he said
I'll paint a picture.

you heard
I'll paint a masterpiece.

he said
I can't give you everything.

you heard
I'd give up everything for you.

he said
I'm done with you.

you heard
You wasted my time.

he said
I miss you.

you heard
You were right.

I really liked the idea of you and me together.
but turns out, I also
really liked the idea of being hurt and humiliated in the worse way possible.

I hate you and your
fake *** lies.

me
+
you
=
a beautiful disaster

i'd rather be dead
than be played by you again.

i'd rather be dead
than listen to your ******* again.

i'd rather be dead
than hear you fake apologies.

i'd rather be dead
than let myself fall for you again.

i could tell you all the things i love about you.

but i could just say

your everything.

that's so funny
how you played my heart like a piano.

that's so funny
how you hit me like a piñata.

that's so funny
how you laughed at me when i was low.

that's so funny
how i'm standing on my own.

that's so funny
i forgot to laugh.

I thought I loved you.
I really did.
But when the bittersweet smell of roses and sweat hit my nose,
I could only feel the thorns.

I thought I loved you.
I swear it's true.
But you came barreling into my life,
I just, took the bull by its horns.

I thought I loved you.
But my soul was tired.
And now my heart is broken,
because it lost your touch; it mourns.

I thought I loved you.
But I fell so in love with the idea of loving someone,
I forgot that you weren't even mine.