Scars heal
Wet as seals
My ligament's steal
Your fingers
Inside me.

I'm a girl
Who likes
To make
               A
Man
       Think
Twice.

Good turns had
Had turns used
And the young
Get abused
When
Will
A
N
Y
O
N
E
Stop the ****
And murders
Of young
Innocent
School learner's.
Is our place really that disgusting.
Yes we should forgive all things
Not me to judge.
But can I still say its still disgusting
Sick they are
Sick at the beginning
They already were
I guess not being brought up with compassion really made them
Bad bad
Rotten Apple's.
Though of course,
Bads always existed in the world.

Sometimes I'm hot
Sometimes
Cold.
Sometimes an angel
Sometimes evil and bold.
Sometimes I listen
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes
Someday
Some hour
Your way
I just might
Give
In.

Like hound dogs
The press
Always constricts
Their own
Crushing poet
Bones
In the
P
R
O
Cess.

If you are going to let me fall
Have the *****
At least
To pick me
Back
     P...
U

As a habit
I'm more in tuned
To the habits
That I tune
And when I tune
Into the universe
I write these writes
On this site
To bring back a sense of
T
O
G
E
T
H
E
R
N
E
S
S.
Why has that word dissapeared?
By difference and fear,
Ignorance is bliss they do say.

I am so much
Better
Without
Your
D
O
W
N
F
A
L
L
.

This is my story
An arrival
Of the fittest.
Strife I have learned
Steam's and burn's
The innocent ones
No content.
If I will have to do things
The hard way.
Perhaps I must.
Simplified
D
O
W
N
To words I'll die
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust.

Put my heart on a platter
Climb down my spine on
A heartbroken ladder,
Does it matter
If my head gets battered.
All that chatter
Just illness and matter.
I take nothing serious
Since you showed me nothing
Though I will be something
Oh, baby, I will be something.

Mother is on the move
Today
Mother is making new choices
Today
Mother is cherishing her
Daughter today
Mother is being mother
Something men take for granted
Today I'm being mother
Not some stage act
Or stage map.
Mothers work
Not needing a job
We choose to work
For our daughters
And families
We are mother's,
We are something not just part of man's extra ribs.
We are mothers:
I'm part of something big.

good morning little daughter
good morning mother earth.
Good morning city water.
I will swig your hissing turf.
Good morning shade of grey
start the page
a better way.
Good morning
morning.
And a good morning from my ballerina.
A sweet morning for a grown
and young latina.

My dulce kisses like poison baby
Don't dare come around wanting milk
When I have nothing but
Sweet pollen
And I'll ****** you quick
With it.

I wanna be
On fantasy island.
Where my man is wiling
Crazy, not confining.
I'm not one to be trapped.
I'm a bird I'll snap
Let me skadaddle fast
Where a bird should be.
I'm not caged
Not an animal babe.
I'm me.
I'm
F
R
E
E

So let me
M
I
S
B
E
H
A
V
E.

A mother's gift

Her daughter's

smile.

Monsters make us better
Children give us wrinkles
And smiles as well.
Monsters make us monsters to,
Monsters make us human
The best of me and you.
Monsters of women
And men
I cannot
Pretend,
Now I'm not a monster
Because my daughter said I'm a ballerina like her
And ballerinas can jump high.
So maby
I will jump over
The past
Present
And future.
And jump over all the
M
O
N
S
T
E
R
S.
To make me the better human being I need to be.
For me
And for my little
B
     A
      L
L
E
R
     I
  N
A.

As a caterpillar transforms
So will I break free from this isolation box
I will break the cocoon of my past
Transformation complete,
Now I'm
M
     O
          R
       E
T
   H
      A
    N
B
      E
              A
                   T
              I
           F
        U
      L.

See?

