help fill the void in my heart,
clinging to the little hope i have left.
you started a riot, of intrusive thoughts molded in my head.
vivid dreams is the only thing that make me feel closer to death.
so now i close my eyes, exposing the revelation thats waiting to be said.

memories are the last thing i have of you,
i wonder if you remember anything at all,
i yearn for remedies, to be forgotten at all
i was perplexed by everything you do
i remain captivated by the slightest signs of your signals,
insecurity over-washes me, i can’t comprehend the symbols
then i realized, i’m searching for signs that don’t exist
in the midst of the night, the aftermath remains a bliss.

They tell me that one day someone will come into my life and make everything feel right again,
but how can they? I've always longed for things I can't have, people that don't return.
I have never felt the sublimity of anyone's presence like I did with yours, nevertheless, I pushed you away.
I always do this, when I finally find something good worth keeping, the fear of losing it makes me subconsciously push it away.
I let everything get the best of me, not realizing what I'm worth, I never keep what I deserve.
I am brimming with secrecy inside of me, your presence still lingers within me.
The truth was never meant to be seen, only touched and left for eternity to disintegrate.
Even if we were destined to be, I think it's only imaginary.

I feel foolish by the lack of words between us, and yet,
I sit here waiting for some sort of connection to magically happen,
The silence sounds loud when I think of you,
I have expected too much and once again, I end up in agony, although,
your voice is a melody that I can never get enough of,
and when your eyes twinkle like the stars in the sky,
it's because you're so far away in the galaxy and I can't stay,
I will search for the right words to make you come back,
we crossed paths accidentally for a reason, and even though I have never been a believer of coincidences,
I will wait and wait, and maybe if i am lucky,
I'll be enough for you.

It's 4 me, 2 let u know
I am so glad that I have u
through all these years
I am so thankful.
now that ive grown
I'll always be
thinkin' of you
w/all the things, you taught
me so, always remember.
I'll be alright, I'll be okay
I will be good ('free'), Learning all the way
all from the heart these things I do
I'll make u proud, bcoz I <3 u

i offered you everything while torturing myself,
we used to watch the birds through our tiny window when i was little,
your presence fades whenever you get closer to me,
an empty space between us becomes more apparent,
the destruction is starting to become a part of me that i cannot defy,
the more i grow up, the more i ask myself why,
why do i put up with this?
i mourn in solitude, filled with regrets,
your misjudgment, you never seem to apologize even when you’re at fault,
i came to the conclusion that i never want to be like you,
so thank you, I hope you feel the triumphant loss.

Lust is like the beautiful scent of a rose,
alluding you under the false pretense until you lose all your senses,
it will start to slowly linger until the ***** of its thorn becomes visible,
then lust will no longer be something you adore.

i am one with the wind,
passing time, fading into eternity
i am one with the sea,
drowning in a melancholy tune
i am one with the eyes,
desire with an ache of a forbidding fruit
i am everywhere, i am one with the peace.

the words you told me are engraved in my heart,
maybe it was your preconceived impeccable bonds,
accompanying me in my dreams
a soul neither euphoric nor wretched,
wishing for an eternity with just yourself
up awake at night, not wanting to sleep,
because i know once i close my eyes
i will meet you once again.

Do not try to remember the tales of how we met or ended
I was there when the fiery passion of our broken souls burned the city to ashes
you will always try to find your way back to me, in old dusty books,
in the signs on the street, in our songs that seem so lost to me now.
You were like a mirage in disguise, alarmingly enlightening.
I am spirling in a maze, a labyrinth, I'm getting dizzy going round and round through the same old thing.
I remain still not wanting to remember the feeling, of being with you

I Knew I loved you when I was packing to move a thousand miles away and you kissed me and reassured me you won’t give up on us
I knew I loved you when I forced myself to watch a ****** movie with you just to be in your presence
I knew I loved you whenever you held me down and tickled me till I was laughing with tears
I knew I loved you when I told you about my past and instead of leaving, you held me close and told me it’s going to be okay
I knew I loved you when I showed you my bad side and you didn’t judge me, you stayed and never gave up
I knew I loved you when I started to speak your made up vocabulary
I knew I loved you when even mid argument I’d look at you and hope I never get to lose you
I knew I loved you when you told me about your past relationships and I realised how strong you are to not give up on love
I knew I loved you when we played that card game the first day you came over
I knew I loved you when we ate dinner and sat on the balcony every night looking at the sky and having never ending deep chats
I knew I loved you the second I opened that door and saw you
I knew I loved you all along.