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Ashley Rodden Feb 2022
Lost here in the city on a colorless night
I can’t feel the things that I keep inside of me
You know I need it
I should try to call you but there’s nothing left to say
Maybe what it was, wasn’t something to save
There’s nothing to say

And I’m waiting, waiting
You said you were taking me home
And I’m waiting, waiting
You can only live so much on your own

How do ones we love turn into strangers and ghosts?
How do I hold on when you’re letting me go now?
You know I need you
Have another drink because it’s in my blood
Maybe I believe that I’m too hard to love
I’m too hard to love

Take me to the light, I’m waiting
Take me to the light, take me home
Take me to the light
I’ll be here waiting for you
Ashley Rodden Jul 2021
Why didn't you choose me?
Why did you leave when I needed you most?
Is that what love does...
it runs away, it's absent in the times it is needed most of all...?
I thought love was supposed to stay,
and stay...
but love always goes away.
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Ashley Rodden Apr 2021
My love, my dearest.
My thirst for you is never quenched.
My longing for your touch, always persists.
My hunger for your love, is never satisfied.
I need you!

I am an addict.

From the first kiss I was hooked.
A high that I reach, every time our lips meet.
The first touch of your hand, I was under your command.
The warmth of your body against mine, warms my soul. I will not ever let you go.

I am an addict.

You are my love, my obsession.
You are the other half of me.
You are the happy, when I am sad.
You are the best part of me.

I am an addict.

You are the addiction, that I will always have. You are the only person I want to spend eternity with.
My addiction for you is pure.

Yes I am an addict.

But you're a habit that my heart will not ever quit. You are the love of a lifetime and thank God you are mine ❤

My love for you will not ever rest.
My love for you will not ever die.
My love for you is eternal.
My love will take a bullet for you and still press on.
My sweetest friend wrote this for me. I have never known a love nor a more beautiful soul than his. A true blessing is his sweet heart to my life.
Ashley Rodden Mar 2021
I've been up for days,
trying to find a way to write this confession down
for what I've done, I am not proud
but there's no need to pretend, no need for innocence
just got to be honest now

The verdict has come in,
it says I'm guilty for these sins of mine
i thought I could escape, but then I finally felt the weight,
of all your crimes
it's passion, it's not love, infatuation never ends up right

Ten thousand times I have screamed
over and over for you to notice me
until my voice breaks
for all this heartache
to gently fade away

Where are the pictures, of you and me?
put aside for no one else to see
afraid of what they might say
but if my heart breaks
at least I still have your yesterday

Not everything said should be heard
some things should stay
buried in the dirt
and when there is no target for your anger
could it be that you're the one who is hurt?

So many pointless conversations
about who's right or wrong,
you or me
every mirror it hides a different reflection
and we both got faces that we don't like to see

But I'll try to find some shelter in this quiet beauty
of a silent night
when the sun has finally set
and pray this worry will finally leave my mind
where it's just me and this pale moonlight

When I think of fates worse than death
all I can think of is something you once said
we were golden, bright like the sun
and now I am stranded
knowing I was never truly the one

With an ocean of anger flowing through me
blood-stained and broken from what I failed to see
that just like a snake charmer you led me astray
now I'm living in distress
just hoping some help is on it's way

In the midst of this storm searching for shelter
i came upon one single feather
and made a half-hearted wish for something better
all the while being gracefully cursed
i thirst

Burned into these ashes and soil
i'm dyed-in-the-wool
there's iron in my blood, yet i'm still so vulnerable
but after I'm truly gone, and once my heart finally leaves
you will be left alone to the wolves and real thieves.
Ashley Rodden Mar 2021
So let's face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that it's fun to pretend
Now blank stares and empty threats
Are all we have
They're all we have left
So drown me, if you can
Or we could just have conversation
And I fall, I fall, I falter
I find you before I drift away
Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up in flames
And isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel fake
The things we do just to stay alive
The things we do just to keep ourselves alive
Ashley Rodden Mar 2021
You are where I want to be
You're my best friend
The one who knows me better than me
You've always had this way of looking past the mess that is me
Into my heart, my soul, you see infinity
I never see judgement or fear in your eyes
I see compassion and kindness
The longing I feel, your patience I see
You have and would wait eternities for me
Ever familiar, forever home
Never wavering faith, strong
The solid ground to my constant shifting sands
Arms that feel like home, like they won't ever let me go
Fingertips play me like a piano
Hands so strong and powerful, yet touch me soft as an angel
Lips that kiss life back into my spirit
A tongue that speaks no evil or lies
And a smile like the most beautiful sunrise
You give me warmth and wealth
Give me dreams and hope
Give me fame
Give me love and soul
Give me *** and art
Give me everything possible
You entertain my broken soul
Entertain my faith
Entertain this life
Teach me my own ways
Teach me my beliefs
Teach me what I'm not
And what I'll never be
Ashley Rodden Oct 2020
You
In the morning when I wake
And the sun is coming through,
You fill my lungs with sweetness,
And you fill my head with you
Shall I write it in a letter?
Shall I try to get it down?
You fill my head with pieces
Of a song I can't get out
Can I be close to you?

Can I take it to a morning
Where the fields are painted gold
And the trees are filled with memories
Of the feelings never told?
When the evening pulls the sun down,
And the day is almost through,
The whole world it is sleeping,
But my world is you
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