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Tomorrow.
Happy, sad.
Fear of growing up.
I wish I can stay little forever.
Redo my childhood that has been taken from me.
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But, I know I can't go back.
Keep going forward.
Keep growing up.

Three months ago you said I was your sunlight, but today I saw you put your hand over your eyes to block the sun

You're not here, but I see you.
You're not here, but I feel you.
You're not here, but I breathe you.
I smell you in the spring flowers on the side of the road.
When walking down the street
I see you in my dreams,
H a u n t i n g me.
I need you, but you're not here.
I'm just hoping & wishing that you breathe me too.

'Everything goes back to the middle'
My mom used to tell me when I was a child.
'No matter how hard life gets, it'll always go back to the middle'
So, next time thing get really bad..
And you don't think you can make it through...
Remember, life will always go back to the middle.

We were young, we smelt like pixy sticks and hope.
Ran through the meadows getting our dresses ***** without a s i n g l e care in the world
We'd laugh until our bellies hurt, and laugh even more
Smile so big the whole world could see it
Until you turned 13
Never saw that breath-taking smile again
Never laughed til you cried
All you did was just cry
Never came out your room
Til that day we found you
Hanging from the ceiling

I'm homeless now
You were my home
My only home in the ******* world
You're gone now
Too many memories I can't erase
Can you feel it?
Can you?
Sometimes at night, I can feel something wrapping around my bones
C r u s h i n g me
S u f f o c a t i n g me
Can you feel it?
Can you ******* feel it?

it's 3 AM and it's raining, i can still feel your lips on mine, i can still feel your breath on my face as you kiss me for the last time, i can still hear the last words you said to me playing over and over in my head like a broken
record player, "i don't love you anymore.. I'm sorry" you left me, in the rain. I was a peaceful sunshower, now I'm a deadly hurricane