this brain thinks wisely
yet this heart is blind
love and hate
all blended in one
every resistance i tried
the ignorance come forward
stronger that the hate
braver than the love
but still
in a blink of an eye
catching back your arms
and get hurt
once more

how long it is been there?
growing bigger and deeper
wanted to remove it
as the dew disappears by itself
but this
the feeling
can not be rejected nor be forced

bright morning sun radiates its light
to bring the joy
to cheers the broken ones
to light up the smiles
the music plays in sudden
recall all the moments open the healing wound

street light down the road
the reflection of yours
glazed eyes
tidy teeth
smiling back at me
overwhelmed my heart once more
back then we were lovers
you and i
the impossibility that we are keep trying to reach
never tired

be quiet
it is better than destroy something
be silent
it is better than hurt someone
think twice
it is better than create a new story
do not judge
what inside of it not always bad
just ask
it will end up good

i heard that u are taken
my heart startled and died for a second
i never liked you
but i think im wrong

i may good with my words
not good at act
you are good with your words
as good as your act
but nothing can be glued
our feeling
yours and mine
eventhough they are same

the desire to lay a hand down
to reach you

those feet are running
against the wind

eyes blow out the pure water of sadness

one single angel

standing in front of
the mirror

regretting one word you said
for the last

full of your words

cant hold the amount
inside the letters

liking you even more than
yesterday

how to send the words directly

when the distance is growing bigger
to the biggest

from black to rainbow
these shoes keep walking around
this feeling that i've raised by my own
now you are on top of my line
leaving the clue
got taken once
i wish it were you

from rainbow to blue
is it so hard to recognise it?
question mark evertime i see you
the coldness of me
why don't you get it?

from blue to black
i surrender

stop making
          *me nervous

with the words
you spelled so right

            the truth you
told that night

it felt so unreal
but
i believed it

your smile as warm as sweater in winter
can't even talk to you with my eyes straight to yours
it only can give a fool smile
the charming side of yours kills me everytime

we wanted to be together
*but we could do only nothing

life....
a story that must be finished
you....
the character that must be found
me....*
a person who is waiting

i found you
rather than tell you the truth
i only can see you from afar
rather than give up
i only can wait
until you become one
the character of my favourite story
that i adore the most
even though the season has changed a million times
*because i don't want to be a vandal of your love story

never seems so interesting
until it becomes a nightmare
about losing you
the sight of your shadow becomes a small dot
then gone
these eyes never cried blood

you....

a lullaby to the sorrow nights
a sharpen knife to my heart

We talked
         once

               Memories
left inside the texts

Eyes were glancing at me
I looked away

This head wondering
why it's so heavy

      Hiding all
the questions

Closed my own
                mouth

I never wanted you to
made me felt this way

You were gone
without a word

       You said
you miss me

But won't come back

Then you are
           happy

Come

Come the death

Take my breath away

Leave me alone without a soul

I had killed by man with heart like stone

Came and crossed the line to take the bruised heart

Irresistible as Juliet Rose but dead

Love of mine

Taken away never touched

In my dream

I saw you

Like a star

Glimmering in the dark night

Shining so bright to amaze me

Came closer and closer

Till i could smell the heaven

Living in your illusion

Become one of the regrets

But it was too late to escape

A movie playing in her head
You and Only You
The only one that she adores
The only one that she loves
But he will never know

Couldn't remember it
The first time she lost her mind
Pretty smile that melted her heart
Those big eyes that prettier than her
She fell in love

He got an angel but another one
Her heart broke
Like how a paper ripped

He'll never know
The way she stares at him
He'll never know
The heart that given to him
He'll never know
She loves him

trying to smile in the crowded

cheeks jaded, hurt so bad

trying to show you the differences of me

convincing everybody that i am the happiest

the truth has buried deep inside

nobody tries to dig it up

keep hiding everything

bleeding inside nobody knows

You gave me the hope

Then you pulled it back

I lost my mind

Blank and Dark

It is like i'm in another planet

But then you came again said i need you

I wont hurt this fragile heart

So i stay you go

I let you walked away

Till i saw nothing

The wind sang the lullaby

I'm in sorrow but it's you

The one who gave me this massive scar

So i stay you go

Starring at me with that big eyes
My heart melted like in summer
Never knew that pretty word

I thought that was a lie

But the truth it is

Stomach is full of butterflies
Heart is full of roses
Cheeks jaded, hurts so bad
Night seems like morning
Have no strenght to forget you

I close my eyes
Watching a movie starring only you
Want it to be in reality

But i am just a sunflower near a red rose

eye blinked
                   *means a lie

   the truth has burried
                  deep inside

the paper flies took
                         the stories away

don't want anybody to shout it out
so she acts like a shadow

deep inside the jungle of a broken heart
long time ago
where the stories started
before everybody came and broke it

the light was ended in smoke
she evolved

the dark she hated become friend
the flames she was afraid of become the light that she adores
they created the strongest devil

the goodness won't works
god couldn't help

united with the darkness
couldn't find the way to home
*now she is trapped and couldn't go back

You turned off the light
The corner where the memories brighter than life

Fades away......

The promises that you left
The tears that become mine
The list we made, it stays inside the box

Forever......

I wonder how you feel after that girl
The dream that keep haunting you

about you and i

about the memories that forgotten

my heart that you brought
left me a massive scar
my heart that you brought
left me a massive hole
how could i cure it without you?