How is it possible
To be hung up on someone
Someone who isn't even yours

It's like missing someone
Someone who you haven't even met
Strange yet so real

The thought of it being fake
knowing that it's probably all imaginary
Makes you doubt yourself

Am I overthinking this?
Is this even real?
Do they feel the same?

It's like playing on the PS3
With your controller unplugged
It might look like you're winning or losing

Swinging your emotions
Toying with them
Going from happy to sad

But it's all for nothing right
You're not really in the game
You just think you are

That's what it's like to be hung up
Hung up on the imaginary
Nothing feels more bitter sweet

I'm just so sad right now
I don't know if it's just momentarily
Or a general sadness about my life
I think it's the second one this time

I mean
I've had a lot of "sad moments" before
But none of them felt as real as this one
This time it's different

I am generally disappointed
In how I am living my life
Do I have a choice though?
This is my life

I did not ask for it
Nor do I control what happens in it
So, yeah
I'm just going to continue loathing my life
And being helpless about it

I used to think
That when you really want something
You end up jinxing it
And it doesn't work out

Now I've decided to believe
That the more you want something
The harder you have to work for it
And the greater chance you'll have at it

Slow down
Take a breath
Clear your mind
Live the moment

You realize where you stand
Everything is so clear
You're not there yet
Where you want to be
Where you're supposed to be

You start to overthink
And feel like utter ****
You thought that by now
You'd be there already

So maybe it is easier
To just stop thinking
Keep looking ahead
Don't live the moment