There was always someone
Better than her
Prettier than her
Smarter than her
Loved more than her

She couldn't figure out
Why she didn't measure up
Why she wasn't good enough
Why she never made the cut
Why she couldn't be anyone's number one.

Second choice.
That's all she was,
All she's ever been,
And all she felt she'd ever be.
Just someone's second choice.

Living
In a
Fatal
Eternity

Raindrops running down the window at a quickened pace,
Like tears down a face
Thunderous roar of the wind,
Block out the cries,
Of  another girl who fell out of grace

Flashes of light brighten up the sky
Lighting up the face of a boy so shy
Clouds cover everything,
As darkness encircles
It hides all lies


The storm has pasted
Bringing light to an outcast
The sun shines,
With rainbow colors above all heads
But this storm won't be the last

What if love is a poison
And we all strife for something that will **** us
But don't care because it makes us happy?

You are perfectly imperfect,
And I wish you could see that I'll never leave,
Never run from you,
I love you.
Please won't you stay too?

You cannot expect something new to grow
If you nurture what is old.

The old and new cannot flourish together
And will both fade away.

Then you will have lost both.

Streaks of lightening crash down to the ground
Through the sky, it tore
Thunder as loud as a lion's roar
It silences all other sounds
The storm chases away any signs of day

Raindrops come down so fast
A wind with an eerie cry
So powerful you'd think you could fly
But don't worry, the storm doesn't last
Just wait it out and it'll be gone in a flash

The sun will break through
The clouds will separate
And not a moment too late
Showing a rainbow of beautiful hues
Made from the beauty of a storm

I walk through the glistening ****** snow
That covers the sorrow of autumn’s death
Where I find on a bush a frozen rose
Its beauty held ageless in winter’s breath

How I long to touch those petals again
Those moist velvet lips that promise such bliss
Opened in passion whispering my name
As I drift in dreams of a breathless kiss

Oh! To pluck this rose from the winter snow
And hold it closely to my aching heart
And free it from that ice so bitter cold
That now my love keeps you and me apart

But if I were to pluck this winter rose
Would all its petals fall upon the snow?

It's a cold day in the summer sun
Without you here, I'm feeling so numb
And I can't believe
How far you are from me

You stole my heart the first day we met,
and I'm happy to say I want you to keep it
It's yours,
as long as you don't break it

Massacring my senses with every touch.
Adapting to this new pain lust.
Surrendering myself to the pain.
Over resisting the painful pleasure.
Captivated by how good the pain feels.
Hooked on this insatiable feeling.
Irrationally seeking more pain.
Savoring every ache in my being.
Taking in the delicious sensation of every violent connection of skin.

I think I might have a problem... But I like it.

You know how you look up at all the stars in the sky and see how beautiful they are
How they shine
Until it's a cloudy night and all the stars are gone
And you wonder why you're looking up because there's nothing there to see
That's you
You're a cloudy night stealing my stars from me
No, wait, you're not
That's my depression
That cloudy sky is my depression
 But you wouldn't know that
You caused that
You were suppose to show me the constellations and how they shined just for me
How bright they shined just for me
But no, you came in and stole those stars
You *******
This is your fault and you don't care
"Oh I'm sorry"
How sorry can you be when you text an apology
You monster
You thief
How could you do this to me?
You took my stars and my sanity
But you don't care
You just moved on to another girl
I hope you treat her better
I hope you know every thought of you makes my mind *****
Makes me digusted
The sight of you is like looking at corpses and rot
Like maggots and worms
The sight of you is sickening
Every picture
Every thought
It makes me want to push you in the path of a bus
Of a train
Of a boat propeller
You'd deserve it
I hope you treat her better
And I want my stars back *******
You can't have them anymore

You
Are
Such
A
Pain...
...but I love you.

Six simple words hold so much meaning to them
Six simple words can change everything
Six simple words can set me free
Six simple words...

I can't take this any longer

Darkness
Everywhere
Admires
The
Hopeful

I can't believe I'm falling
It feels so fast
I can't believe I'm falling
I hope it lasts

This is crazy
How quickly I fell
This is crazy
How time did tell

He said he's falling for me
I think I might cry
He said he's falling for me
I feel so alive

Hey, it's okay.
The pain will go away
Someday.

Hey, it's okay.
It won't always feel this way.
The pain will go away.

Hey, it's okay.
Don't make this your dying day.
This pain will go away.

Hey, it's okay.
Just listen to what I say
Because the pain will go away.

Hey, it's okay.
All our pages fray,
But the pain will go away.

Hey, it's okay.
Let's dry those tears again today.
The pain will go away.

Hey,
It's
Okay.

In the end,
I always end up crying.
Broken and shattered,
Wishing he never mattered.
Broken,
Laid out on the floor.
Hoping to be no more.

Sometimes,
the safety net hurts worse than the ground
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Underestimated
Sullen
Exhausted
Discarded

People only see the dead walking,
Not the living suffering.

What if the world is black and white
But love shows it to you in color?

I don't know if you remember me
A ghost from the past
Haunting you now
With all the pain that did last

I don't know if you remember me
A victim of your torture
Whispering the rumors that you started
Straight to the author

I don't know if you remember me
A light you liked to dim
Shining in your eyes
With bruises on every limb

I don't know if you remember me
But I remember you

No one knows when you die,
No one knows when you cry,
And no one ever sees the tear in your eye
When you say your last goodbye.

It's sad but true
And I'd hate to give up on you,
But there's nothing left here
With all this manifested fear.

No one knows when you die,
No one knows when you cry,
And no one ever sees the tear in your eye
When you say your last goodbye.

My heart is ripped to shreds,
So I'll shut up and take these meds.
They'll numb the pain
For a girl with no more to gain.

So I'll close my eyes,
Say all my goodbyes,
And break all my ties
Because no one listens until somebody dies.

Peer in my eyes
Into my soul.
You can see clearly, I am not whole
With a heart that no longer flies
And dreams that only die.
There's no more use for me,
In this world full of apathy.