Mano a mano
I will help, secure, and respect you.
Mano a mano
Don't knock me down
I won't hurt you.
Mano a mano
Pompous were your hands reaching up
Your pride got you, did it fill that prideful cup.
Mano a mano
You grew up a chicano
Went from man to boy.
Mano a mano
You kept saying pronto
I'm not your debutante rich ***, I'm low class, with a poor home.
Mano a mano
You still haven't grown up
Will you sincerely love me, its a must.
I need
I
T

N
    O
W.

Mano a mano
I d o
N t
Think
You
Can
Handle
M
E..

Magnolia White's are my favorite
To grow from the old city
It shows me my own tenderness
Growing in the nectar gritty.
I don't want pity
But to grow old with you
Make me brand new
Hermoso Osito
Make me ready
Handle me I'll give you all
Catch my ripples
As effects will Rob
Our calm and quiet
Shaking for all.
Wake me teddy bear
Wake me from my night
T
E
R
R
O
R.

Childish he acted
When I showed him my terror
The terror he gave me
The beast, and player.
I died in footsteps
Quietly I crept
Mouth bludgeoned by his fists
And his false precept.
Picked myself up
In the cool of blank stare,
He rattled me again
The new scars from past:
couldn't compare.
How he dare?
I questioned his sanity
Though knew a demon took him long ago
It was his hand who made him be.
Though forgiveness was key
The best to overcome that mirage
Safety wasn't far away,
I skidded out by car
From the garage.

i tend to make my decisions
on past mistakes.

Morning glory
Sweet definition.
Raindrop's to candyfloss
Window's closed, new extension.
A record to keep
My smiles and laugh's.
A heart that mourns
When past day's are torn
Flesh to freshly cut grass.
A new cycle
To spin me through
Though I will be
Clean
I'll be brand new.

There's better in me
Now that I left
My daughters better
And away from stress
Am I doing
My best,
Si si I
Am doing much better
Without you around
I hope you
Get that dream home you always sought.
As for me
I'm better off.

Handle me.
Can you.
Abandoned me.
Dumb you.
Play mind games.
Its ok.
He fixed your mess when you did not stay. .

Fragile
I
F
A
L
L
Empty
I
S
T
A
L
L.
Dreamy
I don't
Kn
Ow,
Just another magnetic
T
Um
B
L
I
N
G
    D
       O
     W
   N.

I just want to say to you I forgive you for all that you have done
                                                  And
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I  n g       S.
Y             T o h
R          O.       O
T      P.     D   L
Me
B
A
C
K!

Feast on my viscera
You have done it before
Ripped out my heart
Tore it apart,
Throw me to the floor.
You beater
Abuser
Accuser
Robber
Thief
Stealer
L
I
A
R...
What is wrong,
To m
    u
  C
H

To t
     A
     K
      E
Like
You
Did
Me!
I've already forgiven you
No
Need
To
B
E
G

Please!

The snake
N
E
V
E
R
  Bites
O
F
F
M
   O
     R
       E
T
H
En it
C
A n
Ch
Ew.

You said you like S

                                 L
               U
                            T
      
        S.

I am glad I'm
N
O
T

What
Y
   O
U

W
   A
N
   T.

My cuts are inevitable
When you come around.

Make a wish
And make it twice
Have I been
The naughty, or nice.
I need a life
I want a life
Spicy, dicey, over the top
I don't want Normal
Normal is shot.
I want different
Something of new
Something not here
I wanted you
But you aren't you
No more!
I am you
Taking your dagger
Taking your swag
You climbed up my throat
Came out into a bag
Your sickness kills me
Downs me in liquor
They say liquor is quicker
But seems your pains injection
Hits fast.

memories
i keep in old mexican scrapbooks.

A basket case
I have become
My lips tingle
My legs go numb
I want a man
To overcome
With me the past
Of times lost
Not won.
So now my era
Comes and goes
I want a friend
And a man who knows
My touch is sweet
The sheets moan
For someone
Real
For someone
To be
My home.

Was I
Your doll
Or was I your ****
Was I some mistress
Someone to be your front
Was I anyone,
Who were you even!
You tried me
Lied to me
In you I'm not
Believing.
Deceiving,
*****
Scoundrel
Round me your square girl
I'm not some number
This isn't college
This isn't any knowledge
Of any
Real
Man
I
  K
     N
          O
              W!

