There I sat
In a pile of my own shame
Crying over my own stupidity
It was my own fault
I allowed myself to love you


I always do It
Fall for the one that shows me attention
I think I ruin It for myself
I try to hard
Or maybe I don’t try enough


I’m yet to understand
how the male brain works
That’s why I want you
To help me figure It out

I wasn’t lost
At least I thought I wasn’t
I didn’t realize I was a victim of the hero syndrome
I thought I really loved you
And I thought feelings were mutual
But I guess they weren’t

you gave me your glasses
so I can see through your eyes
I thought things were clear
But I guess It was just a blurr

You saved me
From the Evil
That Is my mind

You rescued me
From the Imprisonment
Of my own thoughts
And thought that was out of love
But It was just you being you

That’s what I loved
You being you
You as yourself
Is so perfect


I wasn’t lost
At least I thought I wasn’t

I watched you
The same way you watched me
However,
I saw you watching me
And you didn't

I want you to
Trust me

Tell me your biggest fears
Your scariest dream
Your largest goal
Trust me

Trust me
With your feelings
With your secrets
With your heart

Trust me
Tell me things you fear to tell the others
Tell me what makes you mad
Tell me what makes you smile

Trust me
Show me your past
Show me your future
Show me your present
Show me you

Trust me
Entrust me with your life
Entrust me with your love
Entrust me with the big weights

Trust me
Allow me to guide you
Allow me to be your crutch
Allow me to help you
Allow me to trust you

All you have to do Is trust me

Trust me
I won't hesitate
When you finally realize
What I'm worth
It'll be too late

Trust me
I won't wait
When you understand
What you're missing
I'll have moved on

Trust me
I'll be gone
When you learn
That you truly
Missed your turn

I'm not sure If you've received the message
But I won't want you when you finally want me

Why does It feel A school day last so long
But the school year Itself goes so fast

Why does It feel like My birthday takes so long to appear
But I got to 15 so fast

Why does It feel like a race takes so long to run
But the time Is so short

Time doesn't make sense
I can't comprehend It
I can't understand It
What time Is It?

You annoy me
You anger me
You fill my heart with lies

You upset me
You disturb me
You make me roll my eyes

Every time you come around
I act like I don't care
But we know that If you did't
I would miss you there

Don't do that
Pretend like It's over
Because both you and I know It's not

Don't do that
Run from my hug
Because you're just gonna turn around and kiss me

Don't do that
Fake a laugh
Because we both know that laugh was real last night

Don't do that
Walk with them
Because we both know you walk me home

Don't do that
Love me behind the scenes
Because we both know I'm what you want the most

Don't do that
Reject my love
Because we both know you love me

Don't do that
Make me wait In line
Because we both know I'm the V.I.P.

Oh look
You did It anyway

Don't do that
Cut out your heart
Because we both know I don't want It anymore

Is It wrong to miss you?

We talk all the time
Yet I feel like It's not enough
The few hours a week should be enough
And yet I feel like you don't miss me In between them
When we talk It's like we never stopped
But when the time Is done I can't bare to see you leave
Now, 2,500 Miles apart
I can't seem to get you out my head
I know I don't love you
And I know you don't love me
But I just miss your companionship
You're the best, best friend

Is It wrong to miss you?

Some words aren't meant to be
Spoken
Some hearts aren't meant to be
Broken

Some tears aren't meant to be
Shed
Some people aren't meant to think
Ahead

So don't over step or cross your
Line
Special things come with
Time

I praise you
Not because you put a roof over my head
And provide me with food to eat

I praise you
Not because you make everything okay
And give me a place to sleep

I praise you
Not because you make me who I am
And wake me up everyday

I praise you
Not because you keep me safe
And always help me find my way

I praise you
Because you are Jesus Christ
My Lord
And my Savior
You forgive me of my sins
No matter my behavior
You bless me daily
Whether I deserve It or not
It Is you that I worship
And my evil that you fought

You were crucified
So that I could live
So It Is you
That I have praise to give.

I praise you

Wow
She carries herself better than politicians

Wow
She's more talented then the performers on Broadway

Wow
She's smarter than a rocket scientist

Wow
She's sexier than the "angels"

Wow
That's great!
But Is she herself?

