The doctor said, "Your heart is pounding"
I know it too well coz I can't stop thinking
Negative thoughts conquered me like they always do
Fear of the unknown that is soon to be known
A minute or two is a matter of life and death
And waiting for the "sentence" is worst than any threat
The doctor looks calm, the exact opposite of me
She wrote down something I can't see
As she turned on the page
which seems like ages
I pray
for the first time in a long while
I pray
And the doctor said, "You're good to go, just take your meds and get some rest"
What a relief, my second lease on life may mean to live it to the fullest.

We're now longer over
Than the time we've been together
Still, all the memories sting
Coz pain of what if's and could've been's is all it brings
Yesterday's promises of future
Now serve as pure torture


And there's no escaping it

"I'll make a picture of you" I told her
"Are you a painter?" she asked.
"No, but I can paint you in words" I answered

The only forever I've got from you was goodbye
But thank you still for being part of my life
even if it was just for a short while

The year is almost over
though it still lasts longer
than your love did.

Go away is what you say
How ironic it is when all I ever wanted is to stay
And maybe what you say just says much
That maybe the irony in me tells a lot
About the one inlove and the one being loved