Defying talk of cheap
corroboration
They have none to sweep.
Mounds of memories
Overdosed to last thought
Again defying my language
Your talk is cheap you bought.
So buy it somewhere else
I'm making a new life,
Defy me, I'll defy you
I'll live for me,
You can die for you.

Slip into
My arms
And you
Will find
Destiny
In time
With me
But I
Have not
Met you
Yet
So I won't
Spend
My time
Wasting
My life
Away on
Searching
For what?
Rehearsing
For what?
Remorsing
For what?
I'll do
What I
Got to
Do
To find a dream
Man
Who's dreamy
And like me
Who's true.

Surrender to me
Man of my sleep
Surrender to me
My hand will you keep.
Surrender to me
Surrender a kiss
Surrender to me
You man of fists
Surrender to me
No need to fight
Come surrender to me
Take me tonight .

I will get
A solid rest
I'm very dumb
I must confess
For loving you
I did my best
I'm the bigger
Idiot
Who came undressed
You seduced me
With lemonade
And charm
But now these veins
They die with harm
I'm not yours
No more little man
I'm simply me
A better plan
So look forward
To what you'll taste
You had a good girl
You made me waste.

Any man can
Turn a woman on
Like some lightbulb in
The heat.
But I don't want turned on
I want full
Loving
Satisfaction.
Another thing
I'm not a lightbulb,
Stop trying
To turn me on.

I don't wear high heel boots for
No reason
I wear them
Just in case
Another man
Tries to b
                 R I
                 N g
       M
        E
D
O
W
N.
.
.
.
.

The life
Taken out of me.
Take your dagger
Out of me please.
You smell,
Of liquor and smoke
On your kisses
I once choked
No more
I'm not your *****
I'm not your girl.
Don't call me your one
I'm me, and I'll be leaving soon
So sit aside
And you go cry
In daddy's room:
Tear a piece
Of my hair
Keep it packaged
I do not care
I'm sick
Of the abuse
But one thing
Goodbye
I always loved you
I always tried
I always cried
This is my
Forgiving you.

I love the moth
Who comes by my window, he sleeps with me at night

Rest's under my sweet pillow.

I leave the window open
So he can fly on in.
  

I hope he comes back soon
He's become a good dear friend.

If you want to call me a pretender
How about
You
Stop.   A
               C
              T
            I
          N
      G
T
O.

Inside of
This little girls hub
I keep all of memories
From the lies, pain and loves.
I've met bear's lions and cub's.
Some turned out to be masked wolves.
They bite and they rip with their ferocious of teeth
They swallow their own spit, as for others they can't believe.
But yes I see
Yes I see
Straight through their actor costume.
It's just me
Not enough time for them,
For them
I make no
Room.

Making up
Making out
Making news
What it's about
Making friends
Making war
What are we
Doing for.
Making time
Making it go
Making issues
We don't know
Making acquaintance's
Making others
Be ourselves
With each other.

He went off
With another, I'm here
I needed a friend
He left me to tear's.
They say time
Can heal all wound's,
Though why did you go
To her? The wrong move.
Your woman here loved you
I was thrown to your back outing
Who am I to you
A slutty girl shouting?
I'm not your others
Though you contend you are the best man for me
I was stunned to notice
Your just
A fool
Like me.

Don't cheat me
Don't beat me
Don't yell
I'm not another
Don't let me fall
I've already tripped
Don't push me to the wall
I'm not one to hit
To be angry at me
Don't play games
You are the liar
I am the same
Don't slap me
I won't slap back
Why are you
Still like that?

My little one behind me
My man beside me
My casa in the front of me
My love inside me
The planet under me
Bills payed up
My gratefulness around me
The swings I push ballerina on
The bed I sleep with husband in
The yard to be fenced in
Good thoughts
For a bright future.

Frightening thing's
Frighten me