darkness comes in,
when your battle is finally won.

The final battle,
the final bullet shot.
The end is nearing,
after all you've fought.

You can go in peace,
knowing you did your best.
And the final battle ends,
with the soldiers at rest...

She walks on a road of twists,
the turns going every which way.
She makes choices and decisions,
anything but easy days.

But the days are becoming simplier,
a little happier too.
With someone who comforts her,
a boy who calls her boo.

He stands by her side,
a very best friend.
He lets her know this is not,
and will never be the end.

When everyone else is yelling,
he helps her stand tall.
They're all cheering, baby,
fall, *****, fall.

But he holds her close,
he kisses her lips.
He's holding her up high,
his hands on her hips.

They're soaring through the wind,
no matter how far apart.
They're always near to eachother,
close within the heart.

The cancer spreads,
it will not stop.
The treatments won't work,
after all you've fought...

But don't give in,
I need you here.
God can't take you,
it's all that I fear.

Alone I cry,
over all this stress.
Lately my life,
is just one big mess.

The jerks at school,
the exams I cram.
But what's the use,
when I'm alone again.

My thoughts torture,
my fears ****.
I don't want to cry,
but I do against my will.

I feel so useless,
there's nothing I can do.
I can't make you better,
can't cure you.

I feel selfish,
I know you're suffering again.
But I promise you,
I'll be with you till the end.

I'll make the best,
of every moment I have
And I'll treat every minute,
like it is our last.

'Cause if I've learned anything,
it's like can change.
Without any warning,
everything will rearrange.

I love you mime,
you're everything to me.
You've taught me lots,
changed how I see.

So, they say this cancer,
it'll be your death.
But I'll make sure you're happy,
with the time you have left.

And when the end is close,
I'll be very near.
Holding your hand,
with you shedding tears.

I love you,
and I'll always remember.
Your bright blue eyes,
in the stormy weather.

Cause when you're gone,
on rainy days,
I know that it's you,
saying you're there always.

Time goes on,
and things change.
Feelings grow,
and feelings fade.

The rose in bloom,
is dying now.
He's praying they'll make it,
some way, some how.

Time goes on,
she's fading away.
He's longing for words,
he wishes she would say.

His eyes are faded,
the shine disappeared.
I can see the sadness,
the everlasting fears.

Everything happens,
for a reason I swear.
Our heartstrings are pulled,
and sometimes tear.

Just look for the one,
with a needle and thread.
Who can mend your heart,
be there till the end.

The one who loves you,
with open arms.
Who cares for you,
inflicts no harm.

I promise you I'll try,
to light up your life.
To cherish you endlessly,
to get rid of the strife.

I promise you,
that I will try.
To cure your rose,
so it does not die.

No matter what happens,
I'll stand up with you forever.
I promise you, hunny,
we'll make it through together.

I just wanna be held.
know it'll be okay.
Tell me that you're here,
and will love me always.

Hold me in your arms,
all through the night.
In your security,
I feel I'll be alright.

With so much going wrong,
my entire life and more.
You're the only thing,
I have to live for.

When life brings me down,
you bring me up.
You make me smile,
when I've had enough.

Like the calm within my storm,
my one and only reason.
You give me light and laughter,
for my dark there is no reason.

You never stop believing,
you never let go.
Like a never ending tunnel,
with all the love you show.

You give me everything,
that I need and more.
You're like an angel,
I've always wished for.

My love and my heart,
my laughter too.
All hidden in one place,
babe, it's you.

I really want to know,
the other half of me.
The side of which unknown,
who I'm meant to be.

The man you left before,
over 16 years ago.
The man that I wish,
to truely come to know.

There is a side of me,
I do not know.
It's dark and cloudy,
made 16 years ago.

Without this other man,
I will never come to know.
The other side of me,
that can not ever show.

My brown eyes and hair,
I know I got from you.
But my body and my nose,
look nothing like yours do.

Attributes about me,
some do not make sense.
Why is he not here?
who put up that fence?

I only wish to find out,
who brought me to the world.
The man who helped create,
this beautiful little girl.

I'm not so little now,
I'm about to turn 16.
Can you imagine how he'll feel?
how he's missed out on me?

Does he even know I'm here?
does he know that I exist?
If he did, I wonder,
if my smile he did miss.

I want to know the man,
who made half of me.
Who he was and is,
who I'm meant to be.

One final breath,
and you're gone.
This is it,
your battle is won.

Now you sit,
above with God.
Watching us cry,
knowing you're gone.

You fought well,
long and hard.
You didn't complain,
that He delt you this card.

The soldiers are home,
at ease and rest.
You did all you could,
you tried your best.

I'll remember you,
I promise, forever.
I'll think of you,
in the stormy weather.

For I'll know it's you,
when the sky let's way.
I'll know you're saying,
you're here always...

Music, books,
electronic things.
You make me smile,
and my happiness sing.

Your hugs so warm,
your eyes so bright.
On my bad days,
you tell me "Hunny, it's alright"

It feels like I've known you,
for what seems like forever.
You took a young girl,
and you continue to help her.

It scares me to think,
how close we have gotten.
In such a short time,
my unhappiness forgotten.

I don't know how you do,
what is it is you do to me.
But honey, please,
promise you won't leave.

It's been quite a while,
since I've had a friendship like this.
You're everything I dreamed of,
everything I missed.

I watch your eyes shine,
I hear your voice sing.
I see the clothes you wear,
and I admire your ring.

Everything about you,
intricate and amazing.
What I am when I'm with you,
there's never been such a thing.

I guess all I'm trying to say,
is I'm glad to have you there.
To hug me all the time,
I've found someone who cares. <3

There's no time like the present,
no future in your past.
No telling what life might bring,
is this moment your last?

