I've lost the courage to eat
And all I want is sleep
Where once I'd dream of you
Suddenly there is nothing
For me to do
Trapped in a waking coma
By a shameful persona
Why rise?
If all I will do is fall

Wasting away
Wasting the day
Marginalized
And compromised
Consuming my fill
Of filthy lies
Swallow the truth
So no one can see
What I myself
Have done to me

The wind blows
Shallow
Through my window
pane
A chill runs up my spine
Forces me
To awaken from my fortress
Of technology and blankets
To look outside
At the real world
Where I fear to tread

Mosquitoes never lie,at least when they come close you know they want you.Even if its just for a moment.

Mosquitoes never lie,immediately they painlessly insert their mouth into you,you know its just you and them,no third party involved

And for that moment its just you both,you gain nothing from the mosquito except its presence,it gains a food source

Then as swiftly as it came it goes,leaving behind an itch and a realization.....

Oh wait
Mosquitoes do lie,
Just like you

The Beast rest
Don't get too close
You'll wake the Beast

It's very rare
For someone to get near
Without provoking Him

If you get near
He will awaken
He'll look into your heart
He'll see if you're worthy
He'll pass judgement
If you could come closer

He protects Me
I protect Him
Many have hurt Him
Many cannot understand Him
Very few can

Beware the Beast
If you get too close
He'll watch you
If He senses danger
He'll defend Me

I will not restrain Him
I'll let Him feast upon
Those whom wish Us harm
So allow the Beast to rest
So don't get too close
Just keep your distance
For I won't be responsible
For what the Beast will do

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that is hard to read.

The only thing that makes it easier right now is that I am in love.

By the time I was 15 I had already been tossed aside onto a path that has led me through unfathomably amazing and terrible moments that have scarred and forever changed me as a person. And I'm still alive, living- still experiencing traumatic losses, broken dreams and the growing pains of being an almost 18 year old girl with a little attitude. I was always destined to be unconventional, as a child I couldn't imagine my perfect american dream house, or what I was going to aspire to as I grew older. I felt joy in simple things, such as nature, tea after a long day, a smile, his eyes and painting. I never felt I had any remarkable, or valuable skills, until you showed me. You made me realize that even if you've lost, you're broken and every day your body and brain ache from the pains of growing almost 18, you'll survive another day. That things like trees, tea and art- are sometimes all you need. That I will go far, I'll make it somehow and I will succeed.

Finally, after all these years I can clearly see- my perfect american dream house, just you & me.