I'm afraid to love again,
become so happy with the presence of someone,
the last time I fall, shattered me.
The memories still haunts me.
I'm afraid to lose myself again,
loving someone
who will just end up hurting me.
I don't know when will I be ready,
to say "I love you" again to someone.

I don't know what to
I don't know what to feel
I don't know who will listen
I don't know who will understand
I don't know who I am
I don't know how to explain
I don't know where I should be
All I know is my mind is full of things,
thoughts that almost kills me
regrets that starts to haunt me
Nobody understands me,
nobody listens,
I am so tired listening to others,
why can't they even listen to me?
I am so tired,
I don't know if I can still make it
or should I really give up.
I don't know, wishing that somebody will help me.

Way back ago,
I found you.
We made memories together,
some made us happy,
some made us fight with each other,
but it made us stronger.
The destiny is really playing with us,
we really hurt our feelings,
we said hurtful words,
we finally decided to part ways.
We can't really blame each other,
if we treat us now stranger,
Bitter to hear,
I don't wanna see you,
I don't wanna hear you,
I don't wanna be with you,
But I swear it made me better.
It made me realize that people really come and go.
They go because it will make us better, not bitter.

sometimes you're like homework
so confusing
and i just stare at you
absent-mindedly
hating you
yet you're important to me
it's so hard to finish you
and i lose inspiration every now and then
but when i get high as my grades
i come running back to you

i can't wait to graduate from school
get rid of this infatuation
we would be adults by then
and hopefully this mess will be sorted out