Life is not a promise,
it is merely a gift.
What you have no control of,
and things may suddenly shift.

The memories will stay forever,
the storms will pass.
As long as you live every moment,
as if it is your last.

The sky fades to black,
the end of the day.
Another day without you,
one more time to say.

I love you,
and I miss you so.
Remember your promise,
that you will never go.

I stars twinkle,
they shine so bright.
As I pout in my room,
continuing this fight.

To win back the right,
for us to be friends.
To make sure,
the tears will end.

Because this fued,
it's pointless you see.
That we're forbidden,
to be together him and me.

A star flies across,
a night blue sky.
As I make a wish,
and begin to cry.

I wish real hard,
and hope with my heart.
It won't be much longer,
that we are apart.

The distance kills me,
but I know in m heart.
We see the same stars,
when we are apart.

And the night holds us,
keeps us together.
Like an umbrella,
from the stormy weather.

So hang on tight,
we're in for a ride.
But be sure to stay true,
keep me in mind.

I look up into the night,
whispering to the stars.
"Please remember,
I'm always in your heart..."

When you push I pull,
when you walk I run.
In fear of being lost,
of being the only one.

I never want to lose,
all I've come to know.
I'll do whatever it takes,
so that you will not go.

Tell me what you need,
there's nothing I won't try.
To keep you from leaving,
so that we will not cry.

This is all I've feared,
for you are all I know.
I'll do whatever it takes,
so that you will not go.

I love you with all I have,
even as a friend is enough.
I need you to hold me,
when things get really rough.

No matter what,
we can make it through together.
Like we used to be,
best friends forever.

Have I told you lately that I love you?
Do you even know how I feel?
Have I told you lately that I need you?
Do you even realize this is real?

I'm really quite sorry,
for all the ways that I've been acting.
And at this moment in time,
I need to ask for some understanding.

Allow me to explain myself,
the many reasons for why.
All I want lately,
is just to lay down and cry.

I've been a basket case,
and you already know.
But the last thing I'd ever want,
is for you to go.

Please know and understand,
this is hard for me.
My life in shambles I need you here,
I need to hear you love me.

More often now than I ever did,
I need to hear how you feel.
But please forget the lies,
let me know what's really real.

The face you hide beneath,
that face I used to know.
Don't you remember talking for hours?
where did that man go?

The one who called me baby,
sweetheart honey and love.
I'd give anything I could,
I ask the Lord above.

I love you sweetheart,
and that will never change.
With all the many things changing,
my love will never stray.

There is a point,
when we must let go.
I've tried my best,
to let you know.

I've done what I could,
I was honest when asked.
I hope your future,
is unlike my past.

I hope you help,
him heal to the full.
I hope when he pushes,
that you'll always pull.

That you won't give up,
like we did before.
You won't end up like me,
regretably torn.

I know you understand,
you're honest with me.
You know there's a lot,
I have yet to tell he.

It will come in time,
with friendship I hope.
But telling him now,
will not help me cope.

You understand when,
I told you all I thought.
Everything you asked,
as my cheeks turned hot.

My hands would shake,
the lump in my throat.
It would be harder with him,
I want to let him know ...

But sometimes things,
they just need time.
So I sit here in silence,
with thoughts that are  mine..

Maybe there's silent satisfaction,
in the way you look at me.
Maybe I think of all the ways,
I'd like to look and be.

Maybe I'd like to be by your side,
and you to never leave.
Maybe I'd like to be alone,
and for now be just me.

Maybe I don't like the darkness,
and I won't dare go in.
Maybe I'll stand with you alone,
and defeat the darkness within.

Maybe all I need is someone,
to be with me always.
Maybe I need to have a someone,
to tell me always.

Maybe I need to be told,
you'll never be alone.
Maybe as long as you're with me,
I won't be on my own.

Maybe I like the look in your eyes,
how they turn bright green.
Maybe I look deep into them,
and I see a better me.

Maybe I like the feeling in your arms,
the deepest security there could be.
Maybe I like to kiss your lips,
and let those feelings overwhelm me.

Maybe I love the way you can see,
exactly how I feel.
Maybe I love the feeling you give,
when it's my heart you steal.

Maybe, just maybe, I need you,
To be by my side.
Maybe, just maybe, I wanna hear,
baby, you'll always be mine.

This is how a heart breaks,
this is how my soul aches.
With every step, with every beat,
I'm wishing you were close to me.

Baby you're so far away,
and I can't take another day.
I count your steps as you walk from me,
but in my heart you'll always be.

And when the sun sets below,
I just want you to know.
I miss you and I need you back,
and without you I'm outta whack.

So give me a hug and hold me close,
you're the one I need the most.
When you're not here I cry so much,
and I'm always longing for your warm touch.

Baby I need you by my side,
I need your help and I need your guide.
But when I'm crying, alone and sad,
I hear you voice telling me 'don't be mad'.

I hear you voice and feel your touch,
and I begin to miss you so much.
I'm looking forward to a time when we can be near,
to living a life with you minus the fear.

And I hear you tell me, 'Though we're apart,
No need to worry and this was never your fault.'
I hang onto your words everyday.
as I miss you in every way...

Music fills the house as tears fill her eyes,
she can't take many more of all these g'byes.
Broken promises and millions of lies,
a kiss on the cheek and one final goodbye.
She's kept it all together and stayed full of will,
but honey she's just falling even farther down that hill.
Her mother's abuse and her friends cruel words,
with no one to confide and no where to turn.
She wears the scars like the bruises on her ego,
she can't remember when it started for it was so long ago.

Years from now with a husband and kids,
they'll be playing outside and see what she hid.
The scars on her wrists the pain in her eyes,
they'll ask where it came from who caused it and why.
With no answer she'll simply brush them off,
with a broken heart for lying and remembering...
why she tried but never forgot...