I'll peel the peaches one by one
And slice them when the peeling's done
I'll cook them down in sugar brown
And in the syrup you'll surely drown
Atop the peaches I will cook
A lovely cobbler in which you'll be hooked

We'll sit together then
Both hopeful that it never ends
We laugh, we smile, make amends
Sisters, friends, it all makes sense
We're happy now, in this moment

Though I must admit I never liked
The peaches that you hold so high
Still I find this cobbler fine
As it brings together you and I
….Even if it's all a lie

If I make a wish, it all comes true
Could I still be me and you be you?
I just don't think it'd work at all
One of us would have to fall
And I'm unwilling now to break
To mend all of your aching weight

Perhaps it's best we put it to rest
This Cobbler, a lie, was all a jest
A wishful thought, a helping hand
One I knew would never land
Still I can dream, a dream again
At some point maybe I'll forget...

You sneak up on me
Grab my waist tightly
Hold me in your arms;
Crush me.

This isn't beautiful
Or romantic
It's broken, it's faulty;
A slippery *****
And I'm falling

This time though
I know.
I see the signs
I paved the way
I'll just keep pushing
Toward another day;
For you will not stay.

Paper and Pen
Has always been
My weapon of choice
Carrier of my voice
My comfort, my escape
Here on the page;
I feel most safe.



Still somedays I wonder
If only my voice could speak
As articulately
Perhaps the world could be
Just as meant for me...



So maybe.
I'll just try, a little
To speak out
With words that are not brittle.

I fear,
Worry heavily over,
Realizing my dream
My passion, my drive
"Too late"
But, I must ask myself
When exactly
Is too late??
Ten years from now?
Twenty?
Or is too late tomorrow,
Or next week?
Because some days
It feels that way
And days like today
I wonder,
If there even is such a thing..

Maybe when I'm gone
Once my bones decay
It will be too late
Yet even then,
Someone might just
Remember it.

I set off on a journey
On which I'd find my soul
Or so that was my hope
What I found was much more

I struggled on the narrow bridge
They called Vulnerability
I'd locked myself away
Even I didn't know me

When I opened up the door,
What remained were tiny shards
Of a person once there
But never quite untorn

I picked my favorite pieces
And stuck them where they fit
But the image they created..
I didn't recognize it

So I went to the deepest depths
Through the caves of doubt
I crept
I dug till there was nothing left
And when I found it so
I wept

Not for the lack of findings
But for the lack of doubt
I held onto my courage
And even I had made it out

The next hurdle was a mountain
We called it Motivation
Along the climb I'd find
The smallest fragments of my mind

One's that urged me
"Keep smiling,
Keep searching,
Keep growing"

Soon I reached
The castle of dreams
It was quite tired, worn
Long forgotten I'm sure
I searched among its treasures
And lost secrets I had learned

Next I had to jump
Take a leap of faith
Into the ocean of change
I had to accept the waves
And gently they led me
Not once astray

When I landed
I had an epiphany
This journey is never ending
Not until I am done for
This tale is not already written.
It is mine to finish.

So much has happened since
You left us in the wind
From a tragic ending
A whole new life was able
To begin

If you could see me now
The smile on my face..
I fear you'd fly off in a rage
Swallow the key to my cage
No, I suppose if you were here
I'd never experience life this way

Who would have thought
The world could be so lovely
Unpainful, unalarming
Hardly the awful things you'd swore me

I want to wish
That you were here
But it's impossible, that's clear
It was either you
Or it was me.
Somebody had to leave..

I'm just glad I got to see
The world you hid from me.
I'm better now
Than I would have ever been.
I just wish, If you could see,
You'd be happy for me.

Ps.
I loved you, mother.
I did.

I grow tired
But growth is being done
I stand, weary eyed
Still standing though, aren't I

My mind it tries to fool me
Play off my fragility
What she doesn't know
My hearts become full of hope

It's beating quiet
And sometimes slow
But it's there, that I know
That's all I need to grow

I fidget with anxious thoughts
A troubled mind
She'll tell me awful things
And she'll whisper little lies

"You are not good enough
You will not win
You'll never find your joy
Or Passion

Not beautiful
Untalented, unbright
Crooked girl with crooked mind

A silly child
On a dead end road
Full of fool's gold

Lackluster,
Growth only leads
To withering

Forget this slippery *****
Drop your empty hope,
You are not good enough!"

But I know
These thoughts are merely
Here to protect me
To convince me not to grow
Because growing means
Hurting
And change

Growing means everything
Must be rearranged
And that's scary, I know
But it's something we must do to cope

So quiet down, my mind
I know you think you're being kind
But heart and mind together
We could be so much greater

And I know no matter what
We'll grow through the rough
So lean on me a little
Let this heart beat
For both of us