So let's face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that it's fun to pretend
Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all we have
They're all we have left
So drown me, if you can
Or we could just have conversation
And I fall, I fall, I falter
I find you before I drift away
Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up in flames
And isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel fake
The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to keep ourselves alive

I am aware
of all things present,
the pinch behind my eyes
the pressure in my nose
my deep, soft,
too loud–heavy–quiet breathing
(How?)
Give me back my bones
Give me back my sleep,
my dreams.
Too close, too much, not enough:
I am endlessly ending

Cry

Please let me sleep–end–cry–
somethinganythingplease

yours
     glossy
           cherry red
                and ever so
                           enticing
                                      perhaps
          ­                                      could i
                                      invite them over
                   so they could lay
         ever so softly
on mine?

my mind crawls
the same way my skin used to.

admittedly, i draw blanks.
everything i say
is in prose,
yet everything i write
mimics a brick.

hard.
lifeless.