Look,
At the way she walks

Listen,
To her vocabulary when she talks

Smell,
Her neck when she hugs you

Taste,
Her soft lips when she kisses you

Feel,
Her heart beat faster as you grab her waist

All five senses point to yes
She wants you

Don't tell me that he likes me
I know that It's not true
I wish that It was
Because all I want Is you

He's a really funny kid
To always have around
But when his friends show up
He's no where to be found

I am In awe of his essence
His comedic attitude
I can't get him out of my mind
Can't believe I love this dude

No he's not the cutest
But I've got a thing for he
You say that he likes me too
But why would he like me

The whistle has been blown

My blocks are set
I'm warm, ready,
But I'm nervous

On your mark

I'm set
I've prayed
Yet I'm nervous

Set

Only 3 seconds left
2
1

Bang

All fear Is gone

I don't know when It happened but It did

"What?"

When Kindness became a publicized thing.

When a small act of graciousness had to be filmed and shared.

When a person helping another had to boasted about

Why can't we help each other without a reward

When did people become to selfish to the point where you only do things for others In order to gain or receive

I don't know when It happened but It did

You really don't think she's worthy of you?

Okay you get good grades
You've skipped a grade
You won the spelling bee

But are you smart?

Okay she carries a 2.4
She got held back
Okay she can't spell well

But Is she dumb?

You got Into a four year university
She's going to community college

You're now a lawyer
She's now an artist

You're rich and successful
She's rich and successful

You're getting a divorce
She's getting married

You lost your kids In court
She's carrying her second child

It's her 10th anniversary
It's your 10th DUI meeting

You're at your High school reunion
She notices you

You ask her If she's smart
She says no

She asks you If you're happy
do you know what you said...............

Jasmine Roper
That doesn't sound "fancy"

It doesn't seem like a "title"

But what real name does?

It Isn't new or original,

Its just me

Isn't that good enough?

You
You consume my thoughts

You overtake my brain

You control my dreams

All I see Is you

I am yet to know you

But I know your face

I know your laugh

I know your challenge

You make me better

Even though I don't know your best side

You make me smarter

Even though I'm yet to know your smartest side

You enlarge my dreams

Even though I'm yet to know your largest dream

You give me the biggest smile

Although I also gave you yours

It may not last

But for now you stay you

You

I thank God

You sent me here

I didn't want to move

But I'm glad I did

I didn't want to stop loving him

But I'm glad I did

I didn't want to be creative

But I'm glad I did

You placed these people here
In my path
To force me through doors I didn't see

I didn't want to open the doors

so you presented me with the people who would do It with me

And I thank you for that

Thank God

For placing me on the journey I am now In love with

I used to believe that your peers mattered

Until I met you

I thought that age should be similar

Until I met you

I didn't know that a few years could mean so much

Until I met you

I tried to fit around It

But mental capacity wasn't enough

The wall the age built was far to large for me to manage

I couldn't climb It

Now you're gone

Another chance missed

If only age wasn't a factor

well,
I guess It's just my age.

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4 consonants
1 vowel
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We thank
We congratulate
We appreciate  

Everyone person

Whether you created
Dominated
Or lead  

You made our race what It Is

From our Barack Obamas and Martin Luthers

To our Oprah Winfreys and  Maya Angelous  

We thank
we congratulate
We appreciate

Everyone person who has made us, us

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I know you're not the one
I'd like you to be
Sadly you're not

What we had was fun

But It's over

Yes I'll miss your smiling face
the way you make me laugh
and the tears you could dry
Yes I'll miss you

I know you'll miss me too

But what we had was Fun
Just fun

Nothing more, nothing less

I liked you
You liked me

No where was love

I'll miss your kind of fun
It was a different kind of fun
An awesome type of fun

It was fun
Just fun

I would like to reach you
but I can't

I would like to teach you
But I can't

I would like to learn from you
But I can't

I would like to leave you
But I can't

I would like to kiss you
But I can't

I would like to laugh with you
But I can't

I would like to love you
But guess what? I can't

Well,
Maybe I can
I can't say I tried

I thought about how
I thought about why

Maybe I can

If only I try

What Is this urge I have
I don't understand

This drive to
Create,
To Invent,
To design.

What Is this?
I don't understand

How do I act upon It
How do I complete this
How do I start It

Where did It come from?
I don't understand

Pray Just Pray
Pray on It
Pray with It
Pray over It
Pray about It
Pray without It
Pray along Its side
Pray Just Pray

I come off strong
I come off confident
I come off fearless

However,

I am STRONG
I am CONFIDENT
I am FEARLESS

I am myself

I look different
I sound different
I act different

I am different

I am myself

I dream bigger
I dream further
I dream smarter

I dream
For myself

I am her
She Is me
I am myself