regarding  canoes

i saw a car coming in with them

on top, the days of the floods &

assumed they were well prepared



the bridge is back open again i see

yet the bus is still diverted around

the waters





so will wait to go some sunnier

day when things come settled again



it was not urgent so i look forward

to a day drawing things out. yester

day it was joan of arc



we used to hear the lorry coming down

long road hill twice a week, tuesdays &

thursdays.

we chose our corona drinks, my favourite

was orange

the boys liked dandelion and burdock

or american cream soda



only a few know the end date

now I'm alone
it's what I wanted

why does it feel colder
why does the light shine brighter

you can come and turn the music louder
what's so funny
am I boring

keep me distracted
I don't want to go back upstairs

don't leave me alone
even if I ask for you to leave

I'm sorry
I'm the reason everyone leaves

no one is reaching out to me
I can't find the strength

I can't find the moment to say
hello

Black Lilacs
blooming -

a blossoming
of grief -

dark fallen pollen
on the breeze -

I can see it falling
all around me -

there on the wall
for us to see -

April will be
the cruelest of them all.